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porting the best of causes. To another friend, who was congratulating him in a similar style, be replied, 'I have been a great sinner; and if I am saved at all, it must be by great and sovereign grace. Here the dying ministerthe dying friend speaks all my heart: here I come nearer to him at his death than I have ever done through the whole course of his life. The testimony of a Christian conscience is at all times invaluable; but in the dying moments of a fallen creature, it can afford no more than auxiliary support; the grand prominent hold of the trembling soul, must be the golden chain that comes down from heaven. It is the inmediate, personal, realizing application; it is the broad palpable hope of salvation for penitent sinners, through the riches of divine grace in Christ Jesus our Lord, that throws every thing else into the shades. It is not the voice of congratulation on the best-spent life, however just, that is most acceptable in those awful moments, to pious miods: that is often heard with trembling diffidence, and conscious apprehension of contaminating motives and counteracting defects. The sweetest music in the ears of expiring piety, must be struck from another string: “This is the record, that (od bath given unto us eternal life, and this life is in his Son-The wages of sin is death ; but the gift of God is eternal life, through Jesus Christ our Lord.'
" In all probability, my bones will be deposited not far from his: God grant that I may die in the same temper, and the same hope; and that our spirits may be united in the day of the Lord! Amen." .
Thus I have endeavoured faithfully to exhibit the man, in life and in death. He that sees not much to admire and to imitate; he that does not exclaim, •What hath God wrought!' who made a poor sinful man so evidently an eminent saint; would not be convinced nor edified by any encomium I could add.
Doubtless he had bis faults, for “in many things we all offend." I might be blind to some of them; although I thought I watched him more carefully than I did any other friend, as being more anxious that he should be right in all points, and more at liberty to speak iny mind, if ever I thought him wrong: but whatever they were, he bas done with them; and I have done with them. I will deny, none that I ever knew; but if I had known more than I ever did, I would not needlessly expose them. I am fully satisfied that he is now “without fault before the throne." His just spirit is made perfect. I long to be as he is. I wish I now were as he was, in all things except those bonds. () that I were well rid of all that he hath laid aside, and were like himn in all that is now perfect!
· If I knew of his making a golden calf, or in any degree countenancing idolatry, I would acknowledge and reprobate bis conduct; or if I knew. of his denying his Lord three times over, or even once only, I would both own and lament it. But the sacred writers, though they recorded every material fact impartially, yet they did not needlessly repeat and exaggerate the imperfections of upright inen ;* nor aim to shew their own acumen in nicely criticising their characters: their impartiality was real, but not ostentatious. Luke entered into no discussion of the controversy between Paul and Barnabas, though he had full opportunity of knowing one side of the story, and that from far the greatest man of the two: and as I am not divinely juspired to distinguish accurately who was right and who was wrong, wherein Mr. Fuller was separated from some who ouce had a share in his friendship, and from whom he thought it bis duty to withdraw it; I shall leave them to write of his faults, who refused to acknowledge any of their own. Though I may have strong grounds for an opinion on that subject, yet I am not eager to shew them. I leave such things to an infallible Judge.
All who have read my funeral sermon for Mr. Fuller cap judge for themselves, whether
I have represented him there as “more exempt from the infirmities of our corrupted nature than was the father of the faithful.” From such critics as have already insinuated this, and who despise all disinterested love, even of him who is altogether lovely, it were folly for any one, who has neither the means nor inclination to purchase their favour, to look for “candour and fairness.” But charges which are not confirmed by my own conscience, I entirely disregard.
Some of my friends may think it was needless to have inserted these remarks, as the whole of this volume will sufficiently show that I wished to write the actual life of my dearly beloved friend, and not his panegyric. By the grace of God he was what he was ; and now the work of grace is perfected.
Let grace be admired and magnified for ever, Amen!
I RESERVE for this place, some things, the connection of which I wish to conceal, that the place where they occurred, and persons to whom they refer, may not be known; with some other particulars that I could not so easily introduce in the preceding chapters; and others which I did not receive till it was too late to insert them in the proper place, without more trouble in transcribing the manuscript afresh, than my manifold avocations could possibly allow.
Of the former kind is the following. He was once conversing freely with an evangelical clergyman, soon after the publication of Mr. Overton's True Churchman, when that work happened to be mentioned. The clergyman observed, That he understood many Dissenters considered some things in it as severe against thern. Mr. Fuller said, “I suppose you mean