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a sweet and happy strait, to know what to do; I longed to make some returns to God; but found I had nothing to return: I could only rejoice that God had done the work himself; and that none in heaven or earth might pretend to share the honour of it with him. I could only be glad that God's declarative glory was advanced by the conversion of these souls, and that it was to the enlargement of his kingdom in the world; but saw I was so poor that I had nothing to offer to him. My soul and body, through grace, I could cheerfully surrender to him ; but it appeared to me this was rather a burden than a gift; and nothing could I do to glorify his dear and blessed name. Yet I was glad at heart, that he was unchangeably possessed of #. and blessedness. Oh that he might be adored and praised y all his intelligent creatures to the utmost extent of their capacities My soul would have rejoiced to see others praise him, though I could do nothing towards it myself.”
The next day, he speaks of his being subject to some degree of melancholy ; but of being somewhat relieved in the evening.
June 6. “Discoursed to my people from part of Is. liii. The divine presence appeared to be among us in some measure.— Several persons were much melted and refreshed; and one man in particular, who had long been under concern for his soul, was now brought to see and feel, in a very lively manner, the impossibility of his doing any thing to help himself, or to bring him into the favour of God, by his tears, prayers and other religious performances; and found himself undone as to an power or goodness of his own, and that there was no way left him but to leave himself with God, to be disposed of as he pleased. June 7. “Being desired by the Rev. WILLIAM TENNENT to be his assistant in the administration of the Lord's Supper, I this morning rode to Freehold to render that assistance. My people also being invited to attend the sacramental solemnity; they cheerfully embraced the opportunity, and this day attended the preparatory services with me. “In the afternoon I preached from Psalm lxxiii. 28. “But it is good for me to draw near to God,” &c. God gave me some freedom and warmth in my discourse : and I trust his presence was in the assembly. Was comfortably composed, enjoyed a thankful frame of spirit, and my soul was grieved, that I could not render something to God for his benefits bestowed. O that I could be swallowed up in his praise ! - Lord's day, June 8. “Spent much time in the morning in secret duties, but between hope and fear respecting the enjoyment of God in the business of the . then before us. aS agreeably entertained in the forenoon by a discourse from Mr.
TENNENT, and felt somewhat melted and refreshed. In the season of communion, enjoyed some comfort; and especially in serving one of the tables. Blessed be the Lord! it was a time of refreshing to me, and I trust to many others. “Most of my people, who had been communicants at the Lord's table, before being present at this sacramental occasion, communed with others in the holy ordinance, at the desire, and I trust to the satisfaction and comfort of numbers of God's people, who had longed to see this day, and whose hearts had re: joiced in this work of grace among the Indians, which prepared the way for what appeared so agreeable at this time. Those of my people who communed, seemed in general, agreeably af. fected at the Lord's table, and some of them considerably melted with the love of Christ, although they were not so remarkably refreshed and feasted at this time, as when I administered this ordinance to them in our own congregation only. A number of my dear people sat down by themselves at the last table ; at which time God seemed to be in the midst of them. Some of the by-standers were affected with seeing those who had been ‘aliens from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers to the covenant of promise,” who of all men had lived * without hope and without God in the world,' now brought near to God, as his professing people, and sealing their covenant with him, by a solemn and devout attendance upon this sacred ordinance. As numbers of God's people were refreshed with this sight, and thereby excited to bless God for the enlargement of his kingdom in the world; so some others, I was told, were awakened by it, apprehending the danger they were in of being themselves finally cast out ; while they saw others from the east and west preparing, and hopefully prepared in some good measure, to sit down in the kingdom of God. At this season others of my people also, who were not communicants, were considerably affected; convictions were revived in several instances; and one, the man particularly mentioned in my journal of the 6th instant, obtained comfort and satisfaction; and has since given me such an account of his spiritual exercises, and the manner in which he obtained relief, as appears very hopeful. It seems as if He, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, had now ‘shined into his heart, and given him the light of," and experimental knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.” “In the afternoon God enabled me to preach with uncommon freedom, from 2 Cor. v. 20. “Now then we are ambassadors for Christ,” &c. Through the great goodness of God, I was favoured with a constant flow of pertinent matter, and proper expressions, from the beginning to the end of my discourse. In the evening I could not but rejoice in God, and bless him in the manifestations of grace in the day past? Oh it was a sweet and solemn day and evening a season of comfort to the godly, and of awakening to some souls Oh that I could praise the Lord / June 9. “Enjoyed some sweetness in secret duties. A considerable number of my people met together early in a retired place in the woods, and prayed, sang, and conversed of divine things; and were seen by some religious persons of the white people to be affected and engaged, and divers of them in tears in these religious exercises. Preached the concluding sermon from Gen. v. 24. “And Enoch walked with God,” &c. God gave me enlargement and fervency in my discourse, so that I was enabled to speak with plainness and power; and God's presence seemed to be in the assembly. Praised be the Lord, it was a sweet meeting, a desirable assembly. I found my strength renewed, and lengthened out even to a wonder, so that I felt much stronger at the conclusion than in the beginning of this sacramental solemnity. I have great reason to bless God for this solemnity; wherein I have found assistance in addressing others, and sweetness in my own soul. “After my people had attended the concluding exercises of the sacramental solemnity, they returned home; many of them rejoicing for all the goodness of God which they had seen and felt: so that this appeared to be a profitable as well
as comfortable season to numbers of my congregation. Their
being present at this occasion, and a number of them communing at the Lord's table with other Christians, was, I trust, for the honour of God and the interest of religion in these parts; as numbers I have reason to think, were quickened by means of it.”
On Tuesday, he found himself spent, and his spirits exhausted by his late labours; and on Wednesday complains of vapoury disorders and dejection of spirits, and of enjoying but little comfort and spirituality.
June 12. “In the evening enjoyed freedom of mind and some sweetness in secret prayer. It was a desirable season to me; my soul was enlarged in prayer for my own dear people, and for the enlargement of Christ's kingdom, and especially for the propagation of the Gospel among the Indians, far back in the wilderness. Was refreshed in prayer for dear friends in New England and elsewhere. I found it sweet to pray at this time; and could, with all my heart say, ‘It is good for me to draw near to God.”
June 13. “Preached to my people upon the new creature, from 2 Cor. v. 17, ‘ If any man be in Christ,’ &c. The presence of God seemed to be in the assembly. It was a sweet and agreeable meeting, wherein the people of God were re
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freshed and strengthened; beholding their faces in the glass of God’s word, and finding in themselves the works and lineaments of the new creature. Some sinners under concern were also renewedly affected ; and afresh engaged for the securing of their eternal interests. “Baptized five persons at this time, three adults, and two children. One of these was the very aged woman, of whose exercises I gave an account in my diary of Dec. 26. She now gave me a very punctual, rational, and satisfactory account of the remarkable change which she experienced some months after the beginning of her concern, which I must say, appeared to be the genuine operations of the Divine Spirit, so far as I am capable of judging. Although she was become so childish through age, that I could do nothing in a way of questioning with her, nor scarcely make her understand any thing that I asked her; yet when I let her alone to go on with her own story, she could give a very distinct and particular relation of the many and various exercises of soul, which she had experienced; so deep were the impressions left upon her mind by that influence and those exercises which she had experienced. I have great reason to think, that she is born anew in her old age: she being I presume, upwards of eighty. I had good hopes of the other adults, and trust they are such as God will own “in the day when he makes up his jewels.” “I came away from the meeting of the Indians this day, rejoicing and blessing God for his grace manifested at this seaSOI). June 14. “Rode to Kingston to assist the Rev. Mr. WALEs in the administration of the Lord's supper. In the afternoon preached; but almost fainted in the pulpit. Yet God strengthened me when I was just gone, and enabled me to speak his word with freedom, fervency, and application to the conscience. —Praised be the Lord, ‘out of weakness I was made strong.” I enjoyed some sweetness in and after public worship, but was extremely tired. Oh, how many are the mercies of the Lord! “To them that have no might he increaseth strength.” Lord's day, June 15. “Was in a dejected, spiritless frame, so that I could not hold up my head, nor look any body in the face. Administered the Lord's supper at Mr. Wales’ desire, and found myself in a good measure unburdened and relieved of my pressing load, when I came to ask a blessing on the elements. Here God gave me enlargement and a tender affectionate sense of spiritual things, so that it was a season of comfort, in some measure to me, and I trust, more so to others. In the afternoon, preached to a vast multitude, from Rev. xxii. I7— And whoever will,’ &c. God helped me to offer a testimony for himself, and to leave sinners inexcusable in neglecting his grace. I was enabled to speak with such freedom, fluency and clearness, as commanded the attention of the great. Was extremely tired in the evening, but enjoyed composure and sweetness.
June 16. “Preached again; and God helped me amazingly, so that this was a sweet refreshing season to my soul and others. Oh, forever blessed be God for help afforded at this time, when my body was so weak, and while there was so large an assembly to hear. Spent this afternoon in a comfortable agreeable manner.”
The next day was spent comfortably. On Wednesday, he went to a meeting of ministers at Hopewell.
June 19. “Visited my people with two of the Reverend correspondents. Spent some time in conversation with some of them upon spiritual things; and took some care of their worldly Concerns.
“This day makes up a complete year from the first time of my preaching to these Indians in New Jersey. What amazing things has God wrought in this space of time, for this poor people ! What a surprising change appears in their tempers and behaviour ! How are morose and savage Pagans, in this short period, transformed into agreeable, affectionate, and humble Christians ! and their drunken and Pagan howlings turned into devout and fervent praises to God; they “who were sometimes in darkness are now become light in the Lord.” May they “walk as children of the light and of the day !” And now to Him that is of power to establish them according to the gospel, and the preaching of Christ—to God only wise, be glory through Jesus Christ, for ever and ever, Amen.”