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Such a safety in trusting in his arm alone! That thought struck me,Many great kings have said, "I have no cause to fear, for I have vast armies, great allies, &c." But O what a fly did it all appear to me, when compared to the power I felt in that simple word, "Jesus is on my side!"

March 18. Yesterday I found an increase of faith. O what repeated proofs I have that the Lord doth watch over his poor creature with guardian care! I had something to do in the work of God which was attended with difficulty; and yet I scarcely knew how to go out in the sharp east wind. But, O how was every thing ordered! I found also such liberty in visiting the sick, as if every word was immediately given me. I had such a view into the way of faith, and the atonement was made so clear, as I cannot express. I saw also the Lord's tender care in a variety of other occurrences. What a freedom from care hath the soul who singly trusts in Jesus!

March 29. I cannot be thankful as I would for the restoration of health which I feel. Cold as it is, I have been enabled to keep to all my meetings,―seven or eight times a week; and my nights are as comfortable as when I was but twenty. I feel no complaint of my breath, when still, nor in bed. O that I might use all my little strength to the glory of God! I see death very near, notwithstanding this amendment.

On looking over my Journal, I miss some observations which I wrote on the death of my dear father in Christ, Mr. Wesley. I think I must have mislaid that sheet, or perhaps lent, and so lost it. However, I wish now to bear my testimony to the truth. I shall have cause to bless God throughout eternity that ever I knew that precious and highly favoured servant of the Lord Jesus. He was indeed a star in the Almighty's hand, and a wónderful instrument of good to our nation. When I was very low after my dear husband's death, among the many gloomy thoughts which came to my mind, one was, that I had not so profited by Mr. Wesley's excellent advice

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as I might have done; and I wrote to him expressing that sentiment; to which he gave me the following answer : My dear sister, I do not remember you ever disobliged me in any thing. On the contrary, you have for these many years done every thing in your power to oblige me." Indeed I saw it my duty so to do, and must acknowledge my many and great obligations to that great and good man.

May 26. How good do I find it to lie quiet in the hand of Jesus! All, all works for good. I have been ill with a cold three weeks, and trust I am laid aside for a season, in order to gain the blessings of retirement. Some fatigues which have occurred from company rather threw me back. The providence of God appeared so clear, I could only say, O how true is that word,

"Jesus doth my burden bear,

Jesus takes my ev'ry care."

Some nights when I could not lie down for the cough, and want of breath, I felt a sweet sense of the presence of God, and of the heavenly spirits! Not any particular rapture, but a solemn consciousness; and those words were with me continually,

"Do what thou wilt with this weak clay,

But let me all thy mind fulfil,

But let me all thy will obey."

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June 1. Blessed be the Lord I am better, and was enabled to meet the class yesterday morning, though I spoke with difficulty. This morning I have found an increase of faith in reading the 10th chapter of Hebrews. O that perfect, that complete sacrifice! Yes, he hath once for all paid the whole debt, there is therefore a free and open way into the holiest! I see death so near, I find it on my heart to pray for, and take thought of, the work of God in this place. O my Saviour, cause it to increase abundantly! Keep away stumbling-blocks, and pour out thy Spirit in a peculiar manner on my dear husband's orphans. I could wish Miss Tooth to remain in Madely, if a way should be made for her, and that she

might be able to take in the preachers. I can see no other way so likely and proper; and I think it would be the most comfortable for them. All is in the hand of the Lord. She has the cause of God truly at heart, and if her health is restored, she will, I believe, be very useful to the people. That word I think of with pleasure, All things are beautiful in their season. So I trust I shall find it. O that death may have no sting for me, and that her way may be opened before her by the Lord!

August 4. Having been told by several persons that a report has got abroad, That my dear Mr. Fletcher expressed a sorrow for having wrote his CHECKS TO ANTINOMIANISM, and that he died in quite a different opinion. I do solemnly aver there is no truth in the assertion. So far from that, a little before his death, speaking of the hurt that so close an application had caused to his health, I said, but thou dost not repent the labour? He replied, "O no, it was a great blessing to my soul. And if my strength was wasted thereby, it was in the cause of truth." I never knew him have the least variation in his sentiments; and I am sure he did not willingly conceal any part of his mind from me, any more than I did from him.

I had this morning a solemn look at death. Many complaints seem to be gathering about me, and they seem to portend sufferings, but I feel a spirit of true sacrifice, and those words are sweetly on my mind,

"Leave to His sov'reign sway

To choose and to command,

So shalt thou wondering own his way,
How wise, how good his hand !"

August 18. From an uncommon hurry of strangers being here, and other circumstances, I have had no timẹ for writing in my journal, though I should have liked to set down many things. All the last week was very solemn; the day of my dear husband's death, falling on the Sabbath this year, brought each scene to its own period,

and caused me frequently to look back and praise the Lord, who had preserved me in the deep waters through which I at that time passed. I had a most humbling view of the little progress I have since made; yet I found a great confidence in my good Shepherd, whose wise providence I have seen and experienced in a remarkable manner. He does so fit my strength to my day, and orders all in such wonderful mercy, that truly I am constrained to say, (unworthy as I am)

“Round me and beneath are spread

The everlasting arms.

September 12. At eight o'clock this morning, sixtynine years ago, I was born. How many dangers I have passed through! But Thy merciful arm has been over me, and proved by a thousand and a thousand ways, that the hairs of my head are indeed numbered. O my great Deliverer! how hast thou stood by me, and heaped mercy upon mercy on me!

September 15. I feel a fresh beam of light upon my soul! A further discovery of the extent of the atonement. On Tuesday night, when at prayer, I found the eye of faith grow brighter, and the open fountain more plain before me. O the liberty the believer hath of coming every moment to the Saviour! If I shut my eyes I may fancy the sun doth not shine; but the vail is not on the sun, but on my eyes. The Saviour saith, Whosoever cometh unto one, I will in no wise cast out. Lord, give me ever to feel the sense of this truth which I now do, that every moment I may wash my robes, and both make and keep them white, for thy blood cleanseth from all sin.

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Blessed be God, another is gone to her rest, our dear Sister Benbow, the account of whom, by Miss Tooth, had not time before to enter. "From what Mrs. Benbow has told me, I have reason to believe she had been under the drawings of God from her earliest youth. Some years since she began to come to the Monday meetings at Madely. These she found so profitable, that; although the difficulty was great, owing to her weakness,

she would still persevere. These last three years she has been confined by illness, but often expressed her longing desire to be at those opportunities again, if the Lord should permit. Upwards of two years ago I went to see her, and I may say, I have counted it my privilege and honour to visit her at every opportunity since that time. She drank in instruction from either conversation or reading. The experience and death of the children of God were the delight of her soul. Mr. Fletcher's letters, and his appeal, were much blest to her. Concerning the latter she would say, “ Blessed be God for that book, for it hath taught me the way to Jesus by faith." When I have been reading to her, observing her pain to be so violent, I have for a time laid the book aside; but she would say, No, read on, it does me good. It refreshes me, and gives me encouragement. O what should I do if his everlasting arms were not underneath me, but he does sweetly support me, glory be unto him."

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She suffered great pain, even to agony, yet not one murmuring word was heard to drop from her lips. In one minute she would be crying out with the violence of the pain-the next she would be saying, Thy will be done, my sweet Saviour! I would suffer all thy will.

"I the chief of sinners am,

But Jesus died for me !"

I feel great peace, and those words are powerfully applied, I know that my Redeemer liveth. I can say with David, Though my flesh and my heart faileth, God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. O that word, for ever! There is something so sweet in that word, for ever! Another day, as I entered the room, she cried out with triumphant joy, His banner over me is love! O the sweet times I have had this last week in reading the Scriptures! Another time, as I was observing the power of divine grace in loosing the heart from earthly attachments, she said, I prove that, for time was when I seemed to have ten thousand ties to this world,

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