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Bless the Lord who has helped me every time of need. Thou hast led me by Thy grace to know Thee: Thy lovingkindness, Oh! how great. 16.-Rose twenty minutes past six. Christ is all things to His people. He is our Bread and Water of Life: He is our Everlasting Righteousness, our Wisdom, Sanctification, and Redemption, our Prophet, Priest, and King, our Husband, Refuge, Friend, our All and in all for ever and ever. Praise Him, Oh! my soul.

17.-Rose about six. Thy comforts delight my soul, Thou doest all things well for Thy people: Thou workest trials, troubles, afflictions, all things together for the good of Thy dear children. left us this day; may God be merciful to him and change his heart.

18.-Rose about half-past six. Here I raise my Ebenezer. What shall I render to the Lord, for all His goodness to me? May I take more at His hands through Christ Jesus; may I in love to Him seek His honour and glory.

20.-Rose about half-past seven. Oh! may I be a true-hearted Christian, zealous for my God; having the Spirit abiding in me, and leading me, and shewing me into all the truth as it is in Jesus.

21.-Rose at half-past six. Gracious and merciful and just is our God, who through Christ will supply all our need, temporal and spiritual. Praise Him.

22.-Rose about half-past six.

Our Father knoweth best what is good for us, and that will He give us. 'Ask, and ye shall receive."

23.-Rose about half-past six. "Blessed are they that hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled."

24.-Rose about half-past six. Bless the Lord, Oh! my soul, for all His mercies, and forget not all His benefits.

"Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible; by the word of God, which liveth and abideth for ever. 1 Peter i. 23.

FURTHER PARTICULARS RESPECTING MY SON.

William was eleven years of age when he first appeared to be seriously and deeply impressed with the realities of religion; with the value of his soul and his need of a Saviour. He was born Oct. 6th, 1826; and I find, in a memorandum, that it was in 1838 that he first shewed anxiety upon the all important question, "what shall I do to be saved ?"

On the evening of the 28th February of that year, after family service, William anxiously asked me that question. I pointed to the only hope of a sinner-the Lamb of God. From that day, and during the following month, he was very much tried and exercised in his mind; he asked me if he should pray for the Holy Ghost. March 8.-William under great trial and anxiously inquiring the way; and he continued in this state of mind till the 24th, when he told me that he had been up into one of the out-houses, to sing and pray. One of his little brothers asked him what he had been doing-he said he had been to read psalms and praise God.

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him of the elect Angels-referred him to the promises, and insisted on the final perseverance of the Saints in this life as they are elect according to the foreknowledge of God, 1 Peter i. 2; he asked, will our hearts ever be perfectly clean before we die, or while we are young? I remarked, we have a body of flesh which must be laid in the grave, ere the battle be over-to the last we shall say, "Lord be merciful to me a sinner." 29.-At night he said to me that he had doubts, whether he should be happy in Heaven-he asked me how he should know that he was one of the elect-I answered, “blessed are they that hunger and thirst after righteousness." Matt. v. 6. At night William told me that he had prayed the Lord to forgive him all his sins for Jesus Christ's sake-it seemed to him as though a voice said to him, yes, William, I forgive them all-he said he doubted if this came from a good quarter. In the beginning of April his doubts and fears seemed to be gradually and daily dispelling, and in my memorandum, dated 18th April, I find these words: how bright does the light shine on dear William, and the following day, a similar remark.

William's walk as a Christian has been uniform and consistent; walking in the fear of the Lord with a tender conscience, and as far as I can judge, in faith and communion with the Lord Jesus Christ, and joy in the Holy Ghost. I one day asked him, when he began first to think seriously upon religion? He told me, that some time previous to the deep convictions of sin, and exercises of mind, of which I have given the above brief notes, he was one day after school, led to question himself thus-Am I on the right road? that he opened his Bible upon 1 John ii. 1," My little children. these things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus

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Christ the righteous." How exactly suited was this text to the inquiring child. Will it not bring to the mind of the serious Christian the words of the prophet Isaiah xlviii? But true " faith worketh by love ;" and I should do injustice to my subject, which is to testify of the grace of God, were I to neglect to add that this much-favoured youth was zealous of good works; he loved to visit and read to the poor sick-to use a part of his pocket money for their relief, and for the promotion of the Gospel; and I observe that he did not work for salvation-he did not labour for Gospel blessings, but from them; the good Lord had, of His free grace, dropped mercy, forgiveness, peace, salvation, and blessing into his soul; he felt that the Father had loved him and taught him; that the Holy Ghost had quickened, and led, and comforted him, and that Jesus, the Christ of God, had died for him and redeemed him. The principle that constrained him, was the same that actuates every truly regenerate person, and which moved in Paul, viz. the love of God; as it is written," the love of Christ constraineth us ;" and by John, we love Him, because He first loved us;" he felt that he had much forgiven him, and so he loved much.

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After his departure, I met with two small MSS. containing the Journal already given, commencing August 22nd, 1842, which the Christian reader will, I doubt not, read with satisfaction, and perhaps with profit. Subsequently I have met with a little pocket-book containing a text or remark for nearly every day in the year, in my dear son's handwriting, and evidently his selection. These daily texts are not given in this Memoir; but I make mention of them as an additional evidence of the value of the Scriptures, and their adaptation to the capacity and comfort of the young, as well as the aged.

William's Last Illness.

Some days after I found it necessary to call in medical assistance, I said to him, "You feel the Lord supporting you?" he answered, "What should we do without Him? How good it is to remember the parables you taught us, now that my eyes are weak, and I cannot read." April 7. He said that he had been troubled with doubts; it appeared to him as though it had been all delusion, but these doubts were dispelled. He appeared, though suffering a good deal, to be sweetly supported by Jesus. April 18. He said to me, I wanted chastening. I was too much taken up with Architecture. I wanted to be great. I became cold, and felt much deadness. I must not be too anxious to get well." April 21. He complained of pains in his limbs. Suddenly he exclaimed, "Jesus is mine," and burst into tears. April 23. He walked a little in the garden; he remarked, "how beautiful all things look, the flowers, the trees, all the works of God praise Him;" he thought if he got better he should live closer to God. April 25-27. He suffered much pain, was very sick and weak, but his Good Shepherd still supported him in the evening he said, "pray for me that I may see more of Jesus." April 28. Suffering much from sickness and pain, he said to his mother, "I can bear all things, Christ strengthening me." April 29. He said, it is all of grace, and that he had enjoyed remarkable revelations of Jesus to his soul. That evening I read to him the 2nd of Canticles. He said, "I like to hear you read very much, my spirit is willing but my body is weak; I do not enjoy Jesus so much as I want, I want more patience." May 1. He said, “I feel happy now; (he had been troubled with doubts ;) I see that in myself I am sinful and bad, but I am beautiful

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