2nd of 8th Month. Up early and walked for a time, felt very low and void of good. What a state of exile this feels to be!

3rd. Felt a little inward support in my retirement this morning, which was short; owing to having so many hours to labour for outward maintenance, I have but little leisure to devote to religious engagements; but He who cares for the sparrows, and numbers the hairs of our heads, knows all things, and can help the sincere-hearted to every necessary good. His promises remain the same, and He will never leave nor forsake those that fear and serve Him in faithfulness.

4th. First day. Am going to Meeting, and glad of the opportunity. I often consider it a favour that there is one day in seven that we, the laborious part of mankind, are released from employ; that those who are disposed for it may attend to religious opportunities for Divine worship.-A privilege I was at one time deprived of; but not so for the last twenty years. What a favor it is to have religious employers!

8th. No time for retirement this morning. After breakfast read the account of Moses's going up into the Mount. The cloud covered

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the Mount six days, and on the seventh the Almighty spoke to him. This impressed my mind with the necessity of a due preparation of soul, before we can rightly know the voice of Him that speaketh from heaven; and it brought to my mind the practice too common of hastily rushing into words, in acts of worship, without the needful preparation of heart for so solemn a duty.

10th. A time of conflict in my time of retirement this day. I want to feel the house of David in me to wax stronger and stronger, and that of Saul to grow weaker and weaker. I am solicitous that I may be enabled to maintain the warfare, until the work in me is accomplished.

12th. Sat alone as usual, when this language arose: "Be constant in seeking that which nourisheth up the soul to eternal life; and faint not, O my soul! until all is done away, that opposes the righteous government of Him whose right it is to reign."

18th. Glad of the return of the First day of the week. Some quiet granted in my retirement this morning. Went to Meeting; had a solid sitting. In the afternoon sat with my

Master's family when reading; and after it spent a time in silence to satisfaction. How pleasant it is to see a large family so orderly; and so much sweetness amongst them!

19th. Felt my mind weighty this morning. I wish I may continue in the same frame all day, amidst the transactions thereof.

20th. Went to Meeting, and was comfortably refreshed thereby. Let the slack attenders say what they will, I find it best for me to be constant.

23rd. Slept too long this morning, and feel concerned that I have missed the opportunity of sitting alone before engaging on my day's work. Having often known the benefit of so doing makes me now regret the loss,

26th. Not sufficiently on my guard to day.

27th. At our week day Meeting, got a little precious quiet towards the close.

29th. Up early and expecting a time of retirement, but was called away; had however a little sweet refreshment after breakfast, in reading and sitting awhile in silence at the close.

1st of 9th Month. My mind tendered this morning, by reading some of the dying sayings of Friends recorded in Piety Promoted; went to Meeting, and had a good refreshing time there.

20th. In my retirement this morning, had to labour against a wandering mind; yet, in the close, felt renewed in spirit.

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Am glad Meeting day is returned. O! for a willingness to rightly labour for that bread which nourisheth up to eternal life.

27th. Attended our Quarterly Meeting, at which were present several valuable Friends, and a favoured time indeed it was: divers minds were melted into that tenderness and solidity of feeling, which raises a longing to be supported by that Power, which alone can enable us to persevere in that which is good, and hold out to the end in well-doing.

28th. My mind preserved in quiet resignation through the day, in which I was concerned to admonish an individual to whom I had formerly been united in religious feeling, on some impropriety of conduct. He acknowledged my kind intention, which was relieving. I wish for myself and others to take up this part of the

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cross, when we see a friend or neighbour sliding away from the path of peace. It is written in Scripture: "Rebuke a wise man and he will love thee." Prov. ix. 8.

29th. Although poor, yet peaceful in mind: and I long, in accordance with our great Master's advice, to possess my soul in patience.

14th of 10th Month. Up early, and endeavoured to feel after the Divine life in myself, knowing the need I have of daily support. In my zeal to discharge myself faithfully towards my employer, in reproving unfaithful servants, I suffered that to arise which wants to be kept in subjection. I desire I may in future be preserved in a right disposition on such occasions, should they again

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17th Endeavoured after that life which is the support of the true Christian Traveller. How comforting in time of religious drought is the celestial shower!

22nd. Went to our Meeting: present only myselfand a little girl, about 8 years old; friends being generally gone to attend the burial of our friend Ellington Wright; but the good Spirit being felt to be near, I was refreshed.