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would not have made a willing sacrifice to his grand object, the Church; with a firm determination to avoid all impediments in the way of his reproving and exhorting with all authority, in the midst of a corrupt generation-striving to become a Light, and not a STUMBLING-BLOCK among them. He was, therefore, while gratefully alive to favour and friendship, not to be FETTERED by any -not to be sHACKLED BY OBLIGATIONS TO THE CREATURE, so as to endanger his faithfulness : but, with a DIGNIFIED and CHRISTIANIZED independence, he pursued his course, unconcerned as to what might befal him in the way. Thus he recommended himself to every man's conscience; and proved the reality of his faith, and the integrity of his heart.
With respect to offered favours, he was much influenced by TIME-MANNER—and CIRCUMSTANCES. If he could trace them as arising from any intimations FROM HIMSELF, however accidentally brought out, he felt a noble, as well as delicate recoiling: or, if the persons giving were not in easy circumstances, his benevolence of heart revolted at availing himself of their liberality; and, on such OCCASIONS, he has refused favours, though most kindly offered. On the other hand, where any thing appeared to him to come in the course of providence, and he had sufficient evidence of this, no man more humbly or more willingly accepted whatever was presented to him. For the
smallest gift, he has expressed the greatest satisfaction; and always felt particular pleasure in any thing however small, being presented to him as a token of affection. It was under these impressions that he said, with reference to his accepting a benefit of considerable magnitude afforded him by a friend—“ I quiet myself with thinking, it pleases God to quarter me upon helps out of myself, to make me feel my utter dependence.” It may, indeed, easily be conceived, that a man so justly beloved, and with so many friends, might have enriched himself, had not some higher principle guided his conduct.
Duty varies with circumstances. Whatever Mr. C. perceived to be a duty, he never asked a question upon. When it pleased God rapidly to encrease his family, and thereby his expenses,
he readily and thankfully received whatever Providence was pleased to send; and considered it as granted for the express purpose of supplying his need :-That being evident he refused no assistance, where he did not see some clear and delicate reason, why it was improper, all things considered, to do otherwise. Herein appeared not only his integrity and his faith, but his SUBMISSION to the will of that God whom he served in his spirit, thus made known to him: he used cheerfully to say, on a child being added to his family, “ I now expect an addition to my income, though I know not from what quarter.” In the year 1781, he had
married one of his parishioners from Lewes, by whom he had eleven children, six of which are living.
While Mr. C. cautiously avoided the error of enthusiasm, he possessed a faith as simple as it was energetic; and, though he was often in straits, he felt at such times something like a man who has little or nothing in his purse, yet is not anxiously careful, knowing that he has at his BANKER's sufficient for all his wants. The truth is, as a minister of Jesus Christ he aimed, in all situations, to walk at liberty-worthy his high calling. Though the principles which actuated his conduct might not appear to the superficial observer, yet they were not the less real and evident to those who knew him intimately, and could trace the purity of his motives.
Mr. Cecil's natural perceptions were quick, and his feelings exquisite. He was most sensibly alive to kindness or unkindness. I have often, long afterward, discovered with astonishment, his having keenly felt the one or the other, when, at the moment, I had no perception of it; as his cast of character led him to think, rather than speak, under such impressions. Indeed his feelings were too acute for his comfort; and his views of rectitude were so high, that they opened perpetual avenues to pain : but this tended to keep his mind more stedfastly fixed on that world, where disorder or defornity have no place-He often quoted the
words of Hooker on his death-bed, who exulted in the prospect of entering a world of ORDER.
I cannot omit observing, that HUMANITY was a very striking feature in Mr. Cecil's character, insomuch as frequently to produce great pain and selftorture. The very contemplation of oppression was intolerable to him. To use his own words“ There is nothing I abhor like cruelty and oppression. Tenderness and sympathy is not enough cultivated by any of us. There is no flesh in man's obdurate heart! No one is kind enoughgentle enough-forbearing and forgiving enough. We find throughout our Lord's history the strongest traits of compassion.”
He felt exquisitely where he conceived a wife was not treated kindly. He used to say, that so much power was lodged in man, and so much dependence and helplessnes in a woman, that it required a large portion of candour not to believe that they must suffer; especially where grace did not come in aid, and regulate the depraved passions of mankind. This tender susceptibility was delicately, though familiarly expressed by himself, some years since, when speaking of the breaking down of his tabernacle :-" I don't know,” said he, “any thing that convinces me of my weak state more, than that I cannot Now bear to see oppression as I formerly could. Though, when I had better health and more strength, I equally deplored it: yet I was able to view it more
abstractly, and with more Christian Philosophy; and to leave things, which could not be amended, to the great Moral Governor, who is infinite in compassion-notices the oppressor and the oppressed-and, in his own time, will both recompence and deliver: for, Shall not the Judge of all the Earth do right? Still, I sink under the very recollection of scenes, which I have witnessed ; and sometimes lie sleepless all night, from having seen an instance of cruelty in the day.”
These interior impressions could never be discovered in his converse with the world, much less from the pulpit—where, like the eagle, he soared on high, where the object of his high calling filled his whole soul, and wherein his unwearied labours tended to wear away that invaluable life, so willingly spending and spent in that service.
He used to speak of himself as being, by nature, violently passionate. If it were so, much indeed was due to the power and glory of that grace, which subdued his passion. Whenever he spoke of the defects which he thought peculiar to his constitution, which he ever did in the language of the Prophet's roll, with lamentation, and mourning, and woe-it appeared to me like romance. I never could attach REALITY to such ideas : and, indeed, it was difficult to discover what his natural defects really were, while they were under perpetual chastisement and controul; insomuch that he ever manifested patience, forbearance, and the