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until, as we truft, he became reconciled to God through Chrift. He now appears to love the doctrines of the cross. Formerly he had a taste for books, and read much in novels, profane history, and the like; but now he calls them trash, and makes the bible his ftudy, and feems to want words to fet forth how much it exceedeth all other books.

But to proceed to an instance or two more. I was at a certain conference in which the conversation turned on the doctrines of decrees, and election; which fublime doc. trines were not attended to now for difputation, but with fear and folemnity. They did not appear to be dry, uninterefting, difputable points, but divine realities, calculated to convict the finner, and refresh the faint.

At the clofe of the meeting, a certain man afked a question to this import; "does a perfon who is perfon who is truly feeking after God, feel afraid that any of the decrees of God will cut him fhort of falva tion?" This question was answered in the negative; that the decrees were no more against prayer, than an attention to common matters, and that the only reason why men brought the decrees against prayer was their having no heart to pray. The perfon who put the queftion anfwered, "I am fatisfied." But knowing him to have long been an oppofer of these things; marvelled at his anfwer.

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On the next fabbath, this man made a public declaration in writing to the congregation, which accounts for his appearing to be fat isfied with thofe very doctrines, which used to give him fo much offence. In this public confeffion he acknowledgeth his paft infidelity; his oppofition to God, and his religion, to the work of the

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fpirit, to the minifters of the gofpel, and all who profeffed to belong to Chrift. But that God

had fhewed him his finful, wretched, helpless state; and given him to hunger for the bread of life, and to believe (as he trufted) in Jesus. The writing which he publicly exhibited is in these words:

"It having pleafed the kind fovereign of the univerfe, to open my eyes, in fome meafure, to fee the depravity and poifon of my own heart ; to fee my defperate fituation while oppofed to God, and to the way of falvation by a kind Saviour; to fee my total inability to rectify my own heart, or recover myself from the fatal difeafe of fin and death; to fee if I am ever relieved from the plague of a proud and vitiated heart, and made to rejoice in the falvation of Chrift, it must be wholly owing to the forfeited mercy, and unmerited grace of a compaffionate Redeemer; with these things faftened on my mind, and I hope as long as I live, I would wish to make fome communications to this religious affembly, which I hope may be kindly received by them. For feveral years paft, my mind and affections have been much alienated, from the new and living way of falvation by Jefus Chrift. have fallen into the most uncomfortable doubts of his divinity; have doubted of the authenticity of the bleffed word; have embraced irreligious and hateful errors ;' have turned my back on the bleffed Redeemer, while his friendly hand has reached out a pardon to me, and urged me to take it, even while his head was filled with the dew and his locks with the drops of the night. I have run away from the bleffed God, while his tender mercies were all around me, and with a fweet voice faying unto

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can be no exchange fo happy as this, to part with a proud and wicked heart for a humble and fanctified one; to refign our enmity for love, our felfishnefs for benevolence, our filthy felf-righteoufnefs for the spotless robes of a glorious Mediator, and our love of fin and death for holiness and eternal life.

With the foregoing confiderations on my mind, I will implore a prayer-hearing God to lend a liftening ear to my request, which I pray God to help me make with fincerity. O God, my first defire is for a rectified heart, to have

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me, turn ye, turn ye, why will ye die. I have lived in dreadful fecurity, and stopped my ears against the most melting invitations of the Saviour of the world. I have spent much time in reading books which were calculated to fhake my belief in that holy word, which had I fincerely believed, would have given me great comfort in God, and ferved in a great measure to smooth the rugged path of life. I have been guilty of many errors in fentiment, and in practice. I have flighted the bleffed religion of Jefus Chrift, the minifters of the gofpel, and pro-fin flain, and a principle of true hofeffors of religion. I have spoken lightly of the religious attention in this place, and have neglected to attend religious conferences, which by God's holy fpirit are undoubtedly inftrumental of true conviction. I have been given to many open immoralities, and have not been circumfpect in my behaviour, to fet a good example before thofe who took knowledge of me. And now in every inftance wherein I have offended my heavenly father, and mankind, I would freely acknowledge my great fin, and numerous tranfgreffions, imploring the forgiveness of that almighty being, against whom I have unreafonably, and without the leaft provocation, fo often tranfgreffed, and who only can bestow pardon and eternal life on the chief of finners. It appears one of the moft diftinguished mercies, that when people have run into error, and marred themfelves by fin, that there is a being to whom they may apply, with broken hearts, and who will blot out their fin with his own blood, and give them to eat of the bread of life. He that covereth his fins fhall not profper, but he that confeffeth and forfuketh them fhall find mercy. Certainly there

linefs and love to God implanted in its ftead, and a heart of conftant repentance and unfeigned forrow for fin. I pray God to grant me all my life, a deep fenfe of unworthiness and ill defert; I pray to realize it as long as I live; to lie in the very duft, at the feet of the great fovereign of the univerfe; to extol, magnify and glorify the riches. of his moral rectitude, his glorious attributes, his infinite perfections; to intreat of him for Chrift's fake to give me his bleffed fpirit, to lead and guide me into all truth, to make me steadfast in a life of religion, to fave me from unbelief, from backfliding, and apoftacy, and finally to engage me to refolve, in the ftrength of the great Redeemer, to take his yoke on me which is eafy, and his burden which is light, and learn of him who is meek and lowly that I may find reft to my foul.

I hope that God, by his great. mercy and rich grace, has given me to hunger for the bread of life, and thirst for living waters; that he has given me to fee that Chrift is the way, the truth, and the life, and that there is falvation in no other way. And now before God and this folemn

affembly, and I hope with a brok- | your total neglect to instruct them

in religion, be doomed to a dreadful hell; will they not shriek out thefe heart-rending words, with horrid emphafis, "Father you nev

en and fincere heart, I renounce the heart-tormenting and heavenprovoking principles of infidelity, fo difhonoring to God and pernicious to mankind. But before Ier told me of this dreadful place, close this writing I must drop a few you never told me of a glorious hints to thofe, with whom I have efcape, a glorious relief by Jefus affociated in infidelity for fome Chrift, and muft I lie in this difyears paft. mal burning lake! O unhappy, that you was ever made an inftrument of my exiftence!" Now will you come to the loving Saviour, and bring your whole families with you? There is bread enough in our father's houfe. I pray God that he will in great mercy be pleafed to open your eyes, to dif cern wondrous things in that law which you have rejected, and to fee ineffable beauty in that Saviour which you have difowned."

You will not view me reflecting on you for I fincerely pity you. I tremble for the fatal mistake you are making. Is deifm a good fcheme to embrace in death? Is there comfort in it of a happy immortality? Will it make a dying hour ferene and joyful? Can you expect to find a fmiling God out of Chrift? Can you be fatisfied that infidel principles are calculated to humble the proud and rebellious hearts of mankind, and to exalt the Moft High? Will you not be perfuaded to abandon a fcheme, which excludes prayer and fhuts out all heavenly contemplation? Can you bring up your dear children, and never pray to God for them, nor mention a word concerning religion and the great God, for fear their minds may be prepoffeffed in favor of a fcheme, of which, if they had come to riper years, they would difcover the fraud, and difbelieve it for themselves? When the little innocents, your offspring, come before you, with wifhful countenances, afking for bread, does it never turn in your minds about the bread of life? that their fouls, are famifhing while their bodies are nourished?

I will mention but one more confideration, and that a dreadful and awful one. You must meet your beloved children before God's bar, and there anfwer how you have conducted towards them.Should they, in confequence of

The above communication was exhibited Lord's day, April 14, 1799, to a numerous audience. Many of thein were much affected --and most of the infidels alluded to were also prefent.

The author of the above communication, faith, that being at meeting on the Lord's day, a number of months after the religious revival had began, on hearing the names of ten perfons cailed, who were propounded to join the church, his mind was ftruck at the cutting idea, that an eternal feparation was about to take place. between people of the fame congregation, neighbourhood and family.

And as there was room enough, he could fee nothing to hinder him from coming to Christ too, but his own unwillingness. These were about the firft of his impreffions. In the evening it turned on his mind to go to the conference; but as he had never been to any of the conferences, and had even spoken against them, he felt many objections. Yet he conclu

ded to go at all events. I have heard him fay, the first thing that ftruck his mind as he entered the houfe, was the decorum and order of the meeting. His convictions continued, and increafed for a number of weeks, until he was brought, as he confeffeth, to fee his defperate fituation, while oppofed to God, and the way of falvation by a kind Saviour; and to fee that Chrift was the way, the truth, and the life, and cordially (as he hopes) to accept of him. Thus I have given fome account of the work of God among us, and mentioned fome particular inftances in which the nature of the work appears. As to the 'cx

been the greateft. Surely he is a God who heareth the prayers of the deftitute.

I fhall close by giving a brief account of one who left the world, in the height of the attention among us. She died May the 15th 1799 in the 16th year of her age. She was a promising youth, of bright natural abilities, and of a refpectable religious family. Her mind began to be impreffed, the latter part of the year before the died.

As fhe had been taught the ways of the Lord in the family, from her childhood, the appeared, early in her awakening, to have a good doctrinal knowledge of the way of falvation. But fhe complained of a hard heart, and a stubborn will. She was at all meetings and conferences which fhe could conveniently attend : but found no relief. In the latter part of February, fhe began to be unwell, and was foon confined. Her difeafe quickly became very threatening and within a few months fhe was given over by her Phyfician. But though her bodily difeafe was diftreffing, yet it was in a great measure overbalanced by her fpiritual troubles. Her complaint was chiefly of her felfifh heart, which he felt to be at enmity against God; and the profpect of going out of the world, with arms in her hands against the moft high, was horrible beyond all conception. She would often

tent of it, there were but a few in the parifh who were not in a meafure folemnized. Almoft the whole converfation when people were together, in intermiffions on the fabbath, and on week days was on religion. Even the companies on training days were folemn. Balls were fuppreffed, and religion was the theme at weddings, and at all times. The number hopefully born into the kingdom of God is between 60 and 70. The number who have made a public profeffion is 59; and it is expected that others will come forward, and fubfcribe with their hands to the Lord. I would here notice that tho' many have been taken, to human view the fartheft from the kingdom of God, yet I think that God, in the midft of his fove-in great anguifh, cry out, I must reign, holy ways, muft appear, even in this work, to every attentive foul, a prayer-hearing God. In the middle of the place there was all the past days of inattention, a praying conference kept up once a week (extraordinaries excepted) by a few ferious people. And it was here, in this conference, that the work began, and here it has

die, and I cannot die fo! Such a fcene efpecially in a day of awakening, was very affecting and it excited the pity, and prayers of many. A number of young people, who had been under concern, and had obtained relief, went one evening to fee her, about a fortnight before fhe died and converfed and prayed with her. As they

feized on her mortal body, immortal glory feemed to bloom in her foul; and fhe knew, and most kindly received all who came to

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were going away late at night he | But though death had evidently begged their prayers. And her request, and fituation was fo affecting to them, that they (as I am told) after leaving her, retired, and spent an hour of the filent mid-fee her, and spoke difcreetly, and night in carrying the cafe of their fuitably to them. She looked on diftreffed friend to God. And one of her mates, and faid, “Now we have reason to hope that on this you fee my heart strings break.” very night, fhe received, from the On one's afking her, " if the might afcended Saviour, the gift of a not be deceived?" it engaged her new heart. There appeared a ferious attention, when fhe replied, great alteration in her mind from this time tho' fhe had many doubts and fears until the morning before her death, when every cloud feemed to be difpelled. And I can fay I never faw fo much triumph, and victory in the arms of death before. She expired not far from 12 on Saturday. Her joys had not the appearance of a vain confidence, but of a real fubmiffion to God, in a view of his glory in the face of Jefus. I never faw any one appear more perfectly to have their reafon and mental powers. There was a holy fear mixed with her joy; and though she said many things while fhe lay a dying, yet it was with as much apparent care, as a confiderate witness would speak in a cafe of life and death.

I fhall here mention a few of her dying words which were wrote at the time of her death. I heard the most of them myself and wrote as the fpake them. Not far from sunrise, the expreffed herfelf thus, "I have lived through a tedious night, and am brought to fee the light of a glorious morning." Not long after the expreffed herself in thefe words: "Now I am going right into the arms of Jefus, to be difpofed of juft as he pleafes. I am not afraid to be dead; I am not afraid to die." The houfe was foon filled with the neighbours, and her young friends.

Why I know Jefus will take me: if he does not he will do me no injuftice." As she drew nigh her exit, fhe rattled in her throat: being asked if she wifhed for drink? her reply was, "No, it is nothing but the pangs of death." On feeing her ftruggles one of the fpectators faid; "Is it hard to die?" She anfwered, "It is hard you may depend." She calmly looked on her dying fingers; fpoke of her grave, and funeral; and bid me in her name to tell her young friends and others at her funeral, to learn to die, and that fhe bid them farewell. In fpeaking of thefe things, fhe was as rational, calm, and deliberate, as a kind parent on going a journey would be, in addreffing, and giving directions to his family. About three minutes before the died, with a diftinct and audible voice, fhe called two young people, (who then came in) by name, faying, "Fare you well: I have almoft got thro' this troublesome world." feemed to die with a luftre in her eyes, and a glow in her countenance. It was a wonderful scene of death, and triumph. I fat before her, and looking her in the face, my heart naturally cried,

"Hofanna to the Prince of life,

Who clothed himself in clay,
Entered the iron gates of death,
And tore the bars away."

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