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Was born at Scotier near Kirton in Lindsey, Lincolnshire,

Jin. 19. 1739. When I was very young, I was uncommonly afraid of death. At about eight or nine years of age, being very ill of a sore throat and like to die, I was awfully afraid of another worla ; for, I felt my heart very wicked, and my conscience (mote me for many things that I had done amils.

As I grew up I was very prone to speak bad words, and often to perform wicked actions. We lived by a river side, where a part of my cruel sport was to hurt or kill the poor innocent fowls. One day seeing a large fock of ducks fitting close together, I threw a stick with great violence, killed one of them upon the spot, and was highly diverted at seeing it die, till I saw the owner of it come out of his house and threaten me leverely. I was then sorely troubled, and knew not where

I knew I had Ginned, and was greatly afraid left it should come to my father's knowledge, therefore I dare not go home for a long time.

I was very prone to break the sabbath, and being fond of play, took every opportunity on Sunday to steal away from

father. In the forenoon.indeed, he always made me go to church with him, and when dinner was over, he made me and my sister read a chapter or two in the Bible, and charged me not to play in the afternoon: but notwithstanding all he said, if any person came in to talk with him, I took that opportunity to deal away, and he saw me not till evening, when he called me to an account.

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I wished many times that the Rev. Mr. Smith, the Minister of the parish, was dead, because he hindered our sports on the Lord's day. One Sunday finding me and several others at football, he pursued me near a quarter of a mile. I ran until I was just ready to fall down; but coming to a bank, over which I tumbled, I escaped his hands for that time. My conscience always troubled me for these sins: but having a flow of animal spirits, and being tempted of the devil, and drawn by my companions and evil desires, I was always carried captive by them.

My mother insifted on my saying my prayers every night and morning at least; and sent me to be catechized by the minister every Sunday. At fourteen years of age my parents fent me to the Bishop to be confirmed; and at fixteen they desired me to prepare to receive the blessed facrament: for about a month before it, I retired from all vain company, prayed and read alone; whilst the Spirit of God set home what I read to my heart. I wept much in secret, was ashamed of my past life, and thought I would never spend my time on Sundays as I had done. When I approached the table of the Lord, it appeared So awful to me that I was like to fall down, and as if I was going to the judgment leat of Christ. However very foon my heart was melted down like wax before the fire.

These good impressions continued about three months. For, I often thought “If I un any more, I fall have eat and drunk my own damnation, not discerning the Lord's body.”,

I broke off from all my companions, and retired to read on the Lord's day; sometimes into my chamber, at other times into the field; but very frequently into the church-yard, near which my father lived. I have spent, amongft the graves, two or three hours at a time, sometimes reading, and sometimes praying, until my mind seemed transported, in tasting the powers of the world to come. So that I verily believe, had I been acquainted with the Methodists at that time, I should have foon found remission of sins, and peace with God: but I had

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not a single companion that feared God; all were light and trifling. Nay, I believe at that time the whole town was covered with darkness, and fat in the shadow of death.

Having none to guide or direct me, the devil soon persuaded me to take more liberty; and suggested that I had repented and reformed enough; that there was no need to be always so precise; that there were no young people in the town did as I did; and that I might take a walk amongst them on Sundays in the afternoon without being wicked. I gave way to this fatal device of Satan, and by little and little, loft all my good desires and resolutions, and soon became weak as in times past.

After this I became intimate with two young men that lived about a mile off, who were very often reading books that were entertaining to youth of a carnal mind; such as Ovid's Metamorphoses, and his Art of Love, &c. which foon had a tendency to corrupt and debauch my mind. Now religious books became tasteless and insipid to me; my corruptions grew stronger and stronger, and the blessed Spirit being grieved, my propensity to sin increased more than ever.

I was fond of wrestling, running, leaping, football, dancing, and such like sports, and I gloried in them : because I could excel most in the town and parish. At the age of twenty I was so active that I seemed a compound of life and fire, and had such a flow of animal fpirits that I was never in my element, but when employed in such kind of sports.

About this time the Militia A&t took place; and I thought I would learn the manual exercise; and as we had no expectation of marching from home, it would be pretty employment for me at Eaiter or Whitsuntide. Four persons were allotted to serve in the Militia at the place of my nativity. One of them, a young man, was much afraid to go. I asked him what he would give me to take his place ? He thought at first I was only in jeit; but when he saw I was in earnest, he gave all I asked, which was seven guineas. When my parents heard I was inlisted, they were almost distracted, especially my father. I was greatly affli&ted in my mind, when I faw my parents in such trouble on my account. At their desire, therefore, I went back to undo what I hail done; but 10 na purpose: so at the time appointed I was sworn in.

At the end of the year the Militia was called off to Mana chiffer, where we lay inost of the winter. While we lay here I was taken ill of a fever, and found myself horribly afraid of death; but when I recovered, my distress soon wore off again. One night about nine o'clock just as I was going to bed, I heard the drums beat to arms! We soon understood that an express was come to town for our company to march imme. diately to Liverpool; and that Thurot had landed at Carrickfergus, in Ireland. We were under arms immediately, marched all night, and arrived at l'arrington about break of day, and at Liverpool the next evening.

My chief concern now was, for fear (if we should have an engagement) that my life and soul lhould be lost together; for I knew very well I was not prepared for death. The next summer we were quartered at Chester and Knutsford; and the winter following we lay at Grinsborough in Lincolnshire. This year I was often very miserable and unhappy. I well semember one day, when being exceedingly provoked by one of my comrades, I swore at him two bitter oaths, by the name of God; a practice I had not been guilty of.) Imme. diately I was, as it were, ftabbed to the heart by a sword. I was fensible I had grievously sinned against God, and stopped direaly. I believe I never swore another oath afterward.

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An Account of the Death of Mr. WILLIAM MCORNOCK:

in a Letter to the Rev. Mr. WESLEY.

Dominica, Aug. 12, 1789. Rev. Sir, THOUG

"HOUGH I am not personally acquainted with you, I

take the liberty of giving you an account of the de th of the late Mr. M'Cornock, a Missionary sent hither last year by your order; and this liberty I take, through the respect which I bear to his memory.

Shortly after his arrival in this Island, I met him about a mile from where I live, very much embarrassed with an unruly mule. I made my servant to fix on well his faddle and bridle; after which Mr. M-Cornock mounted. I urged him to go home with me; but, as he had promised to preach at Mr. CharriTier's, he went there diretly.

Some time afterwards he came to see me, and he exhorted the flaves here, which had great effect, for, they were greatly taken with him. His admonitions were very agreeable. He was as easy in a house, as a young child. He was a sensible and agreeable companion; and one I have reason to regret very much. He has frequently suffered very great insults in the town of Roffeau, when doing duty in a house he had rented for that purpose. They were chiefly sea-faring people, and when they went away, he was undiflurbed.

He was loved and liked by the better sort of people; efpecially those who were inclining to God. He went twice or thrice to Prince Rupert's Ilead, about thirty miles from where I live, and generally went by water; but his last jaunt thither proved fatal to him. He bought a horse, that he might flop with, and exhort the inhabitants on the road in Prince Rupert's Head. This was a most severe and fatiguing journey, especially for a gentleman not inured to the clinate.

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