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two against three." Pray for him; the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the faith of the wife; good conversation coupled with fear may in time gain him; if not, who shall harm you, if you be a follower of that which is good? "Commit the keeping of your soul unto him in well doing, as unto a faithful Creator." I was brought very low, and told one of my friends from Richmond (Captain Duckett) who came to see me, that I thought my work was done.' He replied, 'I think it is.' But the few sheep in the wilderness, and the feeble ones of my household, pulled so hard, that I was in a strait betwixt two; and perhaps for the sake of them my withered limbs have obtained this resurrection.

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You must view me no more than a poor instrument by whom you believed; nor expect comfort from me, but from the Father of all mercies and the God of all comfort; he makes ministers, but not robbers; for, as to me, I am kept spiritually poor and needy. You must not look to the streams, but to the fountain; not to the reflections of light, but their eyes shall be blest which behold the sun; you must not hang upon my skirts, but the skirts of him that is a Jew.

The opposition I meet with is very great, which at times much discourages me; but a little success, and the discovery of here and there a broken heart, lifts me above all my discouragements;

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By evil report and good report; as dying, and, behold, we live; as deceivers, and yet true; as

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unknown, and yet well known; as chastened, and not killed; as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, and yet possessing all things. "Bless the Lord, my soul! and forget not all his benefits. Bless the Lord, O my soul! and all that is within me bless his holy name!"

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Adieu!

W. H.

LETTER XLV.

To the Rev. Mr. HUNTINGTON.

MY DEAR SIR,

I HAVE received your last favour in due time; and never did any thing, I think, come more seasonably. I had been for some days without a gleam of light on my way; not a text in the Bible that seemed to open to me. How hard it is to go on so? The matter of your letter works in my soul both hope and humility; the reading of it has been attended with power to my soul. I know that the desires of my heart are towards the dear Redeemer, and that I long for the coming of the Lord more than the watchman does for the morning. I have read with profit your last publication, and cannot but admire the deep things the Lord

enables you to bring out of darkness, when so many try to learn them, by mere Ezt of study and strength of natural judgment, and never come to the knowledge of them. I read them, see, and acknowledge and feel, the truth of them; but my bewüdered understanding cannot comprehend, nor my memory retain, them; but your fifteen propositions, previous to the union taking place, delighted my heart, and I could not but weep and rejoice in reading them. I think of late that I am sinking lower and lower under the spirit of despondency, and I know that I must go deeper berore I am led to the Rock. My natural frame is much broken and shattered; gout, rheumatism, and weakness of eye-sight, are symptoms that very much alarm me; but, above all, that horrible temptation that generally follows me to blaspheme the Almighty; this distresses me more than any thing, and the anguish I feel in this conflict makes me fear that I shall fall, and it is suggested that I cannot possibly endure many such seasons. That which supports me at these times is, some hope springing up that the Lord will appear, and then I fall down before him, and feel my heart melted to weep and mourn, and reflect with indignation on my wretched thoughts against him. Why should I blaspheme the good Lord that has spared ine so long, and of whose mercy it is I am out of hell? This generally breaks the strength of the temptation. Some intimations I have had, of the Lord one day appearing for me, encouraged me

still to hope; but what, my dear sir, if these were not from him, but Satan's delusions? I know he can give dreams, and bring scriptures to the mind, and put on the garb of an angel of light. Should this be my case, I shall be ashamed of my hope, and undone for ever. I know you pray for me, and may the dear Redeemer hear you. I purpose, with the Lord's leave, to be at Providence Monday night. God bless you a thousand times, prays Your unworthy but very affectionate friend,

J. JENKINS.

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LETTER XLVI.

To the Rev. J. JENKINS.

MY DEARLY BELOVED BROTHER IN CHRIST,

I wish grace, mercy, and peace, through our ever adorable Lord Jesus.

HEAR thou art still in the furnace, fitting for the important work of the ministry; and I have not a single doubt but he will turn thee out a real vessel of honour fit for the Master's use; a workWho man that needeth not to be ashamed. teacheth like him? A soul truly taught of God is made to feel the divine impressions of God's glorious perfections. A glimpse of divine holiness,

and a deep impression of it, makes all our comeliness turn into corruption, and we cry, "Wo is me, for I am undone!"

A sense of divine justice makes us feel the snares of death and the pains of hell.

A sense of almighty power holds us fast to a sight of the law, and a sense of our just deserts, and makes us cry out, "It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God;" while the light that shines within makes manifest the counsels of the heart; "All things that are reproved are made manifest by the light which doth appear;" the Spirit of life quickening the soul, gives it the keenest sensations, that it may be thoroughly sensible of the reality of the terrible majesty of God, and feel the need of a Saviour. But under all this teaching we are upheld; "They shall be holpen with a little help." God's eyes are still upon us for good; for, "To this man will I look, even to him that is poor, and of a contrite spirit, and that trembleth at my word." All this, my brother, paves the way for mercy, and makes it highly acceptable when it comes.

Jesus stands behind the wall of partition, while we are labouring under the law, and shews himself through the lattice of all this chequer-work of seeming contrarieties and puzzling perplexity; and, as a refiner, mitigates and regulates the heat, so that the flame doth not kindle upon us.

But when the set time to favour Zion comes, when the day of the Son of Man arrives, when

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