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fuade her that he was an idolater, and that she worshipped the Doctor instead of God: this, however, had no more weight with her than the former, as the knew from what quarter it came, and that the penny was fill the fame. She longs much to fee and converfe with Mr. II. for the fays, 'It is impoffible for him to have one natural or fpiritual child on earth that has a greater affection for him than herself.' I was alfo much benefitted in reading the fame book. Oh, my dear friend, how highly are you favoured in fitting under fo found and experimental a minister! I should look upon it, next to the falvation of my foul, as the greatcft bleffing I could enjoy.

Please to give our love and refpects to Mr. Berry, and all friends, and accept the fame yourfelf. I hope you are all well, and that your fifter is recovered from her late confinement. I should be happy to fee any of you whenever convenient.

Believe me to be

Clattercott,

March 21st, 1810.

Your fincere friend,

A. H.

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As it pleafed God to make you inftrumental in calling my departed wife to the faving knowledge of God, and as it was her wifh that I fhould inform you of the ftate in which the departed, I hope you will excufe my troubling you with this 1hort account of her.

She remained quite ignorant and unconcerned about the ftate of her foul till he was about twenty-two years of age, which was about thirteen years ago; when, one Sunday afternoon, after fhe had been spending the fore part of the day with worldly people, having been always subject to ill health, and experiencing many disappointments, fhe was led to reflect on the vanity of all worldly things, and found immediately her heart. going out after God, and wondered at his goodness in sparing her fo long. She directly fet out to go to Surrey Chapel, for fhe found a different influence to what the ever had before. The minifter, Mr. Jay, took thefe words for his text, "Behold, I ftand at the door and knock; if any man hear my voice, and open to me, I will come in to him, and will fup with him, and he with me.”

These words ftruck her very forcibly, and the wondered what it could mean, as fhe understood not one word of the fermon; but the text ftill abode with her; and from that day she found a great deadnefs to the world, and was enabled completely to turn her back upon it, and found a great love to reading her Bible, and being alone. She was very diligent in hearing preaching at Surrey Chapel, and attending at the morning prayer-meetings; but spoke to nobody. She went on thus for several weeks, and was quite happy, longing to die and be with God.

A friend of hers, who formerly lived with her in the fame family, and upon whom God had begun his own gracious work, hearing that there was fomething of a change in her, advised her to come under your ministry, which she accordingly did; and, though that comfortable influence the was at first under began gradually to wear off, yet the found a great attachment to your ministry, and closely attended it, without reaping any visible benefit for seven years. But during this time, as fhe fince informed me, the had much working in her mind at times, as fhe could plainly fee, and heartily believed, that there was a reality in religion which he had never experienced, and often used to be faying, the hoped she should never pretend to any thing farther than what she felt, for fhe would fooner die in the state she then was than be a hypocrite.

Life is

About this time it pleafed God to enlighten her mind a little into what you used often to be infiting upon at that time, which was the neceffity of life, and that every thing short of that would come to nothing. Upon this one thing The directly fet her heart; and used often to fay fhe was convinced, if he had that, every thing elfe would follow. And now he began to be exceedingly anxious to hear at every opportunity; but used to say when the came home, not come to me yet, and 1 begin to fear it never will.' On Sunday evening, February 3, 1805, fhe fet out for chapel much difcouraged, as the was far advanced in pregnancy, and thought it would be nearly the last time the fhould be able to go, as we lived then nearly four miles off. On her way to chapel fhe began to reflect on the fiate fhe was in, how long fhe had heard the word, and what difficulties he had laboured under, and was as far-from what fhe wanted as ever. She then began to appeal to God, that he had waited on him with a real defire to find life, and had been difappointed; that he knew he could do no more than fhe had done. She reached chapel with great difficulty, fat down before fervice began, and found a great defpair come over her mind, and concluded, with much reluctance, fhe would give up coming, for it was all in vain; life was all the wanted, and the found fhe could not quicken her own foul. However, the thought

within herself, as this would perhaps be her laft time of hearing, she would pay all poffible attention to the fermon.

The text you took was from Acts xvii. 26, 27. "And hath made of one blood all nations of men, for to dwell on all the face of the earth; and hath determined the times before appointed, and the bounds of their habitation; that they fhould feek the Lord, if haply they might feel after him, and find him, though he be not far from every one of us." She felt nothing at the firft part of the fermon, though the paid great attention, till you began to speak upon feeking the Lord, and feeling after him; and then The began to feel a power which fhe had never felt before. She faid that every word, to the very end of the difcourfe, agreed with her feelings; fo that when you had done the fcarcely knew where fhe was, being fo loft and fwallowed up with the power the felt, particularly when you was fpeaking upon feeling for God, and his being not far from fuch. In that part you were led to speak largely upon the text which firft ftruck her mind the day fhe went to Surrey Chapel, "Behold I 'I knew,' ftand at the door and knock, &c." faid fhe, I was trying to open to him juft as Mr. Huntington defcribed.' She returned home, without speaking to any one, in great agitation, and defired me not to speak to her. Why not,' faid I Dont fpeak a word,' faid fhe.

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