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against God and his holy word. He was always bold in impiety when in company, but very timid when alone. If he awoke in the night and found his candle extinguished, he was full of terrors. His last words, as related of him, were, “I shall be glad to find a hole to creep out of the world !”
And pray whose monument is that, said I to the Interpreter, which hath a bust on the tablet of it, looking so pensive? • Read the inscription it bears, (replied the Interpreter,) and from his latest confessions, which are there recorded; you will recollect whose it is. I looked with attention, and read as follows: .
I have run the silly round of business and of pleasure, and have done with them all. I have enjoyed all the felicities of the world, and consequently know their futility, and do not regret their loss. I appraise them at their real value, which is, in truth, very low. Shall I tell you that I bear this melancholy situation with that meritorious constancy and resignation which most people boast of? No. For I really cannot help it. I bear it, because I must bear it, whether I will or no. I think of · nothing now but killing time the best way I can. It is my resolution to sleep in the car: riage during the remainder of my journey:
Well, my friend, (cried the Interpreter, when I had finished reading the inscriptions) what are your ideas of infidels now ? Here they speak plainly what are their real sentiments.' ** I think, answered I, my situation is like that of David's when he went into the sanctuary of God, I now understand the end of these men-How truly awful! .
Turning myself round, by way of passing from the contemplation of a sight so very distressing, I beheld in one niche two sculptured figures together, on one column. Who are these? I cried. “This on your right hand, (answered the Interpreter,) is the great Apostle of infidelity, as he affected to be called, of a neighbouring nation. And him on your left is a celebrated historian of our own. . 1
The former, in great agonies of mind, exclaimed to his physician, “ I am abandoned both by God and man. Doctor, cried he, I'll give you half I am worth if you can give me life six months !” And upon the doctor's telling him he feared he could not live six weeks, “ Then, (he replied,) I shall go to hell!" and expired. soon after.
• The latter spent his last days in playing at cards, in cracking jokes, and in reading romances. He is said to have acknowledged, that
with all his bitter invectives against the Bible, he had never read the New Testament with attention.'
My mind was so sickened from the meditation on those few characters, that I begged to hasten from the place. I saw a group of other tombs, some with inscriptions, and others with. out, whose memorials were perished with them;' but I could bear no more. We ascended the same steps by which we had come down, and on leaving the dreadful place, my heart exclaimed, Oh! my soul, come not thou into their secret; unto their assembly mine honour be not thou united!
What impressions the rest of the company felt I know not; but for my part, never shall I forget the awfulness of the scene. Is this the sure termination, I said to myself, of infidelity? Oh! for that warning voice, and that more pow. erful grace to make the voice effectual, which the man of God uttered in the holy mountain, to be sounded in every infidel's ears; · Be ye not mockers, lest your bands be made strong!
My mind acquired great strength and greater knowledge in divine things during my abode in the house of the Interpreter. I was with him somewhat more than three months, and the time seemed to me but a few days; like the seven years of the Patriarch’s labour in the service of the Syrian, for the reward in expecta*tion which sweetened the whole. At length it became necessary to depart; and the morning arrived in which I was to bid him farewell. :. There were several other of Zion's Pilgrims in the house besides myself, who were also on the eve of departure ; and therefore the good man of the house called us together into the hall, in order to receive his parting blessing.
:: MOTTOS. It is my uniform custom, (said the Interpreter,) when Christian friends are about to leave my house, to give them, by way of token, a written motto, consisting of some particular passage of God's word, which, by wearing it in their bosoms, may serve at once, through divine grace, to bring to their remembrance the instructions which they have received from me; and also furnish them with somewhat of consolation suited to the peculiar frame and constitution of their own minds.' In saying this, he presented to a poor man who stood near me, and whose appearance indicated that the glass of his life was nearly run out to the last sand, a piece of paper, on which was written, Jeremiah xlix. 11. Leave thy fatherless children, I will preserve them alive ; and let thy wia, dows trust in me. And within this paper there was another folded piece, bearing this inscription, Isaiah liv. 5. For thy Maker is thine husband, the Lord of Hosts is his name ; and thy Redeemer, the Holy one of Israel; the God of the whole earth shall he be called.' And within this also a third, with this motto, Psalm xxvii. 10. "When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up. As the Interpreter presented this paper to the poor man, he said, “ You have heard all that I have said to you, my brother, on the subject of our own everlasting welfare : and I am much pleased to see, from the evidences which appear in your experience of the renewed life, that a work of grace is wrought in your heart, and that your hopes are well founded. But as I know that the several claims of nature in your family have a strong hold upon your feelings, I beg you frequently to have recourse to these sweet covenant promises. The first is for yourself. The second for the beloved partner of your heart. And the third for your children.'