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work, of instructing their infant offspring; perhaps to warn and to prepare some of them for a stroke similar to that under which I am now suffering.

The beloved child who has been just removed from us, was from his infancy remarkable for his health, sprightliness, and intelligence; and from the age of six months, till his last fatal illness, was a source of almost unmixed delight to his fond parents. The beauty and strength of his mind and body seemed to increase in exact proportion, till he had completed his fourth year; from which period I date a considerable advance in his intellectul faculties, which daily rendered him a more intelligent and interesting companion. The progress he had made in reading was so great, that he could at all times amuse himself with a book; and it was evident that he was never satisfied with reading any thing which he did not in some measure comprehend. His sensible remarks and questions were a source of constant pleasure to us, and of delightful hope. He had learnt, with peculiar facility and cheerfulness, nearly the whole of Dr. Watts's beautiful Hymns for Children, and the two first of his Catechisms; which he used to repeat with an ease and understanding far beyond his years. But how shall I paint the opening races of his disposition, which continually surprised and delighted us, and which endeared him to us in so indescribable a manner? Alas! we were not aware how much too fondly we loved him, nor how apt we were to indulge a secret pride, as if we had made him what he was. But, indeed, I know not any thing which could have been desired to increase his loveliness, except that he was, no doubt, capable of knowing and loving God more; had we more diligently instructed him, and more earnestly besought for him the influ ence of divine grace. I bless God, however, that before, and particularly during his last illness, he gave many tokens, that our instructions had not been in vain, and that his heart was not unimpressed by that heavenly influence. Of these I shall give a few specimens, when I have mentioned two or three particulars relative to his disposition and temper. To his great strength and vivacity of spirits was united a remarkable docility; so that during the last year and a half of his short life, we had very rarely occasion to correct him. And he had so firm a conviction of our love for him at all times, that he was easily persuaded to relinquish any pleasure which we assured him was not good for him, or to do any thing, however disagreeable, which we assured him

was needful. Of this disposition he gave a most striking and continued proof by the manner in which he took his medicines twice or three times a day during more than two months, always replying, when told that they were to do him good, "Yes, mamma, I know they are" or when he was told how gladly she would take them for him, Yes, dear mamma, I know you would." Oh! could we more perfectly have imitated him in this disposition towards our all-wise and tender Parent, we should not have found it so hard to drink the bitter cap he put into our hands.

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During his long illness, his patience wi 80 exemplary, affecting, and extraordinary, that we often found it difficult to suppress out tears. Under his daily increasing weakness, during twenty-two days in which he was confined to his bed; when, in addition to all his medicines, he was repeatedly bled with leeches, and blistered, and was latterly oblig ed to submit to other disagreeable external applications, besides suffering much, sometimes very acute paiu ; not one of those who attended him ever heard him utter a fretful or impatient word. He seemed at the same time to derive real pleasure when we often reminded him that God loved patient, good children, and that we thanked God for having made him so patient. Surely, this gentle, submissive temper, was the work of the blessed Spirit of God. It was remarkable too, that in so long an illness (particu larly after the time in which he seemed to be recovering, and had begun to take pleasure in going ont, and in playing with his little brother again, to whom he was always uncom monly gentle and kin3), he never expressed any regret at his confinement, or wish to recover and resume his former amusements. A letter which he dictated to his uncle B.... was striking in this view: After desiring his aunt M. to say, he hoped he was well, he added, but “I am worse.” Then recollecting himself, he said, "but sometimes I am hetter-when was I most better, aunt?—" M. When you were able to go out and play in the field."-H. "Theu say, once I was able to go out, and walk, and ride in a little chaise, and play at cricket, but now I cannot."-But be added not a word expressive of any desire to be able to return to these pleasures.

His gratitude for every thing that was done for him was very observable, particularly to his dear aunt M——, whose tenderness to him, during the whole of his long confinement, can never be effaced from our memory. One day it so struck him, that he told her she should be called “ Aunt kind.”

It is a great pleasure to us to reflect, that

as long as he was able to amuse himself at all, the things which most constantly pleased him, were his books, particularly his hymns, in which he always took peculiar delight, having never learned them as a task, so much as a pleasing employment. He was well acquainted with the Scripture history, having read a good abridgment of it quite through twice: the very last lesson he read was the account of the crucifixion and death of our blessed Saviour in whom, I fully believe, he had more real faith and trust than he was able to express. Of this, as well as of his generally pious disposition, I shall proceed to give a few short, but as I think, satisfactory proofs. They occurred in little conversations which took place between our beloved child, and two or three of his nearest relatives. I give the following, as nearly as possible, in the very words which passed.

Let it only be remembered that the child of whom what precedes and follows is here recorded, was not quite five years and a half old. Yet let no one despise the simplicity of his remarks and declarations. “The eternal God does not disdain to hear an infant sing;" and even out of the mouths of babes and sucklings can perfect his praise.

The conversations to which I refer were of this kind :-M." Does little H. know who gives him medicine to make him well, while many children are ill a long time for want of

it-H. "Yes, aunt M. God sends it me, and he gives me a kind aunt too."-M. " Do you love God for being so good to you?"— H. "Yes, indeed I do."-M. " Do you think you should like to be with him?"--H. “Yes, I should, aunt M.”—M. “Dear little H. will you let me say my prayers now?" (his kind attendant slept in the same room with him.)— H. "Yes, I like you to say your prayers.”— M. "I ought to do it, dear, for God is very kind to me."-H. Yes, I know you ought, and I love you to read your chapter too."

Our dear boy was accustomed to dictate some of his hymns to those who were with him, requesting them to write or print them in Roman capitals. Sometimes when well enough he did this himself, and called what was thus written by himself or others, his sermons-When his aunt was one day writing for him Dr. Watts's hymn, beginning,

"Blest be the wisdom and the power,
The justice and the grace,
Which join' in counsel to restore,

And save our ruin'd race!"

As he was repeating the former verses, he said in a mournful tone," there is something so affecting coming"-not remembering the hymn, his aunt said, "what is it, CHRIST. OBSERV. No. 112.

dearest boy?" he replied, with a voice of feeling which she seems still to hear, as if indeed he felt for the sufferings of his Saviour,

"He bore our sins upon the cross,

And our full ransom paid."

M." Yes, H. that is affecting. Do you know he bore your faults there?"-H. " Yes, aunt M."-M. "You know, my dear boy, we all have many faults, or sins. I have every day, and little H. has some."-H. "Yes, aunt punishment of them for you?"-H."

M. I know I have."-M. "Who bore the "Why, aunt M. Jesus Christ."-M. "And for his sake God is not angry with you, but loves and blesses you. Don't you love your dear Saviour?"--H. "Yes; I think sometimes of all he has done for me; but I cannot think much, now I am ill."-M. « But you always love him?"-H." Indeed I do.”—M. “My sweet boy, do you know why God sends this sickness to you ?”—H. “ Yes, to inake me good."-M." He does not love to make you he would be apt to forget God, and heaven." ill; but if my little jewel were always well.

-H."Yes, aunt M. I know I should."-M. "But now you are sick you can think of heaven, where God lives, and where there is no illness. Should you like to go to that happy place?"-H. "Oh yes, aunt M. I

should like to be there."

When the same kind friend was writing lines, for him another hymn, as he repeated these

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"And now he reigns above,

He sends his Spirit down,"

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he seemed, by his animated tone of voice, to feel the goodness of his Saviour, in bestowing on him such a gift.-She said to him, does my little H. love that Spirit?"---H. "Indeed I do."-M." Then you have often thought of him, have you not?"-H. Aunt M. no, I have only thought a little of him.”—M.“ But then should you not have thought of him oftener, have you not been wrong?"-H. Yes, I know, I have."--M. "And do you think God is angry with you?" -H. "No, aunt M."-M. "Then does he forgive you for his Son, his dear Son ?"-H. "O yes, aunt M. he forgives me for his sake." -H." Aunt M. which do you like best of my "sermons ?"-M. “I hardly know them enough to tell."-H. "Aunt M. I think I love, Blest be the wisdom' best."--M. "I will look at them, and then I shall be able to tell my sweet boy. Yes, I think I like that best too." -H. "That's the most affecting, aunt M."

Many such conversations passed between him and his dear mother, to whose instrucexclusively for the progress he had made in tions, indeed, he had been indebted, almost

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M. "My darling, it grieves me to see you so ill. Mamma cannot make you well; but she prays to God for you, and he can." -H "I know he can, mamma."——M. "Do you love God?"———-H. “Yes, mamma, indeed I do."-M, Should you like to go to Heaven, where God lives, and all good children go?"-H. "Yes, dear mamma, I should indeed."--M. "Whom should you see in heaven besides?"-H. “JesusChrist." M. “And do you love Him ?"-H. "O yes, mamma."-M "Do you often pray to him, and think of your little Hymns"-H." Not often now, I am so sick."-M." You know, my darling, that God sends us sickness for our good."-H. "Yes, niamma, I know he does," It is remarkable, that in a conversation which he himself introduced before the commencement of his illness, he said he should like very much to go to heaven, if it were not for the necessity of dying; areservation which probably occurred to him from his having observed, a few months before, the sufferings of a servant previous to her death; but during his illness, he never once mentioned the hour of death, or spoke of going to heaven, except in the most cheerful and unconditional manner.

Lest I should tire your readers, Mr. Editor, with these little details, interesting, no doubt, chiefly to the fond heart of a parent,

ring the whole of his long illness; and. I cannot doubt that thou wert with him in the dark valley, into which he was just entering when he pronounced the preceding reply.

I did not pursue my questions any farther, as he was desirous of being perfectly quiet; except to ask him, as I was leaving To which he anthe room, how he felt

swered, “Better, papa; I feel just beginning to be better." Within a few hours after this little conversation, a trembling fit came on; in one of the intervals of which, reclining his side-face on the pillow, and looking earnestly and stedfastly upwards, with an eye lighted up with transient brilliancy, and more than mortal expression, we beheld his face, as it had been the face of an angel. "Sweet spirit! thou wast shortly afterwards released from the burthen of the flesh; from all those pains and sufferings from which our fondest affection could not save thee! And I doubt not but thou art resting in the arms of a far tenderer parent. Could I wish to recal thee from that blissful state? Oh no! Could I say to thee, Thou shalt weep no more.... the days of thy mourning are ended? Could I hope to shew thee any thing in this world, like the glory of God, and of the Lamb? Or raise thee to any honour here, like receiving a crown of life?" "Thou art, indeed, infinitely happy; all I could most ardently wish for thee is granted, though granted, I am apt to think, too soon." But a time will come, when I shall see reason to think otherwise.

lanib, and sheltered him from all the storms and dangers of life in the bosom of that gracious Redeemer, who when on earth spoke those condescending and consoling words, "Suffer little children to come unto me, and forbid them not, for of such is the kingdom of heaven." May we be made meat to follow our beloved child at whatever hour our

I will transcribe but one other short conversation, which took place between my beloved child and myself, about three or four Had he been spared, God only knows hours only before the fatal change came ou. how great a snare his very loveliness might I asked him, whether he wished to be in have proved to us. In mercy, therefore, heaven.-H. "Yes, papa."-P. "Who shall doubtless in infinite mercy to him and to us, you see there?"-H. "God, papa."-P." And he has taken from us the delight of our eyes any one besides?"—H. "Yes, Jesus Christ.”—and of our hearts. He has housed this sweet P." What did he do for you?"-H. "I forget papa"(He was now very weak and exhausted, both in mind and body.)-P. "Did he not die for you on the cross?"-H. "O yes, papa." -P."What will he do for you?"-My dear boy, instead of directly replying as to the happiness which was to be expected from his Saviour in heaven, immediately answered, from the impression of what he actually felt, "He comforts me." I shall never for get the peaceful and feeling tone in which ny beloved child uttered these words. They seemed evidently to come from his heart, and to express all that they simply mean.→ Blessed Lord! I thank thee for thy condescension and love to this little lamb of thy Block! I believe that thou didst indeed comfort him, and bestow upon him that sweetness and patience which so strongly marked his dispositions and behaviour du

Lord shall call! And while we entreat him, in the mean time, to comfort our wounded hearts, may we never forget those lessons of heavenly wisdom, which we are now learning in this house of our pilgrimage and mourning!

As this paper may possibly meet the eye under similar circumstances of affliction with either of some parent who may now be myself, or of some one who may shortly be

See the "Friendly Visit to the House of Mourning."

brought into them, I may be allowed to mention, that, in addition to the consolation which the well-known and beautiful tract of the late excellent Mr. Cecil is calculated to afford to every mourner, I derived the mostsolid and delightful comfort from a sermon by Dr. Doddridge, on Submission to Divine Providence in the Death of Children; in which the whole of this interesting subject is so fully unfolded and so admirably applied, that I cannot but strongly recommend the frequent perusal of it to every bereaved paTent, but more particularly to every one who, like me, may be lamenting the loss of an amiable and promising child in very early life.

After all, to adopt the words of a most pious friend, and deeper fellow-sufferer, which in my own case I have found to be strictly true, "the most substantial relief which I experienced, was not so much from distinct arguments proving the reasonableness of resignation; but rather the endeavour to turn the channel of the affections into a pious course. Five minutes fervent prayer seemed to me to give more substantial relief than an hour's meditation on topics the justice of which could not be questioned. In prayer I conversed with God, I appealed to God, I humbled myself before God, I be came resigned to God, I adored God, I loved God, and a holy tranquillity of mind insensibly stole upon me; God was with me whilst I was with him; and if God be with us, we need not niind what we suffer; God was with the martyrs in the flames, and they undauntedly sang praises in the midst of the fires."

I will trespass no farther on your indul gence than to add, that if the preceding detail, too personal perhaps, and particular, to be generally interesting, should yet tend to excite parents to more than ordinary care and diligence in the religious instruction of their younger children, which, as in this instance, may, through the Divine blessing, be rewarded with a dying testimony from any of whom they may be deprived, on which they may reflect with gratitude and joy as long as they live, the object of this little communication will be abuudantly answered,

PATERNUS.

REV. MILES ATKINSON, Feb. Died at Leeds, the Rev. Miles Atkinson, A. B. minister of St. Paul's church in that town, vicar of Kippax, and lecturer in the parish church of Leeds, His funeral sermon was preached in St. Paul's church, on the 17th February, by the

Rev. Thomas Dikes, LL. B. minister of St. John's church, Hull, and it has since been published for the benefit of the family of Mr. Atkinson. From this excellent sermon we extract a few particulars".

Mr. Atkinson officiated in the parish church of Leeds nearly fifty years. The congregation which statedly attended his ministry was one of the largest in the kingdom, and is supposed to have consisted of several thousand persons. Though his income was extremely limited, yet he brought up a numerous offspring in a manner the most creditable to himself, and the most be neficial to them.

The doctrines which Mr. Atkinson taught were uniformly those of our church-that man is a fallen corrupt creature," far gone from his original righteousness ;”—that we must be indebted for our justification entirely to the mercy of God, "through the redemption which is in Jesus Christ;"-and that the renewal of the heart in righteousmess and true holiness is absolutely neces sary, in order to our being made "meet for the inheritance of the saints in light." Nor did he consider these doctrines as curious questions, or abstract points of speculation, but as motives to practice, as the powerful means of sanctifying the heart, and raising the affections to heaven. He, therefore, often entered into the detail of moral precept, and instructed his flock in all those relative duties which were required of them.

The example of Mr. Atkinson supported and enforced the doctrines which he taught. He was distinguished by fortitude and fidelity in his religious course. In early life he rejected offers of preferment which were made to him, on condition of laying aside his obnoxious religion. To the close of his days he boldly and faithfully set forth the whole counsel of God, never speaking smooth things to please men; never sparing a sin because it was fashionable; never composing his sermons so as to please the higher ranks, while he left the poor to perish for lack of knowledge. His language was plain, but fervent; his rebukes earnest ; and many who heard him were led to renounce their sins, and turn to God. His private life was marked with the same integrity which dis tinguished his public ministry.

Mr. Atkinson took incredible pains in visiting the poor and sick of his flock, sometimes employing five or six hours of the day in this arduous duty. He made a rule to

Some Memoirs of the deceased, with a volume of his Serinons, will shortly be pub lished for the benefit of his family.

spend a considerable time with "each.individual, that he might speak fully and clearly the words of salvation He instructed the ignorant, supported the weak, 'comforted the feeble-minded, and directed the dying penitent to" the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world." He taught his flock not only publiely, but from house to house; nor was his zeal fluctuating or evanescent: never did it shine brighter than in the evening of his days. Nor did his zeal spend itself on the circumstantials of religion, or in promoting some favourite senti. ment; his object was to uphold the interests of pure religion and genuine goodness. The King had not a more loyal subject, nor the Church of England a more zealous friend. The law of kindness dwelt on his tongue, and was inscribed on his heart. He was a living witness that religion has no tendency to spread a gloom through a house. Has he a child that will not rise up and call him blessed? Has be a friend that will not long remember those words of kindness, and those looks of affection, which were the genuine indications of a mind warmed with benignity and love? It was bis affection which won the hearts of so many of his congregation. It was this which caused him to be interred amidst the sighs, and groans, and tears of his numerous people. It was this which softened the severity of reproof, and convinced his hearers that the feelings of the preacher were in unison with those of the Apostle, when he said to the Jews Brethren, my heart's desire and prayer to God for Israel is, that they may be saved."

His humility displayed itself conspicuously in his last illness. He was brought to the grave by a protracted and painful disease; but amidst his severest sufferings he was

perfectly resigned to the will of God. As his outward man perished his inward man was renewed. He was full of expressions of gratitude to God for his mercies. He ap peared to keep his eye steadily fixed on his Redeemer, and to have maintained an une shaken confidence in the promises of God. As he awoke out of sleep on a certain morning, he was heard to say, "I am waiting for thy salvation, O Lord. I long to be dissolved and to be with Christ." His faith was tempered with the deepest humility. He acknowledged and bewailed the sinfulness of his nature, and humbled himself in the dust. before the God of heaven. He often said "God be merciful to me a sinner! I have no hope but i.. Jesus Christ. I feel it is an awful thing to die, yet I know whom I have believed, and I shall not be forsaken." This sense of his unworthiness made him value the Saviour of sinners. Whilst life and strength remained he ceased not to exhort, comfort, and edify his chil dren and family. His last lingering words dwelt on the delightful theme which interested his heart. A short time before his death he said to his family, I have a thousand things to say to you; and he then made several efforts to speak, but the powers of utterance failed. He again revived, and poured out his soul in fervent prayer, imploring the blessing of God upon them all and in a few hours expired.

Such was the death of this venerable minis ter of Christ."His soul has taken its flight from these abodes of sin and sorrow. His labours are done. His sufferings are ended. His work is finished. He has entered into rest, and, through the merits of his Redeemer, he has obtained that crown of righteousness: which fadeth not away."

DEATHS.

Feb. 25. In Harley-street, Henry Hope, Esq. one of the most eminent merchants of his time. He has left behind him about 1,200,000!

March 14. In his 76th year, his Grace the Duke of Grafton.

At Bala, aged 84, Mrs. Roberts, who resided 45 years on a small farm in great distress, and for nine years received relief from

the parish. But having, with the aid of some friends, instituted a suit in Chancery against the executors of a person to whom she was next of kin, she obtained, about six months ago, a decree, which put her in pos'session of 150,000l.

April 6. At Windsor, Hugh Elliott Pearson, eldest son of the Rev. Hugh Pearson, aged about five years and a half.

ANSWERS TO CORRESPONDENTS.

A SERIOUS INQUIRER, and TITUS, have been received. We know not how the acknowledgment of them came to be omitted.

LOUISA; THEOGNIS; SOPATER; T. W.; and S., are under consideration.

We intend inserting G. B.'s paper, at a convenient time; also Mr. WARD's Defence of the

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