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eleven we came to Huddersfield, and called on Mrs. H. She had asked me to lodge there on my return, and have a meeting, saying, many had long desired it, and there would be no preacher there on that day. I felt immediately the people laid on my mind, and that I had a message to that place,—and said, if the Lord permit, I will. She then said, "We will give it out at noon. We rode forward. Benjamin Cock met us, and kindly conducted us over the moors. When we came to his hut, all was clean, and victuals enough provided for twenty men! But I was so heated with the ride, (near twenty miles,) and with the great fire on which they so liberally cooked for us, that I could not eat. My drinking nothing but water seemed also quite to distress them. They said the meeting had been given out in many places, and they believed we should have between two and three thousand people. That I did not believe ;-but there was indeed such a number,-and of such a rabble as I scarce ever At one we went out to the rocks,—a place so wild that I cannot describe it. The crowd which got round us was so great, that by striving which should get first, to the quarry, (where we were to meet,) they rolled down great stones among the people below us, so that we feared mischief would be done. Blessed be God, none were hurt! I passed on among them on the top of the hill, not knowing whither I went. Twice I was pushed down by the crowd, but rose without being trampled on. stopped on the edge of a spacious quarry filled with people, who were tolerably quiet. I gave out that hymn, The Lord my pasture shall prepare, &c. When they were a little settled, I found some liberty in speaking to them, and I believe most heard. As we returned into the house, numbers followed and filled it so full we could not stir. I conversed with them, but could not get much answer. They stood like people in amaze, and seemed as if they could never have enough. Many wept and said, “When will you come again?" We then set off for Hudders

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field. I felt very much fatigued, and began to think
how shall I be able to fulfil my word there? As we rode
along, brother Taylor said, "I think I ought to tell you
my mind.—I wish we could ride through Huddersfield,
and not stop. For I know there are some there, who do
not like women to speak among them, and I fear
you will
meet with something disagreeable." I looked to the
Lord, and received, as it seemed to me, the following
direction,-If I have a word to speak from Him, He will
make my way. If not, the door will be shut. I am only
to show the meekness of wisdom, and leave all to God.
Those words then came with power to my mind,

"The Lord my pasture shall prepare,
And feed me with a shepherd's care;
His presence shall my wants supply,
And guard me with a watchful eye :
My noonday walks he shall attend,
And all my inidnight hours defend."

When we got to Huddersfield, I told them the conversation we had had by the way, and the posture of my mind; which was calm as the limpid stream, and quiet as an infant. I perceived his fears were not groundless, and said, “Well, my friends, I will do as you will, either stay with you this night, or go forward directly, for I follow a lamb-like Lord, and I would imitate his life and spirit." They said, they believed but few of the princi pal persons had any objection; and the people much desired it ;-besides, as it had been given out at noon, there would be a great many strangers whom it would not be well to disappoint. It was then agreed that we should have the meeting in the house, where they usually had the preaching; but when we came there, the crowd was very great, and the place so hot, that I feared I should not be able to speak at all. I stood still, and left all to God. A friend gave out a hymn; during which some fainted away. Brother Taylor said, "I perceive it is impossible for us to stay within doors, the people can

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not bear the heat, and there are more without than are within." We then came out. My head swam with the heat; I scarce knew which way I went, but seemed carried along by the people, till we stopped at a horseblock, placed against a wall on the side of the street with a plain wide opening before it. On the steps of this I stood, and gave out, "Come, ye sinners, poor and needy, &c." While the people were singing the hymn, I felt a renewed conviction to speak in the name of the Lord. My bodily strength seemed to return each moment.-I felt no weariness, and my voice was stronger than in the morning, while I was led to enlarge on these words, "The Lord is our Judge, the Lord is our Lawgiver, the Lord is our King, He will save us. I felt great enlargement while endeavouring to show the purity of our Judge, whose eyes could endure no iniquity. That as a Lawgiver he was just and holy, and the thing gone out of his lips must stand :-The soul that sinneth shall die. But the Lord is also our King, and he will save us. First, By convincing us of the purity of His law, and the justness of our punishment, who have broken it. Secondly, By making us tremble before that Judge, whose eyes are as a flame of fire. Thirdly, By leading us to Him, who is cur "Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous," who now manifests himself to the soul, as the propitiation for our sins.—And, Fourthly, As a King he goes on in the believer conquering and to conquer,-till the eternal reign of Jesus commences in the soul; which as the "morning light grows brighter and brighter unto the perfect day ;"-till " the perfect love which casts out all fear," marks the soul as the abode and "habitation of God through the Spirit." Deep solemnity sat on every face. I think there was scarce a cough to be heard, or the least motion; though the number gathered was very great. So solemn a time I have seldom known; my voice was clear enough to reach them all; and when we concluded I felt stronger than when we began.

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They then desired me to speak to each of the women joined in the society, which took me till near ten. room we went into for that purpose, was a damp stone floor, so that I could hardly move my legs when I came But they kindled a fire, and after getting some refreshment, I grew better. About twelve I went to bed, and rested under the shadow of the Almighty till morning, when I found myself remarkably well. After having breakfasted with brother Goldthorp, where we had a lively conversation concerning holiness, I came home with much thankfulness and peace.

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October 8. I was to-day at Clackhigh-town and saw the hand of the Lord in many things. I have been more abundantly led to reflect on the difficulties of the path I am called in. I know the power of God which I felt when standing on the horse-block in the street at Huddersfield but at the same time I am conscious how ridiculous I must appear in the eyes of many for so doing. Therefore, if some persons consider me as an impudent woman, and represent me as such, I cannot blame them. Again, many say, If you are called to preach, why do you not do it constantly, and take a round as a preacher? I answer, Because that is not my call. to attend to, and many cares which about. I must therefore leave myself to His guidance who hath the sole right of disposing of me. Again they say, Why do you not give out, I am to preach? Why call it a meeting ?" I answer, Because that suits my design best. First, It is less ostentatious. Secondly, It leaves me at liberty to speak more or less as I feel myself led. Thirdly, It gives less offence to those who watch for it. Others object, Why, yours is a Quaker call; why then do you not join them at once? You are an offence to us. Go to the people whose call is the same as your own; here nobody can bear with you." I answer, Though I believe the Quakers have still a good deal of God among them, yet, I think the Spirit of the

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I see this, though they were to toss me about as a football, I would stick to them like a leech. Besides, I do nothing but what Mr. Wesley approves; and as to reproach thrown by some on me, what have I to do with it, but quietly go forward, saying, I will be still more vile, if my Lord requires it? Indeed for none but thee, my Lord, would I take up this sore cross. But Thou hast done more for me. O do thy own will upon me in all things! Only make me what thou wouldst have me to be? Only make me holy, and then lead me as thou wilt!

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August, 1777. I heard Mr. Wesley preach from these words, "Dearly beloved, as strangers and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts which war against the soul." A sweet discourse it was, showing the great danger of every earthly gratification. This lesson, he said, might be learned even from the body. As often as we take down food, we swallow so many seeds of death, by causing so many more particles of earth to adhere to, and clog our vessels, and so hasten our dissolution. And without

great watchfulness so it would be with our souls. If we were not on our guard, human comforts received would also bring the soul nearer to death, instead of being a step to life. It is truly said of worldly joy, "It does with powerful charm hold down the mind, and sensualize the soul."

Sunday noon. I heard him on these words, "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.". His strength was wonderful, and much power attended the word.-Lord, be the strength of thy dear servant, and his portion for ever! At night he lodged with us. August 14. Last night dear Mr. Wesley came here again. After supper he read a letter from Lady Maxwell, in which she expresses a most sweet state of soul observing, that if the name of Jesus is but mentioned, her heart is like the key of a well-tuned instrument, when

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