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their assistance-while the number of applications and dependents multiplied. Imagining himself however independent in his circumstances, he resolved to alienate his ministerial: salary to the support of an assistant, whom he deemed necessary, both from the state of his congregation, and his own growing infirmities. In consequence of this he was led to resume a work which he had declined for some years, and engaged two more students. These were Mr. Lane, and Mr. Daniel. While they relieved him from one of the services of the sabbath, they added to his mental fatigue by his attentions to them in the week; but he rejoiced to see that his labor was not in vain. They both became very acceptable preachers: Mr. Daniel is fixed in a scene of activity and usefulness at Kingswood, near Wotton-underedge; Mr. Lane after being compelled by threatening symp toms to refrain for a season from public exercises, is likely to settle at Wells. These were the last sons whom he brought up.

The following two letters will serve to render this account more satisfactory, while they express feelings that do him honor, and apprehensions, that were, alas! too soon to be realised. The first was written about two months be fore his seizure, and was addressed to Mrs.

Sr of Bs, who had been much with him previous to her marriage, and for whom he entertained a paternal regard.

"MY VERY DEAR DAUGHTER,

Mrs.

"I SIT down purposely to write something to you-I wish it may be something profitable, for otherwise a letter is nothing worth. The occurrences of the day come of course to be mentioned. You have heard we have left the hill, and answer the purpose of a tent by residing where Miss Loveday used to reside. spent upwards of a month with us here.-Could she have been reconciled to all the inconveniences of an invalid family, she would have been cordially welcome to have staid till Christmas; but our mode of living is so very different to her's, that I do not think she was quite comfortable. The fact is that my fortune is reduced below the expected sum per annum, by the change it underwent, and the taxes it is under, so that though in itself a great blessing, œconomy is required in the use of it, especially as I have many mouths to feed upon it, besides those of our own family, that I may not entangle either it or myself. I have a turn for a little elegance, but I must dispense with it, content with ordinary things and common

decency. I see my mercies more than my disadvantages, and desire that murmuring may never take the place of the great gratitude due daily to the God of my life. I am disappointed in not seeing more genuine religion produced by my labors. Some I hope fear God, and walk before him, but many are so irregular in their walk, that I fear for them.-I hope matters are different at B-s. I find the short time since I was there, has produced changes. Some have quitted the stage of life, and left vacant seats in the house of God, others are removed, while instability has turned away a few, yet our dear friend has a considerable number, by which his hands are strengthened. O that they may be his present joy and his future crown of rejoicing. How surprised I was to see him so full and flashy. He credits his soil, his pantry, and his nurse. May you, my dear daughter, be long continued to be his comfort, and may his life be coeval with your's, that at a very late period you may both have such a retrospective view of life together as will excite a repeated tribute of praise. I need not say daily consecrate yourselves to God. Keep the mind heavenwards; let your friends see that you live upon the suburbs of the celestial kingdom. Do not let the world engross you in

any degree. Whether it smile or frown, be alike indifferent to it. Conceive of it as it is, fleeting and uncertain. Take the refreshments provided for and suited to the pilgrim, but do not set up your rest where you should only bait. Prepare to meet your God. I hope to be regulated according to the advice I give. I have need; the full allotment of the life of man is pretty near its period, and decay discovers itself, if not so perceptible in the countenance, yet in the feeling of the decay of spirits and strength. Were I in the vigor of my days, inattention to the eternal state, would be unallowable. How much more is it at three-score and five. But with all the infirmities and imperfections of nature, not to say sins, I can truly say my desires are ever towards the Lord, and I would be on the constant look out for my great change, and be daily waiting for my dismission rather than be taken up with the trifles of sense-whatever consequence the world may give to them. Will the world ever be wiser than it is? Very weighty are the measures Providence is using to make it so. The judg

ments of the Lord are abroad in the earth, and our nation is like to feel the force of them. A great deal of distress now prevails. Failures in this neighborhood are incessant. They who

were considered wealthy are reduced to the greatest straits, and the trade that is carried on, is so depreciated, that it is asserted, the manufacturers cannot get a living profit; such is the state of things, and consequently the poor feel exquisitively. My good wife is as well as may be expected, and so is Mrs. Tyler, to whom we are much indebted for her kind exertions. They unite in salutations to you and my son, from whom I shall be ever glad to receive a line. If he will commission you to use his pen, and you will accept the commission, it will be equally and very acceptable to,

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My ever dear daughter,

"Your very affectionate father,

"C. W."

"Painswick,

"Oct. 16, 1807."

The other was addressed to Mrs. S Birmingham, and was written only a month before his death.

MY DEAR FRIEND,

"It is so long since I wrote to you, that I am ashamed to think of it. You are nevertheless often in my mind, and I set you

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