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a fever, to one of whom it proved fatal. My late wife took the fever, and was so ill, that it was scarcely expected that she would recover. She was saved, however, from the fear of death—God strengthened and upheld her. Her trust was in him who said, "Fear not, for I am with thee, he not dismayed, for I am thy God."

Shortly after she had recovered from this illness, she was solicited to hecome a visitor of the sick, but with that delicacy of feeling by which she was ever distinguished, she objected, on account of her youth. Some months afterwards, she consented to visit the sick in company with an elderly lady.

When about sixteen years of age, she began to keep a journal of her experience, the following is the first entry.—

"August 4th, 1816. A review of my past experience I have often found useful and encouraging, on this account, I write down the exercises of my mind, hoping, that by frequently reading them, I may be led to adore the riches of sovereign grace, praise the Lord for his former mercies, and be encouraged to persevere in a holy life. With joy I welcome the return of another Sabbath. Oh! let this holy day be consecrated entirely to God. My Sabbaths on earth will soon be ended, but I look forward with joy unutterable to that day which will never have an end."

"August 7th. Life like a vapour flies; so on will my mortal state be ended; the objects which now occupy so large a portion of my thoughts, will shortly lose their importance and vanish. Vanity i6 stamped on every earthly enjoyment, but pleasure, without alloy, will be found in heaven."

In common with all who deny themselves, take up their cross, and follow Christ, she had to endure temptation,—her mind was sometimes painfully exercised, and she felt her own weakness and dependence upon the grace of God. From the time when she first joined the Methodist Society, she derived much benefit from the class meetings, and always highly esteemed those means of grace. She made the following entry in her journal upon this subject.—

"Nov. 26th, 1816. I was at my class this evening, the Lord was with me. Oh! how I love this means of grace, my soul has often been watered and blessed while we have been telling one another the dealings of the Lord with us. Then "They that feared the Lord, spake often one to another, and the Lord hearkened and beard, and a book of remembrance was written before him for them that feared the Lord and thought upon his name. And they shall be mine, saith the Lord of hosts, in that day when I make up my jewels."

In a very short time after this, she became subject to afflictionand had it strongly impressed upon her mind, that her days would soon be ended,—but she did not complain, no murmur escaped her lips—she could rejoice in prospect of death, as appears from what she has recorded as follows.—

*' Dec. 1st. 1816. I have been very poorly in bed this last week, but, bless the Lord, strong in faith, nothing doubting; though kept from his house, I feel he is every where present. Sometimes, methinks, I could—

"Clap my glad wings and tower away,
And mingle with the blaze of day."

"Dec. 8th. Still under the afflicting hand of God,—but bless the Lord I rest in the assurance it will work for my good,—the Lord keep me from murmuring, for in the day when he makes up his jewels I shall have reason to praise him that ever I was afflicted."

"And when to that bright world I rise,
And gain the mansions in the skies,
Then my happy soul shall tell,
My Jesus hath done all things well."

When about entering upon her seventeenth year, she wrote as follows :—

"I regret that I did not know the Lord sooner, I may say with the Poet:

"Ah! why did I so late thee know,
Thee lovelier than the sons of men*"

Oh! may I so run and so fight as to conquer, that after having accomplished what the Lord has given me to do, I may sit down by his throne, where I shall see his lovely face.—When I consider the relation in which I stand to God, by creation, and redemption,—when I consider the near relation in which I stand as his adopted child,!—made to be "an heir of God, and a joint-heir with Jesus Christ," transporting thought, a child of the King of kings, and Lord of lords. 1 exclaim, Oh f may I never disgrace my high and holy calling."

The preceding extracts from her journal show how early and deeply her mind was occupied with that religion which she so faithfully exemplified through life, and which was her support during her last painful illness. I shall pass over several years and close these extracts with the remarks she recorded on commencing another year.—

"I know not but that it may be said to me, " This year, thou shalt die." I feel at this time my body very feeble: may it, therefore, be my chief object and study, at all times, to live as seeing Him who is invisible, that I may be ready whenever the summons shall come, to enter into his joy and sit down on his throne."

On the 25th of December, 1823, she entered into the marriage state. On the same day she caught a violent cold, which was followed by a long and very painful illness. I then thought, that insiduous death was about,—

"to rend asunder,
Whom love and God's decree made One."

But God in his infinite mercy gave her back to me again. Change of scene and of air were now thought requisite, and we went to reside in Poplar, where in May, 1825, the Lord gave unto us our first-born; but at the end of eleven weeks, she was called away, and fled to the realms of bliss. After this, we came to reside in Deptford, when in December 1835, her faith and patience were again exercised, by an attack of acute rheumatism, which brought her into a very low state, — her sufferings under this affliction were painful in the extreme. Before she had fully recovered from this affliction, a fever of a yet more dangerous character assailed her, and brought her again to the verge of the eternal world. Divine goodness, however, preserved her life, and again restored her to health. Before she had fully recovered, our children were attacked with typhus fever; first one, and then another, until our house became as an hospital; and one child whom we thought strongest, and best able to endure the attack, fell a victim to the disease.

Mrs. Martin was repeatedly and strongly pressed to accept the office of class leader; this, however, she from diffidence, for a long time refused; but she consented to accept this important office after she became united with the Wesleyan Methodist Association, which was at the time of its commencement in Deptford. She was induced to accept the office of leader, from an ardent desire to benefit young persons who were members of the congregation, and who were desirous of receiving her assistance. She endeavoured to discharge the duties of a leader with fidelity and affection, and often has gone to meet her class when she was very unwell. The last time she went was to the quarterly visitation for renewing the tickets, on the 12th of December last. I endea voured to prevail upon her not to go, fearing from her ill state of health, that she would injure herself by going out, but she urged, that duty called, and, although she had a severe cold, she went. The cold, under which she was then suffering, was occasioned by going out on the previous Wednesday evening to meet some of the elder female Sunday school scholars; from some circumstance the place was not opened in proper time, and by waiting, it is believed, her cold was received.

On Sunday, the 16th of last December, Mrs. Martin's indisposition was so much increased, as to confine her to her bed; but for two or three weeks nothing serious was apprehended. After this time her medical attendant thought her to be in a dangerous state. Recourse was had to bleeding and blistering, and other means, which afforded relief; and she appeared to be getting better, but did not appear to be elated by the prospect of being restored to health, nor did she evince much disappointment, when proposed remedies which were tried, failed of success. She had a presentiment from almost the commencement of her illness, that it would be unto death,—but to her, death had lost his sting; she said, that only for the sake of her children, she would rather depart and be with Christ. I have often seen her while on the bed of affliction with her eyes lifted towards heaven, and her lips moving as in prayer. On religious topics I had but little conversation with her during her affliction, until the closing scene was drawing near, this was entirely my fault, and oh! what a loss have I thus sustained. On two or three occasions during her illness, the family were called together expecting that she was about to depart, but she revived, and our hopes brightened.

On Sunday the 6th of February last, she was very weak, and said, "I find it hard work to give up my dear children;" but on the following day she called the family to her bed side, when she could only speak in a very low voice which could hardly be heard. I asked her whether she was happy? She said "I am comfortable and feel my confidence in God strengthened; I can now resign my all into the hands of that God whom I have served from my youth up. I thank my heavenly Father, I have not now, while under the heavy pressure of affliction, got him to seek. I now feel every prop, but Christ, taken away, He alone is my support and stay. I now feel my Jesus hath done all things well." She also said, "I can add no more." Although she afterwards revived a little, yet she could not converse, she could only slowly utter single words. I occasionally asked her whether she was happy, when she emphatically said, "Yes! yes! yes !-" On the evening before her death, when she could not, without difficulty, utter a word, and when she did not appear conscious that any person was present, she repeated several times,—

"My Jesus hath done all things well." On the following day there was an evident change for the worse, and that night, at half-past ten o'clock, her happy spirit took its flight, to dwell for ever with the Lord.

I shall now conclude this account with a few general remarks concerning the character of the deceased. From the days of her youth she had made the Holy Scriptures her study, and had learned from them her public and social duties. Ever after her mind was brought under serious impressions, she endeavoured to economise her time, never suffering it to be occupied with trifling amusements, or idle pursuits. She felt that time was intrusted to her for valuable purposes, and that she would have to render an account of its use. To obtain food for her mind she would occupy time, which other persons appropriated to rest; saying, that she required food for her mind, as well as for her body. She read much, and carefully selected such books as were the most useful; hence her mind was well stored with useful and scriptural knowledge. As a wife and mother she excelled in the discharge of her domestic duties, and was always most sympathising and kind. She was neat in her person, and her house was well ordered. Her motto was, '* A place for every thing, and every thing in its place." To her children she manifested the utmost affection, and early endeavoured to impress their minds with the necessity of remembering their Creator in the days of their youth, and she frequently prayed the Lord to give his blessing with her instructions. As a member of a Christian Church, she endeavoured to let her light shine. In her intercourse with the Church and the world, she laboured to live in peace with all. Some persons might think her reserved, but those who best knew her, found her to be free, cheerful, communicative, and unreserved.

In losing her, I have lost a most kind and affectionate wife, and the children have lost a most tender and affectionate mother, and the Church one of its most useful members and brightest ornaments. Thus lived, and thus died, one of the most excellent of the earth :— "Ah no—she lives on a far happier shore, She lives—but lives with me on earth no more."

"Perhaps kind heaven in mercy dealt the blow,
Some saving truth my roving soul to teach,
To wean my heart from grovelling views below,
And point out bliss beyond misfortunes reach."

Her death was improved in a funeral sermon preached by Mr. Kobert
Eckett, to a deeply attentive and crowded congregation.

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MEMOIR OF THE LATE THOMAS GRANGER.

It is with peculiar pleasure that the believer meditates on the memory of the just, and he often contemplates with joy unspeakable the blessedness of those who have died in the Lord. Thus he views as in a glass, the vanity of the world, and the uncertainty of life; the nearness of eternity, the inestimable value of religion, and is thus powerfully stimulated to be a "follower of those who through faith and patience inherit the promises." These are important lessons, and when carried to their practical results they promote the happiness of all who attend to them. Besides, the pious lives and triumphant deaths which have been recorded, form a standing evidence of the divinity of the Scriptures, of the power of Divine grace, and of the riches of infinite mercy. The following brief memoir, was undertaken with a desire to perpetuate the memory of one, who died happy in the Lord.

Thomas Granger was born at South Shields, in the Sunderland circuit. But little can be said about him, prior to his conversion to God. He was first convinced of sin among the Primitive Methodists, and was united to them for a short time. But leaving off meeting in class, he went about from place to place, until his sister, who had been awakened under a sermon delivered by brother Sutcliffe, joined the Association, obtained salvation, and interested herself in his behalf. She asked him the state of his mind, told him how good the Lord had been to her, invited him to go along with her, assuring him that if he did he would get amongst those that would do him good. He gave his consent, and went and joined in class with her. This was on the 8th of September, 1840; and from that time until the 27th of April, 1841, the day on which he was taken ill, he was only three times absent from his class. Having again joined himself to the people of God, he sought the Lord with strong cries and tears; the third time he met in class, he was enabled by faith in the Redeemer's sacrifice, exultingly to exclaim, "My Lord and my God:" tand from that time until he entered heaven, he never lost his confidence, but could always rejoice in a sin-pardoning Saviour. Saved by Divine grace from the guilt and bondage of sin, he went on his way rejoicing, and gave demonstrative evidence of his conversion to God. From this time, his attendance on the means of grace was constant and regular, and he evinced a strong desire to profit by all the ordinances of the sanctuary. Having tasted that the Lord is gracious, he felt anxious that others might participate in the same blessedness, and therefore as far as his influence extended, he exerted himself to do good. In visiting the sick and attending prayer meetings, he experienced peculiar delight. His deadness to the world was very conspicuous. He saw the brevity and uncertainty of time, the insignificance of all sublunary objects, and was deeply impressed with the reality and importance of the things which are eternal. Often was he heard to say, that he never found any thing like enjoyment in the ways of sin, but, on the contrary, that hu had always found, what the

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