long speaking so sweetly to me, and I have such views of his glorious love as I cannot express. O, never sure did the Lord do such a miracle! For I do believe there never was such a vile polluted creature as I have been !"* at -. August 30.-Yesterday it was given out for me to be For a whole month it lay on my mind. None, O my God, but thyself, knows what I go through for every public meeting! I am often quite ill with the prospect. When the day came, the wind was violent, which is a thing I have a great fear of, because it so affects my head; for after riding several miles in it, I am scarcely in my senses. And I suppose it is worse to me, not having been used to ride on horseback till I came into Yorkshire. A little before I set out, I said, "O Lord, thou canst still the wind; but thy will be done." When we had got about a hundred yards from the house, the wind fell, and we had no more trouble from it all the way. My hearing was much affected at this time, so that I feared I should not be able to converse with any person. But before I got to the place, my hearing was as good as ever it was in my life, and I was not at all fatigued! There were many persons got together; and after spending about two hours with them, the time for the meeting drew on. We went to a barn prepared for that purpose by the kind friend who had invited us. There was a good congregation; and I found some enlargement in speak. ing on those words which came then to my mind, "Hath the Lord as much delight in sacrifices and burnt-offerings as in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken, than the fat of rams." As I was speaking on the word hearken, I felt the Lord peculiarly present. The people would fain have had me stay all night; but for some reasons I thought it better to return;-which we immediately did, and reached home a little before eleven. September 7, Tuesday.-Glory be to God! this has been a comfortable day. My soul is sweet in expectation that I shall be filled with the Spirit; and that I shall yet see the time, when by my whole life I shall bring glory to There are ten thousand happy believers that would dispute that point with her.-ED. God. I feel power to abandon my whole cause into his hand. O Lord, thou hast undertaken for me; I feel thou hast; I feel also great resignation as to the life or death of thy dear servant. O keep him, Lord, as the apple of thine eye. I believe thou wilt order all right; and I shall regard him with an immortal friendship, that will be free from snares, and all Divine. But it is strange, when I am offering him up, the words come, "The prayer of faith shall heal the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up." I do not understand, but I stand still. September 14.-Yesterday I was a good deal oppressed. I had undertaken to meet the old members of our society apart, and to propose to them a renewal of our covenant; -to set our hearts and hands afresh to the work of God. Glory be to his name, I was carried better through it than I could have hoped for. Some little touches of enthusiasm were beginning to creep in among us, which I thought the more dangerous, as the meeting now grows very numerous, members being added from all sides. Yet was it a great trial for me to have to reprove them,→ 1. Because many are much farther advanced in grace than I am. 2. I was deeply conscious it is one of the most delicate subjects in the world, and requires both much wisdom and much love, to extinguish false fire, and yet to keep up the true. All the day I kept pleading before the Lord, mostly in these words of Solomon,-"Ah! Lord, how shall I, who am but a child, go in and out before this thy chosen people?" September 17, Tuesday.-Glory be to thee, my faithful Lord! O that I could always trust! Then I should always praise! Last Sabbath morning I went, according to appointment, to Goker. I arose early, and in pretty good health. The day was fine, though rather hot. About eleven we came to Huddersfield, and called on Mrs. H. She had asked me to lodge there on my return, and have a meeting, saying many had long desired it, and there would be no preaching there on that day. I felt immediately the people laid on my mind, and that I had a mes. sage to that place,—and said, If the Lord permit, I will. She then said, "We will give it out at noon." We rode forward. Benjamin Cock met us, and kindly conducted us over the moors. When we came to his hut, all was clean, and victuals enough provided for twenty men. But I was so heated with the ride, (near twenty miles,) and with the great fire on which they so liberally cooked for us, that I could not eat. My drinking nothing but water seemed also quite to distress them. They said the meeting had been given out in many places, and they believed we should have between two and three thousand people. That I did not believe; but there was indeed such a numAt one ber, and of such a rabble as I scarce ever saw. we went out to the rocks, a place so wild that I cannot describe it. The crowd which got around us was so great, that by striving which should get first to the quarry, (where we were to meet,) they rolled down great stones among the people below us, so that we feared mischief would be done. Blessed be God, none were hurt! I passed on among them on the top of the hill, not knowing whither I went. Twice I was pushed down by the crowd, but rose without being trampled on. We stopped on the edge of a spacious quarry filled with people, who were tolerably quiet. I gave out that hymn, The Lord my pasture shall prepare, &c. When they were a little settled, I found some liberty in speaking to them; and I believe most heard. As we returned into the house, numbers followed, and filled it so full we could not stir. I conversed with them, but could not get much answer. They stood like people in amaze, and seemed as if they could never have enough. Many wept and said, "When will you come again?" We then set off for Huddersfield. I felt very much fatigued, and began to think, How shall I be able to fulfil my word there? As we rode along, brother Taylor I wish we said, “I think I ought to tell you my mind. could ride through Huddersfield, and not stop. For I know there are some there who do not like women to speak among them, and I fear you will meet with something disagreeable." I looked to the Lord, and received, If I have a as it seemed to me, the following direction: If not, word to speak from him, he will make my way. the door will be shut. I am only to show the meekness of wisdom, and leave all to God. Those words then came with power to my mind,— "The Lord my pasture shall prepare, And feed me with a shepherd's care; His presence shall my wants supply, When we got to Huddersfield, I told them the conversation we had had by the way, and the posture of my mind; which was calm as the limpid stream, and quiet as an infant. I perceived his fears were not groundless, and said, "Well, my friends, I will do as you will, either stay with you this night, or go forward directly, for I follow a lamblike Lord, and I would imitate his life and spirit." They said they believed but few of the principal persons had any objection, and the people much desired it; besides, as it had been given out at noon, there would be a great many strangers, whom it would not be well to disappoint. It was then agreed that we should have the meeting in the house, where they usually had the preaching; but when we came there the crowd was very great, and the place so hot, that I feared I should not be able to speak at all. I stood still, and left all to God. A friend gave out a hymn; during which some fainted away. Brother Taylor said, "I perceive it is impossible for us to stay within doors, the people cannot bear the heat, and there are more without than are within." We then came out. My head swam with the heat; I scarce knew which way I went, but seemed carried along by the people, till we stopped at a horseblock, placed against a wall on the side of the street, with a plain wide opening before it. On the steps of this I stood, and gave out, "Come, ye sinners, poor and needy," &c. While the people were singing the hymn, I felt a renewed conviction to speak in the name of the Lord. My bodily strength seemed to return each moment. I felt no weariness, and my voice was stronger than in the morning, while I was led to enlarge on these words, "The Lord is our Judge, the Lord is our Lawgiver, the Lord is our King, he will save us." I felt great enlargement while endeavouring to show the purity of our Judge, whose eyes could endure no iniquity. That as a Lawgiver he was just and holy, and the thing gone out of his lips must stand:- -The soul that sinneth shall die. But the Lord is also our King, and he will save us. First, by convincing us of the purity of his law, and the justness of our punishment, who have broken it. Secondly, by making us tremble before that Judge whose eyes are as a flame of fire. Thirdly, by leading us to Him who is our " Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous,"-who now manifests himself to the soul as the propitiation for our sins. And, fourthly, as a King, he goes on in the believer conquering and to conquer, till the eternal reign of Jesus commences in the soul; which, as the morning light, grows brighter and brighter unto the perfect day;"-till "the perfect love which casts out all fear," marks the soul as the abode and "habitation of God through the Spirit." Deep solemnity sat on every face. I think there was scarce a cough to be heard, or the least motion; though the number gathered was very great. So solemn a time I have seldom known; my voice was clear enough to reach them all; and when we concluded, I felt stronger than when we began. They then desired me to speak to each of the women joined in the society, which took me till near ten. The room we went into for that purpose was a damp stone floor, so that I could hardly move my legs when I came out. But they kindled a fire, and after getting some refreshment I grew better. About twelve I went to bed, and rested under the shadow of the Almighty till morning, when I found myself remarkably well. After having breakfasted with brother Goldthorp, where we had a lively conversation concerning holiness, I came home with much thankfulness and peace. October 8.-I was to-day at Clackhightown, and saw the hand of the Lord in many things. I have been more abundantly led to reflect on the difficulties of the path I am called in. I know the power of God which I felt when standing on the horseblock in the street at Huddersfield: but at the same time I am conscious how ridiculous I must appear in the eyes of many for so doing. Therefore, if some persons consider me as an impudent woman, and represent me as such, I cannot blame them. Again, many say, If you are called to preach, why do you not do it constantly, and take a round as a preacher? I answer, Because that is not my call. I have many duties to attend to, and many cares which they know nothing about. I must therefore leave myself to His guidance who hath the |