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followed me to what Job calls the visions of the night*;' and even then, like the spectre which he saw, the same expostulating voice seemed to cry, 'How shall man be just with GOD?'

The stern demand rang through all the chambers of the conscience, as if a thousand voices had concurred to proclaim the utter impossibility of answering the question, in the very moment of proposing it. And as an echo reverberates from broken walls, so the sound of conviction returned from my broken heart; by 'the deeds of the Law no flesh can be justified in his sightt.'

It is with some degree of grateful recollection, that I look back upon this part of my history; and bless GoD, while I trace his divine hand, graciously interposing by the instrumentality of this poor man, to rescue me from the dangerous path of delusion, into which I had turned, when seeking justification by the deeds of the law. I can now enter into a participation of David's experience upon a similar occasion, and feel somewhat of that spirit which he felt in the instance of the wife of the Carmelite, when under a deep conviction of that sin-preventing providence, he cried out, 'Bless * Job. iv. † Rom. iii. 20.

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ed be the Lord God of Israel, which sent thee this day to meet me; and blessed by thy advice, and blessed be thou*.-In like manner I find cause to bless GOD in the review of this instance as the Author, the poor man as the instrument, and his advice as the mean, which the Lord was pleased to commission, for the Iemancipation of my mind from a self-confidence, which, if cherished, must have ultimately ended in my eternal ruin.

-And my reader will I hope forgive me if I interrupt the progress of the history for a moment, only to remind him, that unless the mind be brought under similar conclusions respecting the unalterable and unaccommodating right of God's demands, 'wo unto him that striveth with his Maker! We may fancy what we please, and frame a standard of our own, for God to go by, according to our notions of the fitness of things; as if an arraigned culprit at the bar should stand up and prescribe laws to his judge! but it would be well to consider, before it be too late, the very solemn tone of decision in which scripture hath settled the point, which leaves the subject at once determined and without appeal. Behold, he putteth no trust in His Saints; even His Angels * 1 Sam. xxv. 32.

He chargeth with folly. What then is man, that he should be clean? And he which is born of a woman that he should be righteous*?'

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There is an interpretation, which I have since learnt, to the text of the prophet, Micah, vi. and ver. 8; which the moral preacher discoursed upon, very different from his; and which I bless GOD the Spirit for teaching me, do justice, and love mercy, and walk humbly with GOD. The Prophet himself, in the very words as they stand, declares that these separate acts are with GOD, in their performance. And without all possible dispute, the first and highest instances of all duties must have a priority of reference towards Him. Hence, therefore, I do justice with God, when from a clear conviction that I have broken his righteous laws, and as such stand exposed to the penalty due to the breach of them, I confess, that I merit nothing from his Almighty hand, but 'indignation and wrath, tribulation and anguish.' I love mercy, in the fullest and truest sense of loving mercy, when I acknowledge upon my bended knees and in the most heartfelt rejoicing, that it is of the Lord's mercies that I am not consumed, because his compassions fail not.' And I defy any one to walk more humbly Job iv. 18. xv. 14.

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with GOD, than the Believer, who, while daily confessing himself to deserve nothing but punishment, is receiving nothing but mercy. This is indeed to follow up the divine precept, and becomes the best comment upon what, it may well be supposed, the Lord requireth. But the view of the prophet's words, according to this interpretation of them, is what I did not learn in the early part of my pilgrimage. The reader will forgive the introduction of it here.

THE FAMILY AT PRAYERS.

FOR ever driven from the asylum of moral duties as a justifying principle before God; and still restless and uneasy from the suspense of an awakened mind, in respect to the solemn events of futurity; I found myself compelled to go further in the pursuit of the wished-for happiness; though what path to explore, or where to direct my inquiry, I knew not.

There lived a family of long reputed piety, whose place of residence lay not far out of my way; from whom it struck me that some information might be obtained. I instantly directed my steps towards the house. And I was

led to consider it as a very peculiar coincidence of circumstances, and not unfavourable to my purpose, that the household were engaged at their morning devotions, just in the moment that I entered their dwelling.

There is a principle, I know not by what term to call it, which acts with singular energy on the human mind, at the very appearance of religious worship. The heart is instinctively brought within the sphere of attraction, and is secretly inclined to participate in what it beholds. I felt this influence operating the moment I entered the room. I considered what this family was engaged in, as a common interest, a common concern; so that without giving any interruption, I dropped upon my knees, unbidden and uninvited, in the midst of the circle.

When the devotion was finished, the master of the house desired me to be seated, and our conversation, naturally taking its rise out of the incident of the moment, turned on religion.

It is my uniform custom, Sir,' said he, 'to begin and end the day in prayer-I consider it to be my duty. I know it exposes me to the sneer of the fashionable world; but I cannot help that. It appears to me to be the obligation of every master of a family, to set up the

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