“ I am ready not only to be bound, but to die for the Lord Jesus."

On Monday morning I had a peculiar sweetness on my spirit in meeting the people; and at night I read and spoke from the 21st of Matthew. It was a good time, and some souls were blest. On the Tuesday, being our intercession, I do not know when I have found such liberty. The Lord was very present, and a deep solemnity rested on the congregation; some of whom have since told me, the Lord wrought much on them that night. Blessed be God, he still gives me to bear his message to the people. O that my little remaining strength and time may all be devoted to him. Yet I have of late been much tried with such a stupor upon me in the morning, that I cannot rise till near seven o'clock. This pains me much. Lord, make me more active in thy work! I have since observed some answer to prayer, with regard to rising in the morning: Lord give me to persevere !

November 1. The Lord give me to abound in charity as to the outward act; but where is the difficulty of being so, when the Lord hath made my cup to run over? ? If ever my charity was great, it was when I had little, expecting a prison for myself, while I was helping others. Yet at that time I am not sure it was cheerfully done ;-a necessity seemed laid upon me. But now, though I give much, and am much employed for the poor, yet I fear I do not save all I might for them out of what is spent on my worthless self. How has the Lord appeared for me! Another's grace, another's wisdom, another's management!-My father's and husband's money all devoted to service! all gathered together to serve me! my these thoughts came rolling over my mind, those words presented themselves, "When I sent you without purse or scrip, lacked ye any thing? And they said, Nothing." November 13, Tuesday. Yesterday concluded eleven years since my dear husband and I were made one. was a solemn day to me. I strove to renew my marriage covenant with the Lord; but it was a day of

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gloom; I had no near access.-Much of it was employed among the people, as Monday usually is. In the morning meeting I had some liberty, and more at night, while reading and speaking on the 12th of the Hebrews.

December 1. I was much encouraged in considering, that it is the office of Jesus to Baptize with the v Holy Ghost." How is it we so to neglect to look for the fulfilment of that office of our Lord! Did he not say, “He that believeth on me, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water. And this he spake of the Spirit," which they who believe on him were to receive. This gift of the Holy Ghost is therefore the very thing believers are to look for. No matter what they call it, a clean heart, salvation from evil tempers, purity, or what they will,-it makes no difference. There is a baptism of the Spirit for believers to receive, and which I have had a taste of; but I want the fulness. The Lord is faithful,-it shall come. Yes, I see it, I come near it, I feel a touch of it while writing; yet my faith wants a further lift. Lord, it must be all thy own doing?

December 2. I was talking yesterday with one who told me many were much alarmed about the nation.That inflammatory papers were throwing about among the army, and it is feared they will raise among them such a spirit as reigns in those of France. I was led to consider that and various other things, which appeared to me as signs of the times. At night I felt much liberty in pleading for our good King, and that God would restrain the evil ones, who are striving to raise a spirit of ingratitude and rebellion in our nation. I felt comfort in my old word," The Lord reigneth!"

December 11. This has been on the whole a good day. I cannot say I have found so much liberty in the fimes of family prayer as I usually have; but in the five times of my private approaches to the Lord, I think I have each time had a greater degree of it,

December 16, Sunday. My spirit pants after God! O Lord, glorify thyself upon me; this is what I long for, and pray for. I seem like a poor beggar waiting at mercy's door; oft full of hope, and then again the door seems shut. I want the spirit of prayer. I want also a more self-denying spirit. Last night I dreamed my dear husband wrote a line for me to read. I took up the paper with desire, and read-" Those who closely follow Jesus Christ, can discern the mark of the thorn in his steps." As soon as I was dressed I lighted a candle, and opened the Bible to read, when I cast my eyes on those words, "Seeing Christ hath suffered in the flesh, arm yourselves also with the same mind." I see it. If I would walk with Christ, I must know my path by that very mark, a constant death to my own will. Lord, show me how to walk thus! Give me a steady power to rise the very moment the alarm goes off. To watch against sloth all day, and to use more abstemiousness in my food. I believe this would be good both for soul and body; and I have asked it of the Lord, that Sally may see it in the right light, and not fret and be unhappy when I do not take what she thinks I ought. This is oft a mighty hinderance to me in little mortifications which I would use. I am quite clear I have no right to hurt my body. I am not, I think, in any danger of that. But often self-denial promotes health. I hope to begin to-morrow,which we had set apart to pray for the nation, and for the children on whom the Lord had begun to work. I propose to keep a watch over my appetite each day, and this indeed the Lord hath already given me; but to this I would add, a shadow (for I cannot call it more,) of a fast, twice a week. On Mondays and Fridays I would omit butter in the morning, eating dry bread, and as usual rosemary tea without sugar. For dinner water gruel, with salt and pepper, and as on other days, tea for my supper.-This cannot hurt my health, and may be a kind of remembrancer, that there is such a duty as self-denial.

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February 9, 1793. The watch-night, the last evening of the year, and the intercession, the first of this year, were both favoured with much of the presence of God, and some souls were a good deal stirred up. Blessed be the Lord, the work does not cease. How melancholy did our situation appear when Mr. Horne was called away! But we are comfortably provided for in a minister. O, how good it is to stand still, and commit all our ways to God! This day my spirit has been waiting on the Lord, and enabled to keep in his presence.

March 20. This morning I felt a power to ask, That I might be kept from grieving the Holy Spirit all the day. I knew there would be much hurry and many distractions. Glory be to my God! I found Jesus a sweet refuge, and a freedom from all confusion or hurry of thought all the day. The presence of the Lord keeps all in peace. This day I have experienced afresh the fulfilment of my former promise of having plenty of silver. Among other things I have had some singular opportunities of helping the church, and the poor, each in small portions. Oh! how can I praise the Lord sufficiently for such an indulgence! What numbers of his dear children am I enabled to assist! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me bless his holy name!

March 26. This morning having some painful thoughts respecting the cancer, I carried them to the Lord. A sweet calm came over my spirit. I could freely offer up all to God. He knows, if I saw my way clear, I am While ready every hour to submit to the operation. I waited in calm and peaceful resignation, that word occurred to my mind, "Can there be evil in the city, and the Lord hath not done it?" I said, No! it is all in his hand. It can rise no higher than he pleases. I thought also, If my dear husband was with me, and had power over the complaint, should I be under any concern about it? I answered, No, I should not. My tender partner would direct and help me through all.

Well, said my heart, my heavenly Bridegroom is more powerful, more loving, more present, than the dearest human friend can be. I have nothing to do but stand still, and he will instruct me in the way I should go. I have his own promise, all shall work together for my good. Even my mistake, if I am under one respecting this disease, all shall be for good. I am alone, and have none to direct me. Therefore I give up all to my Lord! and as we order for an infant, so will he order all for me. Whatever is His choice is mine.

April 1. Yesterday being Easter Sunday, I felt a desire to give up all my concerns into the hands of God, by a fresh dedication of myself to him at his table. I was much troubled the night before with a suggestion, That I ought to have the cancer cut out, and that I should see it so by and by. I ventured to pray that if it were the will of God that I should stand still and wait on Him, He would give me a peculiar blessing on the morrow. My prayer was graciously heard. So comfortable a Sabbath I have not had for years. I gave up soul and body into the Lord's hand, with a firm confidence, that he would order for me, as a tender husband for a wife; and when I went to the table I was enabled to consider it as the seal of our mutual covenant, and my faith has ever since found an increase. The marks of death seem to be upon me, and they are a great blessing! I seem continually called to offer myself up as in martyrdom; and so many sweet promises came before me, assuring me of the tender care of my Lord, that I sometimes think never was a creature so safe and so happy.

April 4. Reflecting this morning on the various ways in which different persons express themselves concerning sanctification, or what is called Christian perfection, I was led to think,-May it not be thus expressed, I feel a degree of faith which continually unites me to God, through the atoning blood. "I abide in Christ," through whom I am always accepted, and I feel nothing contrary