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and told them what had happened. Having medicines in the parlour, we went down to look there for the ipecacuanha, but there was none. We returned to my room, and found it. I took about 30 grains. We then joined For half an hour it had no effect. I thought it would then have no power, as the opiate must in that time have taken hold of the nerves of the stomach. But it soon after operated, and brought up (it seems,) both the laudanum and ipecacuanha. Fearing the whole had not come away, they gave me another dose; but that had no effect at all. I felt however not the least inconvenience. In the night, I a little rambled, and was restless, but not ill. On the whole, it was a comfortable dispensation. I had been always tempted to think, if I should be called to face death in full health, I should shrink from it. But now that I fully believed it to be just before me, my soul did calmly wait on the Lord, though not with joy, yet with quiet peace!

Last night I dreamed, I was telling the Lord, He was the loadstone, and my soul the needle. That his will was the north pole, to which my heart should turn, howI have ever tossed about. To-day Miss Ritchie came. had some profitable conversation with her. She is indeed a blessed soul; and I feel more of the immediate presence of God since that conversation.

May 5. I had a meeting some days ago at Bwhere an odd circumstance occurred. I observed, (as I and was speaking on these words,-The Master is come, calleth for thee,) a gentleman among the congregation, who looked with great earnestness. As soon as the meeting was over, I rode home, where I had not long been, till this man came after me. He is a stranger, and came into these parts about business. He felt a great alarm in his soul; and declared he had always before thought himself very righteous :-but he now feared he should go to hell; and insisted on telling me his whole life, and confessing, (as he termed it,) all his sins. He was very

long; and I feared there was in his mind a mixture of insanity. He told me he was building a house for an assembly, but he would go home and turn it into a preaching-house, if I would come and speak in it, that his neighbours might get the light he had got. I strove to prevail on him to return to the friend's house from whence he came, and to set off the next morning for his own country, where he told me he had a good wife and family; but he insisted he would not leave me till he had found the Lord! At length he said he felt some comfort, and would go and spend most of the night in prayer. Next morning he was more calm; and on my promising to answer him if he wrote to me, he went away. Satan made use of this occurrence to bring me into discouragement, respecting public speaking; but some years after I heard a most pleasing account of this gentleman, That he had indeed turned his assemblyhouse into a Methodist preaching-house, and that himself and family were joined to the society.

June 11, Tuesday. Mrs. Westerman came here on the Thursday before Whitsunday, and staid ten days. She came in full expectation of a blessing;-and in the Sunday night meeting, as I was in the last prayer, I felt it on my mind to plead with the Lord, that he would seal some soul as his abode that night. Just then the answer came. She felt the heart of stone taken away, and has ever since rejoiced with exceeding joy. Tuesday I went to B. When we came, we found the man at whose house we were to have been, died that morning. Another offered his barn, though with seeming fear ;but when we came to the house, he either could not, or would not, find the key. So we stood in an open place, with some serious people from other parts, and some of the careless inhabitants. However all behaved well, and I found liberty in enforcing those words, "Acquaint now thyself with God, and be at peace,--hereby good shall come unto thee."

July 20. This day I found a good deal of liberty in prayer, especially in pleading, “If it be thy will I should be holy-if it be the great design of thy death,—O then let it all be answered on thy poor creature. Let all thy will be done!" It seems to me I fall short in every thing. I am continually making rules and plans, and yet I keep to none with any degree of exactness. Nevertheless, I see it well to make them ;-for though I never come up to what I propose, yet I always gain something: every fresh effort seems to put me a little forward. I have of late been reading Dr. Cheyne's works. I see self-denial very beautiful, and of profit both for soul and body.

July 24. H. S. gave a good account of the work wrought on her soul. I think it is about three months ago I providentially met with her in a class which I went to meet about a mile from home. She appeared that night all ear, and quite awakened to the desire of loving God with all her heart. I felt much liberty in conversing with her, and asked her to come to the meeting, which she did the first opportunity, and seemed quite broke down ;-expressing herself in such a manner concerning her inbred sin, as plainly showed the Lord had plucked away every covering. While we were at prayer, she felt a degree of living faith; and last night she gave the following account :-" After I left you I was very happy. I went to bed wondering at the great miracle Jesus had wrought in saving such a sinner. When I awoke in the morning, (O what a precious morning to me!) I had an impression as if my dear Lord stood just by me and said, 'I will cause all my goodness to pass before thee.' I cried out, 'O it is thee, my Lord!' Then the words came to me, 'I have set thee as a signet upon mine arm, as a seal upon my heart. Thy sun shall no more go down. I will be thine everlasting light, and thy God, thy glory.' O what rapture did I feel, and so I do still! He is all day long speaking so sweetly to me, and I have such views of his glorious love as I cannot express! O

never sure did the Lord do such a miracle! For I do believe there never was such a vile polluted creature as I have been !"*

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August 30. Yesterday it was given out for me to be For a whole month it lay on my mind. None, O my God, but thyself, knows what I go through for every public meeting! I am often quite ill with the prospect. When the day came, the wind was violent, which is a thing I have a great fear of, because it so affects my head; for after riding several miles in it, I am scarcely in my senses. And I suppose it is worse to me, not having been used to ride on horse-back till I came into Yorkshire. A little before I set out, I said, “O Lord, thou canst still the wind;-but Thy will be done." When we had got about a hundred yards from the house, the wind fell, and we had no more trouble from it all the way. My hearing was much affected at this time, so that I feared I should not be able to converse with any person. But before I got to the place, my hearing was as good as ever it was in my life,-and I was not at all fatigued! There were many persons got together; and after spending about two hours with them, the time for the meeting drew on. We went to a barn prepared for that purpose by the kind friend who had invited us. There was a good congregation; and I found some enlargement in speaking "Hath on those words, which came then to my mind, the Lord as much delight in sacrifices and burnt-offerings as in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than to sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams. As I was speaking on the word Hearken, I felt the Lord peculiarly present. The people would fain have had me stay all night; but for some reasons I thought it better to return ;-which we immediately did, and reached home a little before eleven.

*There are ten thousand happy believers that would dispute that point with her.

Ed.

September 7, Tuesday. Glory be to God! this has been a comfortable day. My soul is in sweet expectation that I shall be filled with the Spirit; and that I shall yet see the time, when by my whole life I shall bring glory to God. I feel power to abandon my whole cause into His hand. O Lord, thou hast undertaken for me, I feel thou hast; I feel also great resignation as to the life or death of Thy dear servant. O keep him, Lord, as the apple of thine eye. I believe Thou wilt order all right; and I shall regard him with an immortal friendship, that will be free from snares, and all divine. But it is strange, when I am offering him up, the words come, "The of faith shall heal the sick, and the Lord shall prayer raise him up." I do not understand, but I stand still.

September 14. Yesterday I was a good deal oppressed. I had undertaken to meet the old members of our society apart, and to propose to them a renewal of our covenant; -to set our hearts and hands afresh to the work of God. Glory be to his name, I was carried better through it than I could have hoped for. Some little touches of enthusiasm were beginning to creep in among us, which I thought the more dangerous as the meeting now grows very numerous, members being added from all sides. Yet was it a great trial to me to have to reprove them,1. Because many are much farther advanced in grace than I am. 2. I was deeply conscious it is one of the most delicate subjects in the world, and requires both much wisdom and much love, to extinguish false fire, and yet to keep up the true. All the day I kept pleading before the Lord, mostly in these words of Solomon"Ah! Lord, how shall I, who am but a child, go in and out before this thy chosen people?"

September 17, Tuesday. Glory be to thee, my faithful Lord! O that I could always trust! Then I should always praise! Last Sabbath morning I went, according to appointment, to Goker. I arose early, and in pretty good health. The day was fine, though rather hot. About