Lord, and repeatedly begged me to give her up. I cannot but rejoice in her escape from suffering to eternal bliss, though the remembrance of our early pilgrimage is ever present to my mind. Her kind concern for me she has shown by leaving me fifty pounds a year for life. Some time since it seemed probable I should lose thirty pounds a year, and in that case I must draw back the help I give to some particular persons and affairs; and now the Lord hath taken care for that also. O, how faithful is my God! Eternity seems very near; my breath grows shorter, and my strength begins to fail. Well, the will of God is all; and it is all my desire that it perfectly done in me.

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February 23.-I have had views of my past life lately, which seem to have discovered a depth of the fall of which I was not conscious. These openings endear the Saviour abundantly. O, how little did I know myself, when the Lord, who knew me thoroughly, was heaping blessings upon me, and inviting me to his bosom! Some years since, a person with whom I was intimate, and who meant well, was certainly very imprudent. Some of the blame fell on me, though I was quite clear. But I feared the reproach, and in order to justify myself, I told many of the particulars which were not necessary, and thus I rather aggravated the circumstances. I was afterward much pained. The other night as I lay in bed, it all came before me. I was nearly crushed-until those words gave me some relief, "They to whom much is forgiven love much." O, my gracious Lord, let this be fulfilled in me !*

This morning in prayer, and afterward in reading the second and third chapter of the Colossians, I felt much encouragement. This day I could not but observe that a power had rested on my mind ever since Sunday, which had kept off the enemy when he would approach; and if a thought would strive to creep in, I felt as if my faithful Lord gave me instantly a check, and excited me to beAll these days I have seen such various mercies as I cannot express. Truly I can say,—

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How afflicting to a pure conscience does any transgression of the law of love appear, even after it has been forgiven, and the corrupt principle removed from the soul.-ED.

"In all my ways his hand I own,
His ruling providence I see.'

I was greatly struck last night by hearing of a young woman who was to have been married next Monday. One of her ungodly companions on the pit bank, asked her where she intended to keep her wedding? She profanely answered, "In hell." Soon after, being at her work near the mouth of the pit, her foot slipped, she fell in, and was dashed to pieces! This and some other things which have lately occurred of the same kind, seem to have brought eternity very near. O, how important is

every moment!

October 12.-Come, Lord Jesus, and give me the complete victory! Last Sunday was a time of power to many, as they have since told me. This day I have been pleading with the Lord to take me altogether into his hand. O, what a struggle it is to keep faithful in rejecting useless thoughts! O, how hard never to offend with the tongue!

December 13.-Glory be to God for many mercies since I wrote last. Some peculiar answers to prayer I must relate. The rich hardly enter into the kingdom, and therefore we the more abundantly praise him in behalf of Mrs. B. and Mrs. E. Mrs. B. was, by nature, remarkable for a worldly spirit, a lionlike temper, and being hard to please. She had also used the means of grace for several years, without bearing fruit. About two years ago her health began to decline; and soon after, conviction began to fasten on her soul, though her complaint did not appear dangerous. Her cry was, for the comforts of religion, and she wondered why she could not feel them as others did. I clearly saw she was still unawakened, though somewhat enlightened. We prayed for her, and with her; and in a few months she began to feel she was a sinner. Her disorder also grew extremely painful; but her cry now was, " O, I hope the Lord will not take away my pain till he sees I shall not grow hardened again. O, what a Gospel-hardened sinner have I been! I have sat under the strongest truths; and all the time the world had my heart. Sometimes I did feel too; but as soon as I came home, all was gone. Yes, I had rather have my pain, bad as it is, than be Gospel-hardened again." She con

tinued mourning a long time, often saying, I can get no answer-no, not the least answer-yet I hope too. Those words of the hymn are often on my mind,

"I the chief of sinners am,
But Jesus died for me."

We now began to discern a great change. The lion was lost in the dove and the lamb. She continued to increase, by degrees, in her confidence. Sometimes she found such a hold of the Saviour, and such overflowing love, as if she could never fear more. Then conflicts would return, but her faith grew more firm, till, at length, her peace was unshaken. For a long time, either Miss Tooth, or my. self, have seen her continually, and witnessed the mighty change which was wrought on her. One only darling child, a nice house just built, and many other ties she had to hold her here; but all was but as a grain in the balance in her account. She had truly sold all for the pearl of great price, and in the possession of that she was content, and proved to the last moment that she was a new creature.

The other I shall give in Miss Tooth's own words. "October the 3d, Mrs. M. acquainted me with the illness of Mrs. E., expressing a wish that I would see her, as it was too far for Mrs. Fletcher. I went the next morning, and found her very weak, but desirous of help for her soul. She told me she had for some time been convinced there was no happiness but in religion. I endeavoured to point her to the source of all consolation, the atoning Lamb of God, who is ever ready to receive conscious sinners. When I had prayed, and was leaving her, she expressed herself in a most grateful manner, thanking me for my kindness in coming to see her, and begged to be remembered to Mrs. Fletcher, adding, 'How happy are the people who receive instruction from her.' She had attended Mrs. M-'s school, and therefore was accustomed to Mrs. Fletcher's meetings. The next time I saw her I read Mrs. Fletcher's two letters to Miss Ireland, who died of the same complaint-a consumption. She seemed much affected the whole time we were together. After prayer I entreated her not to rest satisfied with any comfort she might feel, but to be earnest with the Lord for a clear

manifestation of his love to her soul. The next time I went, Mr. E. being at home, I could not see her, he being quite averse to it. However, I went again, and now all my fears were done away. O what a change had taken place! The new song was indeed put into her mouth, even of praise and thanksgiving unto our God. As soon as I came to her bedside she reached out her hand, saying, 'I am glad to see you.' I answered, So am I, my dear, to see you; and I trust you have had some gracious visits from the Lord since we met last. She answered, 'O yes, many, many.' Then looking earnestly at me, she said, 'That is a sweet word, Whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son that he receiveth! And you know St. Paul saith, These light afflictions, which are but for a moment, shall work out for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory.' Then, with her arms thrown up as in a rapture of delight, she repeated, 'A far more exceeding, a far more exceeding! Ó it is not possible to tell you what I feel in those words.' I said, My dear, you have now a sweet foretaste of that enjoyment you will shortly have in full possession. O yes,' replied she,' that is the thing, that is the thing! I am now so sure I shall be happy! Yes, die when I will, I am sure I shall be eternally happy! But it is no merit of mine; no, it is nothing I have done. No, no, it is Jesus Christ hath died for me! that is the comfort. O Miss Tooth, that is the comfort, Jesus Christ hath died for me!' Yes, I replied, that will never fail you. The Lord has been very gracious to you; and when I get home and tell dear Mrs. Fletcher, how will she praise the Lord for this! She then cried out, O beg her to pray for me. As long as I am here I hope she will not forget me. I have had those words very much on my mind, Be ye also ready, for at an hour that ye think not the Son of man cometh.' With great solemnity she repeated, at an hour ye think not.' I said, You can now praise the Lord that he did not call you at an hour when you thought not of him. O yes,' said she, I praise him for it. I praise him also every hour for this affliction this light affliction.' She again expressed much love to Mrs. Fletcher, and said, 'I shall see her in glory. She parted from me in words of heavenly love, and triumphant joy. Soon after she desired one present to read the burial

service, to which she listened with great attention; but when they came to those words, Thanks be to God, who hath given us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ, she was transported, and shouted aloud the high praises of her Saviour, who had given her the victory. I have it, I feel it!' she cried out; and in the same heavenly triumph she departed, and entered her heavenly Father's house."

January 23, 1806.-Blessed be the Lord, I feel an en couraging hope that this will be the best year of my life. I am waiting for my Lord to come and make my heart his loved abode, the temple of indwelling God. O how sweet is the communion of saints, when we meet with those who are all alive, or who are thirsting so to be! but, alas! how rarely are they found! Last Tuesday we had brother H. to preach here. I found him a man of God indeed; both his sermon and his prayers had much unction. We had some comfortable conversation after supper. His words tended to raise faith and love in our souls. Among other profitable particulars he mentioned one manifestation; it was as follows:-In his sleep he thought he was going to die, and pleaded that the Lord would give him the meetness for glory. After a time it was spoken to his heart. "It is done, it is done;" and he felt it was so, and found himself filled with the heavenly mind. Then he saw angels all round his bed; one in particular of great beauty at the foot. He thought himself dying, and lay with great delight waiting the event. It then appeared to him he drew his last breath, on which the beautiful angel at the foot of the bed clasped him in his arms, and conveyed him to the heavenly gates, which, as he stood before them, ap peared very glorious. The angel then touched the gates, which immediately flew open, and such streams of glory came out as seemed to constrain him to draw back some paces, as being a greater delight than he could yet bear; but presently he went forward and entered the holy city. There he saw an innumerable company of glorified spirits, and the patriarchs in a circle. Next to that circle he saw another, of the prophets; and within that, all the apostles. He then cried out, " But where is Jesus?" The adorable God-man then appeared in view; which sight filled his soul with joy inexpressible; and he observed