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and aching hearts, for my dear sister Ryan was so ill as to be carried in arms in and out of the chaise, and to be watched with every night; and the bringing down so large a family two hundred miles, was attended with no little difficulty. We went first to Mr. Taylor's wife's parents, where we found a family of serious persons. The old man and woman were patterns of industry and seriousness; and the wife a person with whom I found much fellowship of spirit. We staid with them seven weeks until we could find a house, which for the present would suit our purpose,-which we at length did at Guildersom, in the West Riding of Yorkshire.

My dear companion now began to sink daily; but as the account of her last scene is included in her life, I will not enter into any particulars of it here, only add, that on the seventeenth of August, 1768, she experienced in reality, what she had seen in her dream, viz. that

He would kiss her raptured soul away."

She departed this life in the forty-fourth year of her age. Thus passed the dreaded moment which I had for seven years so painfully apprehended. But she had often in her illness said to me, "My dear friend, I have obtained for you of the Lord that you shall not be overcome of sorrow, therefore fear not, for I know he heard me." Her prayer was, in a great degree, answered; I was not over

hope of deliverance. But the Lord knoweth how to deliver the godly out of temptation and until then

"Darkly safe with God, thy soul

His arm still onward bears,

'Till through each tempest, on the whole

A peace divine appears!"

This was the blessed result. The Lord turned her captivity, and filled kier mouth with laughter, and her tongue with praise.

Ed.

come of sorrow. The thought of her long suffering, and present happiness, much alleviated the bitter cup, which I had. tasted of occasionally for some years. My great affliction did not come at once. The Lord treated me, as we do a child; He put one thing into my hand to take away another. I thought I saw some comfortable prospects before me in life, and a veil was drawn over the many and great crosses which were to follow. I prayed I might be kept close to the will of God, and preserved from turning to the right-hand or to the left, now that I had lost my spiritual mother. But I did not wish to die ; neither could I get my heart into that spiritual frame I had enjoyed in the year 1762, and therefore being mingled with earth, I felt all my ties were not cut through. I had sometimes conversed with her, on the subject of departed spirits having communion with us, and she used to say," If it be the will of my heavenly Father, I should rejoice to communicate some comfort to you, either in a dream or any other way." But I never had even the slightest remembrance of her in any dream for some months, though she possessed so great a share in my waking thoughts. I often wondered at this, till one night, I think six months after her death, I thought she was hovering over me, as in a cloud, and from hence spoke in her own voice some lines in verse; but I could only retain the latter part, which were these vords,

Mingle with earth we can no more!
But when you worship God alone;
We then shall mutually adore."

By which I understood she meant, I was not in that purity hich was requisite for communion with heavenly spirits; ut it raised in my heart an expectation that such a season 'ould come.

My invaluable friend was buried in Leeds Old Church Yard; where to her name and age were added only these words,

Who lived and died a Christian."

END OF THE SECOND PART.

PART THE THIRD.

Her settlement in Yorkshire.

My health began to fail.-I had for three years had

much fatigue in nursing my dear friend; and some crosses which now flowed in apace, greatly affected me. I grew large, and had dropsical symptoms. My soul was at this season in a low and cold state. My path was strewed with many perplexities and I was at a loss how or where to settle. Trade I much feared; and yet I did not see how I could do without it.. My family consisted of thirty persons, of whom some were rather unruly. I saw the need of taking the reins into my own hands, and supplying the place of my friend Ryan. But this determination was very difficult to execute; and I daily and hourly felt my insufficiency. While she was alive, I considered her as a mother, and like the other young women desired her to allot me my rules and employments; or at least to assist me in the choice of them. These were-First, An attention to the spiritual affairs of the family. Secondly, Taking care for their sustenance. Thirdly, Instructing the children. Fourthly, Meeting each member of the family, one by one, at fixed times. Fifthly, Superintending by turns, the more public meetings of the society. Sixthly, Attending my friend in her frequent illnesses; with the direction and management of the sick.—But the care of the kitchen, buying in the stores, managing the needle-work, with many other articles of direct house

keeping, I was quite unaccustomed to.--While I lived in my father's house I saw very little of domestic affairs, because we lived rather high; so that I was quite a stranger to that kind of management needful for a great family, who have but little to live on. Besides, the manner of life here, was entirely different from what I had been used to about London. Here wheat was to be bought to Inake flour. Bread to be made, cows to be managed, men-servants to be directed; with a variety of particulars in house-keeping quite new to me. Had my friend been spared, all this would have been a pleasure; but now my spirits were so depressed, every thing appeared a burden : -and when I had provided as well as I could, some persons in my family would despisingly say, my victuals were not worth eating; and that I knew not how to order any thing. I had frequent letters from distant parts, some pitying, some upbraiding me; and informing me at the same time, "The stories which we hear carried about concerning you, come all from the members of your own family."-Oh! said I, I have not so abode in my Saviour as I ought; I have gone down to Egypt for help, and therefore is all this come upon me otherwise, I should still inherit that word applied to me with power in the first gathering of my household, "Thou art my hope and my fortress, my castle and deliverer, my defender in whom I have trusted; who subdueth the people that are under me." I mentioned before, that we had met with a large house in part furnished, which was of great service, as my own furniture was not yet arrived. There was land to it, and though dear, I saw it a providence, and an asylum till we could fix better. In the ordering of the out-door affairs, Mr. Taylor was very useful to me, and indeed had not he and his wife been with me, I do not think I should ever have got through some difficulties which I had to encounter. One day he brought me word of a farm very cheap; with a freehold estate adjoining thereto, on which were malt-kilns, a small house, and

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