« AnteriorContinuar »
and difficulties, here recorded, may animate the more experienced traveller still to hold on his way, trusting to the Lord alone, to nothing short of the arm of Omnipotence. For though the writer appears often to have had a more ready access to the healing waters, than many think themselves to have attained, yet she was often deeply humbled tinder a sense of her infirmities, and unworthiness; taught that in the presence of the Lord no flesh can glory; and that He alone is able to begin, to carry on, and finally to accomplish his own work.
Of probably the most valuable part of Mary Waring's life, the Diary itself is an accurate account so far as it goes; and it goes to make the reader acquainted with the inward recesses of her mind. Of her birth, her youth, her general habits, and of her closing moments, let maternal love declare, as follows .. • .
"My beloved daughter Mary Waring was hornthe 20th of Third Month, 1760. From a child, she was of an amiable disposition; tut being naturally of a very lively turn, she appeared fond of company, and discovered some inclination for gaiety; though far sliort of divers of her intimate acquaintance; and more readily submitted to parental authority and advice than most.
"About the 27 th year of her age (according to her own account, in a little narrative which she wrote of her spiritual progress) she was favoured with a precious and hunvbling visitation, which she readily and happily assented to, and became circumspectly concerned to fill up the religious, and other duties called for at her hands. For though she was not placed in an eminent station, either in the church or in the world, yet as far as her circumscribed abilities extended, she discovered the excellency of the Christian character:—in filial (luty, in sisterly affection, in tender love to her friends, and in a desire to be helpful to all around her. To attend the chamber of sickness, and, by every endearing consolation in her power, to smooth the bed of death, appeared to be her peculiar province. Nor were these duties confined to her relatives and friends; but she sought out the wretched abodes of poverty, sickness, and distress; and administered advice, comfort, and substantial relief. And where her own ability was inadequate to supply their necessities, she advocated their cause with the more affluent, in which she seldom failed of success; so that I have sometimes been ready to say -with Job, " When the eye saw her, then "it blessed her; and when the ear heard "her, it gave testimony to her."
"She was a secret mourner for the desolations which appear in our Zion; and I believe faithfully discharged her duly as an overseer. Her diligence in attending meetings was exemplary; and her solid silting therein, often under the tendering influence of Divine love, was hdpful and encouraging to others; and her vacant seat is sincerely regretted by her friends, who were feelingly united to her, and have, divers of them, emphatically expressed not only their own loss, but also their tender sympathy with me, under the very close trial I have sustained in my declining.years :—to lose such an affectionate child, who had been for a number of years my endeared companion, my ready assistant, and true sympathizer under various afflictive dispensations which it has been my allotment to pass through. But, although nature was ready
to shrink from the hitter cvp, yea, at seasons to sink under it, yet in a firm belief that, her day's work was done, and her redemption sealed, I have at times been favoured to feel a degree of humble resignation, and to bless the holy hand that both gave, and has taken away; attended xcith a secret animating hope, that 1 may ere long be mercifully permitted to rejoin her spirit in the peaceful abodes of unalloyed harmony and bliss.
"She had for a considerable time been in a debilitated state, but there appeared no alarming symptoms till about the middle of the Third Month, 1805* when her complaints increasing, myself and her other friends became very anxious about her, and we prevailed on her to go over to Staines, and consult her brother William TothM.* She set out, accompanied by her brother Kidd, on First-day morn, taking a most affectionate farewel of me, though I believe we neither of us believed it would be the last embrace; but so it proved. For though the medicines seemed to take the desired effect, and on the following Sixth-day, she * A medical man.
appeared rather tetter, had walked in the garden, and next morning spoke cheerfully to her friend Sybilla Tumour* (who had kindly gone ever to see her, and lodged with her); yet, as her friend was getting up, she thought she heard her make an uncommon noise in her threat, ran to her, and called her brother, who came immediately, and had just raised her in his arms, when, alas! she breathed her last in the easiest and quietest manner, without one struggle.
"Her remains were brought toGodalming, and solemnly interred in our burying ground the 30th of Third month, 1805, attended by a respectful number of her friends and neighbours: aged forty-Jive years.
"And now, that her beloved nephews and nieces, who revered her living, and lamented her dead, and for whose welfare in the most important concern she was earnestly exercised, may rtmemember the advice she has bestowed on them, and. the example she has set them of submitting to the cross; that, like her, they may become useful in their lives, and close their days in perfect peace,
is the ardent desire of
* See Third month, 1805.