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to attend. It brought eternity very near, and that always does me good. It came into our family; and Sally was attacked with it. But my gracious God supported me under all burdens, and raised her up again in a wonderful manner. Soon after her recovery, Dr. Coke came in his way from Dublin. When I heard he was below, I felt an unusual spring of pleasure, with something of a conviction that he brought a message from the Lord. I instantly felt a spirit of submission, and as it were a listening to the will of God. So I have often felt when some convic. tion of fresh duty was about to be made plain to me. A few days before this, as I was one morning at prayer, I thought of one of our neighbours, (a speaker among the Friends,) who was gone to Ireland. It was suggested, Should I be called thither, could I resolve to go ? It really seemed I could not. The sea, to me ever terrible, appeared then doubly so, and I groaned under the thought, where is faith and resignation ?
When we came into the parlour, we found the doctor had brought some letters from Dublin to each of us, by which it seemed the cloud moved that way. We said but little then, but went to church, where the doctor preached. Before we came out, my soul was all readi. ness to go to the world's end, if my adorable Lord so or. dered it.
When we came home, I followed my dear to his study, and told him if he saw it his call to go, I saw it mine to follow him. He tenderly objected my health, as I had been very poorly some time, and in such a state of relaxa. tion, that I waked for several mornings with blood in my mouth; but I believed that was not to hinder. Since that day we have been preparing for our journey ; and I have enjoyed some communion with God in so doing. Satan is not wanting to suggest every thought that can raise fear. One day I was thinking, what would save me from all painful fear. If the Lord was to give me a promise of our safe return, that my dear husband's health should not be hurt, and that we should have much success when there, would that do? I hesitated, and my confidence seemed to be shook by temptation. I then thought, What will enable me to drink this cup to the glory of my Lord ? My heart presently answered, Nothing but an entire rc. signation ; a losing of my whole will in that of my Lord's, and here I instantly found I was on a solid rock. · The trial is not come single. My dear husband's health is not very good. What the Lord will do with us I know not. We are, however, ready for setting off. I feel my heart much enlarged, and my spirit so willing to do and suffer the whole will of God, that it amazes me. When I think of my dear husband's life or health being in dan. ger, I am not anxious as I used to be, but can rest in the love and wisdom of my unchangeable Friend. For this I praise him, because no words can express the treasure I possess in our union. It is such as I had no idea was to be enjoyed in a married state ; and in proportion as I get nearer to God, I find a daily increase of that union, and yet I am enabled so to give him up to the Lord, that it holds my soul in a quiet dependence and sweet adhe. rence to the will of God.
William-street, Dublin, September 12.—This day of our birth calls for solemn praise. I say our birth, be. cause, as far as we can learn, my dear Mr. Fletcher was born on the same day ten years before me. And why were we ever brought into being? Here is the conforta. ble answer: “ I have created thee for my glory: I have formed thee for my praise !” O let us answer that design for ever!
Many were my conflicts before we set out for this place. At one time it was represented to me, that when we were on the watery element, the prince of the power of the air would exert all his efforts against us. As the thought presented, in a moment those words sprang up in my heart:
"We shall be safe, for Christ displays
Superior power and guardian grace.” The Lord gave me to see the whole universe so under his command, as I cannot express. I saw him as “ holding the winds in his fist,” and “ the waters in the hollow of his hand.” And that sooner all nature should change, than one of God's promises fail. I am naturally inex. pressibly fearful, with all sorts of fear, beyond what words can paint; and it was often represented, if I went among strangers, I should, by that weakness, bring much dis. couragement on the feeble oncs of the flock. But the instance of Gideon was brought before me, and I was made to feel the Lord can get himself glory by the weakest worm; and my heart answered, 0 will Divine, which I adore and love! what a rest there is to be found in thee!
Well, in this will, with the prayers and blessing of many of our friends, on August the 12th we set off. As we drove from our own door, and my dear was commend. ing us to the protection of the Lord, that word rested on my mind with power, I am thy shield. When we passed the Birches, (where a few years ago that remarkable phenomenon occurred, Mr. Fletcher pointed out to me the roads and fields which were so lately covered with the river. We could not but be much amazed at the stupidity of the human heart. Most of the inhabitants seem almost to have forgotten the whole transaction! and we were led to observe how vain is the common objection to the mira. cles of our Lord, or to the sun standing still at Joshua's word, that they are not recorded in common history. Ah no! That which does not take hold on the sinful affec. tions is soon lost and forgotten! While we were convers. ing on the above subject, we passed the Eaton Constadine, a little village rendered famous by the birth of that great servant of God, Mr. Baxter, with whose spirit we joined our feeble act of worship before the throne.
At night we were affectionately received by Mrs. Glynne, of Shrewsbury, whose love to the children of God does not grow cold. May He who hath promised the prophet's reward, repay her in time and eternity. While my dear was preaching that night, on the danger of be. ing ashamed of the Gospel, my heart yearned toward the people of that place, and the cry of my spirit was, “O that these people might live before thee.” The next morning we pursued our journey as far as Llangollen, in Wales ; but all the horses being out, we were constrained to abide there all night. Inquiring (as we walked about the town) whether they had any praying people among them, the poor things answered us in the best manner they could; and after consulting together, they said, “ Yes, sir, there are some people who pray in houses at the other end of the town, but we do not know what they be.” Another said, “This very night there is a man to preach in the chapel belonging to these praying people." According to their direction we went to the place, and found a few poor people gathered in a building, I believe part of an old house. The preacher seemed very earnest and lively; I say seemed, for we could not understand one word, except gogoniant and gwaed, glory and blood; which, with much emphasis, he often repeated. After we were returned to our inn, the few who could under: stand English came to us, and desired my dear to give them a sermon in the morning, which he did on these words : “ This is his commandment, that we should be. lieve on the name of his Son Jesus Christ, and love one another, as he hath given us commandment.” It was a good time, and several were present who understood Eng. lish. We then set off for Conway, and Friday afternoon reached Holyhead. Here, for some reasons, I wished to stop a little, and inquiring when a vessel would sail, we were informed not till next morning. Mr. Fletcher was but poorly. A swelling which he had on his face now broke, and gave him much inconvenience; but on Sat. urday morning, we were informed that the packet was going off. Some of the people said, “The wind is quite contrary, you will have but a disagreeable passage;"> but believing it to be the order of God we embarked. Now I remembered how the Lord had shown me, 6 Fle measureth the waters in the hollow of his hand.” The wind soon grew more favourable, and the sea so smooth, that it seemed to me as if I heard him say, Peace, be still ! Mr. Fletcher was not much affected by the sea, but I was very ill. About one o'clock on Sunday morning we cast anchor three miles from Dublin. We then got into a boat, which was rather troublesome, as the tide kept it in continual agitation ; but through the goodness of the Lord we arrived safe. After being hindered for some time by the custom house officers, we reached by five in the morn. ing the hotel on Dublin quay.
We now abide with our hospitable friends, Mr. and Mrs. Smyth, in William-street, and have seen much of the Lord's hand in bringing us hither. My dear husband has been favoured with such an unction in preaching the word, that it distils “as the dew on the mown grass." The present preachers in Dublin, brothers Rutherford and
Jackson, are truly simple, pious men, and respect that command, “In honour preferring one another.” They heartily rejoice in the message my dear husband delivers among them. There are some spirits in this place in whom we find a degree of the primitive simplicity, re. joicing to see a stranger whom they believe the Lord has sent to be “ a helper of their joy."
I feel a faith riveted in my heart that before it is long there will be a great revival of the work of God in Dub. lin. I feel much liberty in meeting the classes. Here are a few souls truly athirst for full salvation, and many who inquire after the most excellent way. Our kind and generous host and hostess allow us all freedom in their house, for the glory of God, and the good of his people ; and as their servants also are pious upright persons, we can here worship with them in calm and brotherly love.
Madeley, October 30.—How much of thy goodness, O my God! have I seen since I last wrote! On the seventh of this month we left Dublin, and embarked in a Liver. pool brig, bound for Holyhead. We had a long way to go in the boat, and about eight at night entered the ves. sel. The sea was then pretty smooth ; but in the night the wind grew high, and the captain thought the sea more swelling than he had seen it for some years. It was what they call very squally; and we were extremely sick, far worse than in going. Those words, given me before I left home, were much on my mind :
"And shall he not have
The life which he gave,
So precious a ransom for ever to save ?". And also, “ Though I remain in the uttermost parts of the sea, there shall his hand guide me, and his right hand shall hold me.” I could not tell whether they were not a call to sacrifice our lives to Him who had sacrificed his for us : but I lay still before the Lord, in the spirit of resignation, saying, “Thy will be done.”
In going over, my dear husband's tender attention was a great alleviation to my suffering, but now we were both so ill (as was also Sally) we could scarce speak or look toward each other, but only wait before the Lord, that all bis will might be done. Toward morning, the pump told us the vessel was leaky, but it was in a small degree, and