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DOUBTS AND FEARS.

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How often, by pressure of heart, are we together to crush the little faith and reminded of Paul's words, “So then hope, which at other times sweetly death worketh in us, but life in you." mounts upon the crest of every wave of How many a score time have we had to affliction and sorrow, and enables me to go down into the depths of soul-anguish, sing even in the midst of the fiery furand frequently terrorism and dismay, nace; and this, for three successive days not merely personally to experience the and nights together, iminediately followsustaining power of our God, and to ing upon a Sunday, in which the Lord know that it was not our faith, but His indulged me with three most glorious almighty arm that upheld, but likewise, upliftings in my pulpit, while speaking that our being delivered, and raised of the grace and glory of His Person, again to hope, and joy, and triumph, in who is the chiefest among ten thousand, the God of our salvation, should minister and the altogether lovely. It is quite to the comfort and encouragement of His true that the chief cause of the dedear children. This is sweetly expressed pression has been physical debility; but by the apostle, in his 2nd epistle to the it matters not from what source it Corinthians, 1st chapter, 4th, 5th, and 6th springs, Satan being permitted, as he

Who comforteth us in all our often is, to rush in like a flood upon tribulation, that we may be able to com- the soul when the body is prostrate; fort them which are in any trouble by although there may be a sure and stead. the comfort wherewith we ourselves are fast anchor-hold upon the faithfulness of comforted of God. For as the sufferings Him who hath promised, and down at of Christ abound in us, so our consola- the bottom of the heart a firm belief, tion also aboundeth by Christ. And that He will never leave us to perish in whether we be afflicted, it is for your the hands of the enemy; yet, at such consolation and salvation, wbich is times, to take the harp and cheerfully effectual in the enduring of the same sing the high praises of Him who hath sufferings which we also suffer: or loved us, and washed us from our sins whether we be comforted, it is for your in His own blood, is more than a truly

, consolation and salvation."

spiritually-living, exercised child of God Now, personally we felt the re-spring- can do. 'It seems David knew much of ing of hope and holy confidence, from this, or he would not so frequently exwhat the Gospel Cottage Lecturer says, claim, 'O my God, my soul is cast down in his last part. It was a most telling within me.' For our soul is bowed word upon our hearts. We hope it may down to the dust.' 'I am troubled, prove the same, under God, to many a or wearied, I am bowed down greatly; poor, tempted, burdened soul. He says, I go mourning all the day long; It is very common for the Lord's

dear am weary with my groaning, all the people to talk about their unbelief. There night make I my bed to swim: I water is, however, the widest difference be

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couch with tears.' * For my life is tween unbelief and doubting. Peter spent with grief, and my, years with was a true believer in the Lord Jesus sighing: my strength faileth because of while he was the subject of that doubt, mine iniquity, and my bones are conwhich caused him to sink. So the Little- sumed. Ah, my brother, these are the faiths in Christ's family still are true footsteps of the flock ; that blessed com. and firm believers; yes, believers with

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are now gazing with delight a true and lively faith in the Christ of upon the Lamb in the midst of the God, at the very time they are pressed throne,' would all tell the same story: down in spirit by distressing doubts ; even sinking so low sometimes as tó "Once they were mourning here below, feel as if their doubts and fears must

And wet their couch with tears; ultimately issue in black despair.

They wrestled hard, as we do now, “This moment, while I write, I am

With sins, and doubts, and fears.' just coming up out of one of these “And the doubts made them sink, as sinking fits, in which it has appeared as they made Peter sink, and as they make if all hell, earth, and heaven, conspired'us sink still.'

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BELOVED BROTHER IN THE LORD,

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one and another at the mercy-seat; and Having read the enclosed letter many the time will come when all little differtimes with much pleasure, I copied it ences will be buried in oblivion, and then some time since to forward you, think shall each to each unite in love like the ing you might feel disposed to give it a blessed ones above. place in your treasury, as it may never “ For this blest time I sigh and pant, have met the eye of many of your read- With wishes warm and strong.”

The work I took it from was an What a joyful meeting will it be, never old work, I think entitled “ Cases of Conscience.” Oh that there were more

more to go out. But I must close, such lively Christians in our days, like when it is well with thee do not forget

craving an interest in your prayers; and unto the writer of the enclosed !

But, alas ! it is a gloomy day we live in, and one who is, and has been for years, soliGod's dear children, very many, are so

tary and a prisoner.

With Christian love remain, swallowed up and engrossed with their

Yours in Jesus, own every day's concerns and perplexi

O. H. ties, that there is but little time devoted to communion, and little heart either, for communion with Jesus or with each

A Letter to a Friend, dictated by other. How rare those seasons, yet

Edward Polbill, Esq., of the last age, when enjoyed, how precious! How it

after he had lost his sight; a letter which makes one hanker after the day of end

shows a heart full of love to God, and less rest; that haven where we shall be

lifted up above the creature in com

munion with Him :glad, because we are quiet. And oh, what a blessed solace it will be, after all WORTHY SIR, --Yours I received, and our toils, afflictions, reproach, and sor- return many thanks for your kindness row, to enter that rest that remaineth and prayers. I am blind, but, bless for the people of God. I know not how God! content. All that He doth is it is with you, beloved Editor, but, for wise and just; all that comes in His one individual, can speak, that such are will is welcome. His choice is better the weaning and mortifying daily crosses, than mine. Eyes might have blinded, that one feels at seasons killed to every- but blindness shall enlighten me.

God thing and all things here, and weary of hath not cast me off, but called me aside all bat Jesus. He is the all in all. And, into the invisible world. There, Jesus in pouring out the heart, if privileged Christ is the only Sun. Mercy is as a only for a short space, what a favour it sea of infinite sweetness to bathe in. is ; and as one beloved one, one after The promises are as green pastures of another, lays down the mortal clog, and comfort. God Himself is the dew that soars from this vale of tears, and is added makes a spring of graces in the heart. to the number to join the ransomed Heavenly truths are the firmament over throng, how the heart pants to follow, our heads. The pure air is the Holy and more than half one's heart seems Spirit, breathing in saints and ordigone with them, especially as we feel nances.

In this world the blind have a and lament the great sluggishness, and prospect, and may see the land afar off, backwardness, and coldness, amongst which lieth beyond the line of time in those who, in years bygone, frequently another world. I may say, it is good talked together, and found their hearts being here. I cannot see outward things, burn within them while talking of Him but the new creature in the heart is a by the way. But is it the case now? better sight than all the world. I canCan it be said, “Then they that feared not read the letters in the Bible, but, if the Lord spake often one to another ?” I have the quickening Spirit, it is Alas! I feel and lament over the want enough. The covenant may be felt in of love amongst the Lord's beloved the heart; the promises may bud and children. Yet there is one way, and a blossom into grace, and nations may fire blessed

way it is, when privileged to bear and be inflamed into holy love. The

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veil is upon my eyes, but my work is to the circumcision of the heart! If the rend off the veil of time from my heart, film were off mine eyes, I should see and to look into eternity; to put back the outward world; but if the flesh all creatures, and to have all in God- I were off my heart, I should love the eyes and all: and this is the greatest blessed God, which were infinitely better. possession. If I have all things in Through grace, I hope to come to that themselves, I have them but in a finite blessed region where God is all. In His sphere; but if I have them all in God, I light we shall see light ; and in His love have them eminently, and in a kind of we shall be for ever inflamed to Him. infinity. In waiting, I wait upon the But I forget myself, and run out, but Lord, till he incline. Oh! give me eagles' not beyond the pardon of my good wings of faith and love, to soar up to friend. Him! Near enough to Him I cannot My kind salutes to yourself, and begbe. Oh! that I were unearthed and ging all your prayers, "I take leave, and unselfed, that my soul might be in per- subscribe myself, petual ascensions to Him, my love going Your obliged friend and servant, forth in raptures after Him! Oh! for

EDWARD POLHILL.

Obituary.

A SHORT ACCOUNT OF THE ILLNESS AND DEATH OF THE

LATE MRS. SIMMONDS, OF MIDHURST. In a letter written by her husband to Rev. M. Welland, Bulkington, Warwickshire.

MY DEAR BROTHER IN THE LORD,- | began telling her sister, Mrs. Bridgen, I know you will be very anxious to hear how sweet that hymn of dear Irons was the particulars of my dear wife's illness to her (the 156th), and she said, “When and death. On the 13th of May I ac- dear Mrs. Welland died, I wished to companied her and the children to have her brooch, and when Mr. Welland Brighton. I returned home the following came next time, and brought me Irons' day, but visited her most Sabbaths. On hymns, I felt so disappointed ; but openthe 17th of June, I wrote to inform ber ing on that hymn it melted me all to that I should not leave home on the fol- pieces. I saw then what a wretch I was lowing Sabbath, as I should, God willing, to wish for the brooch, I value the book stay a few days the week after ; but I more than anything else I could have received a letter from her on the 21st, had." As soon as she had taken the wishing me to be with her while taking medicine, I perceived she was indeed ill; the baths, as she felt a wish to persevere, that dread disease, which soon proved having derived so much benefit from faial, began to show itself. She was very bathing on a former occasion. I at once restless till five o'clock in the morning, started, bụt with a heavy lieart, feeling when she said, “Oh, what a wretch I a persuasion that my earthly all was am, how I have been wandering about soon to be taken from me. I found her to-night." She begged me to pray for in a very weak state, having entirely lost her, and soon fell asleep. But this was her appetite. We purposed to return only to receive a little strength for a home the following Thursday, but she

more serious attack; for violent retchfelt too ill to undertake the journey. ings commenced, which baffled medical We then sent for a doctor, he said in a skill to stay it. She looked so earnestly day or two she would be well.

at me, and said, “Do you think I shali While we were waiting the arrival of

ever recover ?" I said, “I hope so." the doctor, she said, " It was my, will to She replied, “ I feel I can't live long, return home to-day, I felt so rebellious and where I shall go to I know not. I did not know how to contain myself, Write home to Mr. Austin, and request but I know now this is the Lord's way, him to ask all of them to pray for me at my mind is now at rest.” She then chapel to-morrow." I went down stairs. When I returned, she said, with eyes had passed, I felt it so keenly, and brimfull of tears and heart full of joy, prayed the Lord to return again to let "Oh, my precious Christ! Write to me also be witness to her joys. And I Mr. Austin to tell them all, all is right; was not kept long in suspense;, she I can, through Christ strengthening me, looked up and said, "The fear of the bear all. Oh, bless Him; the Lord is Lord is the beginning of wisdom; ah! not slack concerning His promise, as and the beginning of days too. ... My some men count slackness. It is all support now, and will be to all eternity. right, I know, because it broke my heart The secret of the Lord is with them that all to pieces, and brought such peace fear Him." I repeated the first three and love.” The care of the dear children, lines of that verseshe told me, was removed, as though “ Heaven is that holy, happy place, she never had any; and in the night, she Where sin no more defiles, clasped her hands together, and prayed Where God unveils his blissful face-" in such a way, and used such words, as I paused, and she, with such a smile, astonished me, and pleaded for the

finished it Lord's people and dear Mr. Welland, and begged he might be spared to visit

“And looks, and loves, and smiles.” the dear friends at Midhurst, and that She then exclaimed, “Oh, break these the word might be much blessed the bonds ! let my soul stretch her wings ! following Sabbath, the 26th of June. I My Jesus ! my precious, precious Christ! sent for the physician, Dr. Armrood: Ah! that is something to say, but I can He, in the most tender and feeling say it. What a mercy! Wait ye on manner, told me there was no hope of the Lord, be of good comfort, He will recovery. It was now that I felt the strengthen thy heart.” She looked at need of divine support.

me, and said, “ Ob, my dear, I can leave She was, soon after this, sorely set at it all with Him, Hě does all well.” by the enemy. It was a solemn scene Then she said, with such earnestness, indeed, but the Lord soon returned. “Sinner, prepare to meet thy God, for Mrs. Bridgen was with her, and sat in a moment he will call sinners to endwatching her, when, all on a sudden, she less woe; but saints, to endless bliss.” turned towards her, her countenance The disorder seemed now at its height. beaming with happiness, and said, “ Ye The physician came again and conshall eat no more of this passover until sidered the disorder was abated, and ye eat it anew in my Father's house thought she would recover ; indeed, she above, and Jesus having finished supper appeared to mend for a day or two. what did he say?” Mrs. Bridgen was But soon the symptoms were changed $0 astonished as to be unable, for the for the worse, and the fever raged fearmoment, to answer her. She directly fully. At intervals she was delirious, said, twice over,

Eat, О friends; drink, but the moment she became conscious yea, drink abundantly, O beloved.” She she was repeating texts of scripture, or then repeated the verse

verses of hymns, and often she was “Blest Jesus, what delicious fare,

singing these words :How sweet thy entertainments are; He sees us when we see not Him, Never did angels taste above,

And always hears our cry,Redeeming grace and dying love." And these Mrs. Bridgen then began to repeat one "His love in time past forbids me to think of Hart's hymns, the 55th in the Supple- He'll leave me at last in trouble to sink; ment. At the fourth verse, she made a Each sweet Ebenezer I have in review, slight mistake. My dear wife in a moment Confirms His good pleasure to bring me safe corrected her, and finished the hymn through." herself, and repeated several passages of At another time she looked at me, and scripture, and for some minutes continued said, “ What an exaltation! what a blessing and praising Jesus, and the rest !” Mrs. Bridgen offered her some room appeared filled with the glory of drink. She said, “No, not now, I want the Lord. I was absent at this time. I to think about heaven.” At another When I returned to the room, and my time, she broke out, “Let Him kiss me sister, Mrs. Bridgen, related to me what with the kisses of His mouth;" “thy

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lips, O my spouse, are as honey and the me, are His everlasting arms.” In the honeycomb;' " I wound, and my hands morning she lay very quiet ; I

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her make whole: therefore do the virgins some ice. She made me understand love thee.” When I gave her some she did not want more, and appeared in drink, she said, “Oh dear! how good sweet meditation. Thus she fell asleep, the God of heaven is to provide these without a sigh, groan, or struggle, on things for us. Thy right hand shall the 4th August, at half-past eleven in hold me up all my journey through. the morning, aged thirty-nine years. On Sure He loves me, for my heart over the following Thursday, her mortal reflows with love to the Lord's people.” mains were conveyed to Midhurst, and

After a little sleep, she broke out, consigned to the silent tomb by the side apparently in great distress, “O Lord, of my late dear father. A large number when wilt thou appear and deliver me. . . of the friends with whom she worshipped One glance ... Oh, Jesus! come now followed, and many others thronged for our help, now is the time! bless us ! around to witness the solemn event; bless us ! bless all that come to thy solemn, yet joyful; for assured I am house of prayer.” The rest I could not we shall meet in eternal glory, and I understand. The next day she looked have chosen the following verse of dear up and appeared to see something, and Irons to be engraven on her tomb :said, “Come to worship, Israel. . . Now they appear. ...

partly see them.” Yes, she's gone, and I'ın lest here, And then commenced singing. Articu

Grace sings—while nature drops a tear,

For I shall also soon appear lation was now difficult. She was often

In glory.in prayer, but we could not understand what she said. She grew worse in body, And may our last end be like hers; and often appeared in secret communion with may her God be the God of the dear the Lord.

children left behind. I would say, Blessed Sunday, July 3rd. At six o'clock she be God, I have found His promise true, said, “Oh, my blessed Jesus! He tells

“As thy days thy strength shall be.” me, in all my afilictions He was afflicted.

Yours, in gospel bonds,

JAMES SIMMONDS. He is precious. Underneath, He tells

THE PENNY PIECE.

I GIVE the following from the lips of | Immediately there came a peculiar light one who was well acquainted with the and gladness into his soul. Instead of facts :

being burdened by his destitution, he A frost had been raging for thirteen was relieved by it. He was rich in his weeks, the consequence was, that out- poverty. That very night the long frost door labourers, for the most part, were broke, and in the morning he resumed stopped in their employment. Among his work. He had not been long in the these was a poor gardener, who had garden, before his employer appeared. a wife and five or six children. He Addressing him, he said, “I am sure was at length reduced to great straits; you must have felt the effects of this he had spent all but his last penny, long frost very much, here's a sovereign and had not the slightest prospect of for you.” The poor gardener felt more. Passing down a certain street amazed; and, to use his own words, one day, be happened to see a poor “ It was as though the Lord said to man standing in the lobby of a church him, Here's a sovereign for the penny or chapel. His heart yearned over you lent me last night." him, and he thought, “How I should Reader, it is written, “He that giveth like to help him; but I have only a to the poor lendeth unto the Lord" and penny, left for myself and my family." again, There is that scattereth, and Still he felt he could not resist the yet increaseth ; and there is that with. inclination. He turned round, stepped holdeth more than is meet, but it tendeth back, and gave the man his last penny. I to poverty."-Old Jonathan.

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