for the most miserable object. | ter. Ignoble is the shame, and It is a lost child of believing pa- guilty are the fears, which lull rents. She exclaims, "How the whispering monitor with have I hated instruction!" Self-procrastinating excuses, “I will ruined, self-destroyed, she re- hear you to morrow. Who can counts a mother's pangs, and re- traverse the thorny maze withcollects how the tide of her out an interpreter? Who can tears streamed an ocean of love; emigrate from his native counwhile the remembrance of a try, and become a foreigner from father's urgent entreaties, and choice? Where is the voyager the warning accents of a spiritual harbored? Where is the guar watchman, wring her soul with dian protector? Where is the anguish. victory ensured?" Fatal rea sonings of a deceitful and desperately wicked heart! Fallacious debatings! How is the guilty

I cannot, my dear friend, see you cast away at the mouth of the haven, nor leave you to dash on the perilous rocks of so dan-mortal" bewildered in her own gerous a shore. An able and deceivings!" Be the more re gracious pilot flies to your re-solute; take the "kingdom of lief. Accept of his rescue, and heaven by violence," and conenter that ark, which no tempest fide in him who is "able to can ever destroy. save to the uttermost."

She however deferred a decis

Although the harvest approaches, as yet it is summer:ion, and neglected to own it the seed is plentifully sown, may the embryo blossom here be soon unfolded, and the ripened produce be hereafter reaped.

when made. The marvellous dealings of almighty grace were hid in unworthy concealment for several years, and during that time she was in the school of ad

Tokens of the divine displeasure were continually appalling her, for fearing to profess Christ be fore men. She longed, she prayed for emancipation from this spiritual slavery. Oh, said she "that my altered counte nance would speak my anguish. Have pity upon me, have pity upon me, Oye my friends, for the hand of the Lord hath touch

Hope is sustaining, otherwise, I assure you, my pen had trem-versity and accumulated trial. bled with my heart. You were nurtured in human kindness, and your affections are awake to impression; shall I tell you then the piteous tale of a friend of mine, and paint you a picture of real and existing affliction. The powerful effect of early and acute conviction induced most ardent desires for a pious parent, and if that first wish included a second, it was to become ac-ed me. Let the strong cease quainted with the much esteemed shepherd sent to arrest her straying feet. She enquired the way to Zion, but lingered at the entrance door. Discouraged by the dangers of pilgrimage, alas she turned her face, and went back from the encoun

their boast of strength, and let the young when they behold me, remember that their sun may also set at noon."-Enough has been said to prove her highly criminal, and she was sorely chastened for perseverance in known sin. But, "though he

cause grief, yet will he show | religious advantages can effect conversion, they may be the means of facilitating your return to God.

his great compassion ;" and the Lord after a while unlocked her prison, loosened her. silenced tongue, and bade her make Reflect, my dear girl, on the known ber situation, to one of important value an immortal the Fathers in Israel. Relieved soul bears in the scale of eterniby thus communicating her ty; created to enjoy endless feelings, and charmed with the happiness, or to endure endless acquisition of her new friend, misery; and let me beseech she took courage, and dedicated you, by the pantings of a belovherself to God. One interroga-ed father and mother, by their tion long saddened her faith: "How shall I put thee among the children" was demanded? and she had nothing to answer, but" all things are possible with thee." Seeing herself justly disclaimed, and cast out of the kingdom, she lay down at the threshold, and kept pleading, “Truth, Lord, yet the dogs eat of the crumbs." Suffice it to say, that she wrestled and pre-events, go and delight your good vailed.

The sequel is affecting, and reserved for a period yet future; all conflict being ended, and her history finished, she will then be happy to resume it where I have left off.

The difficulties here related, formed no excuse, nor appeased the incensed wrath resulting from disobedience; but you have no obstacle to oppose, no bindrance to surmount. The being a daughter of Christian parents, does not indeed entail inherent merit, nor give a title to the favor and friendship of God. You partake in a nature of depravity, are greatly polluted with sin, and the express influences of the Holy Spirit are necessary to renew your corrupt heart; you must seek acceptance through Christ's mediation, and implore forgiveness in his name. But although no VOL. I. NO. 3.

earnest supplications, by their daily cries at a throne of grace, to take their God for yours. With no common sensations, I wait your assent to let me introduce you to their confidence. Promise me at least that if you feel the smallest emotion, while reading this letter, you will not refuse them the pleasure of fanning the kindled spark. At all

Father, grieved at the misconduct of a backsliding individual; pierced at the obduracy of a hardened sinner; or drooping perhaps at this very moment, on some unhopeful appearances discovered in your behaviour; go and gladden his melancholy hour. Say, "My father, I want to be more endeared to you: take me to your inmost heart: take me, will you, to your dear Redeemer?" Speak to him thus, and he will bedew you with his most joyful tears: he will pray with you, and for you.

My paper is full, and I have only time to resign you to wiser conductors; to the guidance of a father, to the counsels of your father's God. May he bless you!

Affectionately and tenderly
Yours,

PP

ELLEN.

TO THE EDITOR OF THE CON

NECTICUT MAGAZINE.

IF it is thought the following transcripts from the writings of a pious woman in Connecticut, who died several years ago, will be in any measure, edifying or comforting to the friends of Zion, you are requested to publish them in your Magazine.

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ter's vision on the mount, the view was soon gone,and my soul mourned the absence of the comforter. But soon it pleased the Lord to give me a view of the righteousness of Christ.Truly it was lovely, beautiful and exceedingly desirable. I longed to be clothed with the lovely robe. I was so delighted with the perfect righteousness of Christ that the idea of selfrighteousness was painful."ISS C was born of re- After considerable time and putable parents who were much complaint of darkness able to do little towards edu- and sin, she thus writes, "I see cating her in a fashionable man- and feel the power and truths of Der. Her fertile mind, how-the word of God which I know ever, acquired a decent educa- will abide for ever. I feel that tion at a common school. Her Jesus is the bread of life, which, natural disposition was amiable; if a man eat thereof, he shall live she being never disposed to for ever. And how happy to murmur or repine at the many enjoy his countenance! I see adverse scenes through which the unspeakable happiness of she was called to pass. At loving, serving, and obeying the age of about twenty she the blessed God. I feel happiwas convinced of sin, and hope-ness beyond the power of lan fully had a work of divine guage to express. grace wrought in her soul. She made a public profession of religion and appeared to walk in all the ordinances of the Lord. A number of years after her first experience she writes the lowing account of herself :

After some time had elapsed, she again writes, "I was left to lose the lilly road and wander in darkness. At length hearing a sermon from these words, fol-"Yet I have set my king upon my holy hill of Zion": my soul was enraptured with a view of heav

“After a number of weeks of great exercise in mind, with-en. It was a visit from the heaout any right views of God, on a certain evening I beheld the Lord Jesus in all his beauty and glory. The book of Solomon's Song was then opened to my view fair as the moon, clear as the sun, and terrible as an army with banners. I could then believe and was satisfied. My soul was so enraptured with divine things if I had then been burning at the stake I should have felt no pain. But like Pe

venly dove. What joy it would then have been to have left the body and for ever been with Christ. O, how Christians long at such times that all may come and partake of the waters of life. I again lost my view of Christ, and although I read my bible every day, and found many things comforting and strengthening to my soul, yet I had no view that was satisfying, for more than twelve months. One Sab

ed the great and glorious God to draw me to himself, and it seemed as though I was in heaven. I felt that God was every where, and I could wish for nothing more. Jesus again appeared altogether lovely, the chiefest among ten thousands; O happy, happy hour! It is Christ that came down from heaven, and laid down his life for the world! Yes, he bled and died on mount Calvary, and from him we receive this bread of life. If ye love me keep my commandments. How reasonable my soul! Hold him fast in thine embrace!!"

bath evening, as I was medita- | flicts. The adversary was perting on divine things, it pleas-mitted to assault her with trying temptations. In this situa tion the most melancholy ideas seemed to her like solemn realities. Often describing the joys of heaven in the most animating language, she would in the most bitter manner lament that she must forever be deprived of them. After remaining in this situation about a year, to the great grief of her friends, it appeared by degrees to wear off; and the happy season of an unusual attention to religion commencing the following year in that vicinity where she lived, she was delighted with religious meetings. Her views of Jesus as the chief among ten thousands were again very clear.

As she had drank largely of the spirit of Jesus, so she seemed to possess a good understanding, and was blessed with a very retentive memory, which enabled her to converse upon divine subjects with a very pleasing solem

Miss C-, for a number of years, had a very infirm and feeble frame, together with many severe strokes of divine Providence, which she endured with much apparent submission and patience. Her discourse was mingled with much caution, seriousness, and solemnity; and she appeared in some good de-nity,mingled with a sublime,diggree to have her conversation in nified sense of truth. These things heaven, aiming to depart from attached many pious people to iniquity, and desiring above all her company, which was truly things, to adorn the doctrine of edifying. She appeared to have God her Saviour. Jesus and learned of Jesus to be meek him crucified, was her dearest and lowly; and to be of a humtheme. Her peculiar attach-ble temper of mind, united with ment to public worship and di-a peculiar spirit of charity, peace vine ordinances often induced and candor. She often inculher to exhaust her feeble frame, cated this truth, that the spirit almost beyond her ability to ap- and temper of Christ was what pear in the house of God. Not constituted a Christian. withstanding the bright evidence For about eighteen months of her friendship to Christ, she before her death, her feeble was often ready to doubt the sin-frame was fast consuming away, cerity of her religion. About and her faith and patience apseven years before her deathparently brightening. Her mind she was brought very low, but was fixed upon divine things, as recalled from the verge of the may be seen from the following grave to experience new con

extract of a letter written in her | sense of the glory, loveliness and last sickness :

beauty of the dear and only Saviour; still have felt the truths contained in the word of God; and could see, clearly see,that God is of one mind, and

cannot change, is all the conso. lation the Christian can have." At another time, "I must mourn the absence of the comforter; and it is sin, truly it is sin, that is the cause of all my troubles, anxiety and perplexity. Notwithstanding all my later distresses, this day about noon, as I was resting myself on my bed, I again beheld the glory of God, the sweet, the lovely Jesus. (), how preceious, how exceedingly desirable! O my soul, how canst thou part with so sweet a guest!

"Truly it is with pleasure I use my pen to converse with one whose theme is the wonders of redeeming love. O my friend, whatever in this world we pos-none can turn him; that he sess, whether it be riches, honors or pleasures; if it please the great God to discover to us one glimpse of his glory, one ray of light from heaven, how quick do we forget ourselves and all our earthly possessions! We are lost in the boundless ocean! The soul then feels as though it had nothing to do but to adore, worship, and serve the living | God. The young convert is weaned from all things below the sun. He soars aloft and would fain join with seraphims and cherubims in singing an-Yet this treacherous heart will thems of praise to God and the again lead thee astray. O my Lamb! How, in a spiritual divine Lord, my teacher, my sense, he stands upon the top of blessed intercessor, what can I mount Pisgah, and views the do without thee; and I am entireglorious inhabitants of the Ca- ty helpless, and dependent on naan above! This day the bles- thee for a heart to live to thy sed Jesus appeared to my soul glory!" in all his beauty and glory. O my soul, how precious is the dear Redeemer, when I am drawn to him ;-can sit at his fect, and listen to his words which are sweeter than the honey, or the honey comb. Then I am humble-then I am happy, all is well, every thing is right. O blessed Jesus! order all things in love, in mercy for thy humble followers. Oh, may we never, never, fall out by the way!"

The reader is now referred to writings of her last sickness, for further information of her

state.

At one time, "for a number of weeks I have had but little

"Lord's day. Have had a view of truth. O, how preciousis Christ, how sweet the bread of life, how tasteless all things here below, when the soul can behold its beloved! But how distressing to lose sight of the blessed God, and things divine! It seems as though the soul would sink under a sense of its own vileness. Surely there is none but Christ can hold us up; if he shine upon the soul, all is well. Whatever outward troubles are, one kind look from our heavenly Father will make them all disappear. My heart, thou art prone to wander-prone to get away from the God of love. But in that world where sorrow and sighing