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path that leadeth unto life eternal : however, “ I did not remain at that school long, as there “was a free school opened at Alfriston (a “ national school), about a mile from where we " then lived ; this school belonged to the church. “ To this school I was sent, where every at“ tention was paid to reading and writing, and

very good rules and regulations kept up in the school, such as saying prayers, but where never (was) * taught the difference between saying of (prayers) and praying: however I got on very well, and, although I was very young,

the master took notice of me, and put me in the first class, and from that made me

a teacher of one of the other classes. I do “not know that ever I as yet felt any convic“tion for sin, no more than what is common “ in children—the rod of my parents being my “ dread.

“ However, there was a Sunday-school esta“blished belonging to the Independent Society. “ To this school I was sent every Sunday; the “ manner of their teaching--their loving man

ner of correction—and at the same time, “ their loving, simple, child-like, and Christ“ like manner of directing us to flee from the “wrath to come, ever keeping us in mind of

this, that the wicked shall be turned into hell “ with all that forget their God, and at the

same time opening to our view, that God

was not a hard master, for though he had “ said he would punish the wicked, yet it was • not his desire that the wicked should perish; “ but such was the loving kindness of God, that “ if we forsook wicked ways and came unto

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him, he would at last receive us into his ever* lasting kingdom, to sing praises to God and “the Lamb for ever.

“ Thus was I instructed at this school, not only to read and write, but also taught to love “ and fear God; however at this school I did “ not feel to be much alarmed about my sins,

yet I here first felt a love to God, and like66 wise a desire to be such as I should be. I “ felt that I loved the people of God more than

any people in the world, and thus as long as “I remained at this school, I found I could not “ commit sin with pleasure as I had done. “Do not misunderstand me, to think I mean “ to say as long as I remained at this school I “ lived without sin,-I pray God I could say

so,-no, my meaning is, that after I felt a love “ to God and his people, that although ‘He “ that goeth about like a roaring lion seek“ing whom he may devour,' did tempt me, “ and I did yield to his temptations, yet there “ was something that pricked me to the heart, “and my conscience told me I did not deserve “a name among the professors of the Lord

« Jesus Christ.' The extraordinary religious turn of Holloway's mind may be easily gained from the foregoing extract; and it is certain, that the uniformity of his conduct, and his zealous attention to the duties of his station, obtained for him the approbation and applause of Mr. Charles Brookes, and Mr. Betts, the minister of the Independent Chapel. In fact, from the information of his mother, it appears that his mind at this time partook strongly of the nature of the enthusiast. His whole soul appears to have been absorbed in the performance of his religious duties, although it is evident that he had not yet attached himself to the creed of any particular sect, wavering between the Independents and the Wesleyans; and at one time between the Baptists and the Brienites. It was his custom to write scriptural phrases on stone and on the bars of the gates with chalk; nor was his conduct, in a filial sense, less strikingly distinguished for propriety and steadiness. When his father was ill he would pray by his bedside, exhorting him to place his trust in God, and by a firm reliance on the merits of the Redeemer, ensure to himself that heritage, which is promised to all who put their faith in him, and who truly repent. Nor was it only in the hours of the indisposition of his father, that young Holloway evinced this anxious desire for the spiritual interests of his parent; his evening hours were devoted to the perusal of some good and edifying work, from which he extracted the most impressive passages, expounding them afterwards to his parents, who fondly, though falsely, flattered themselves that as their child grew up in years he would also grow up in goodness and virtue, and be to them a stay and support in their declining years.

Recurring to the period of his residenče at Jedlington, Holloway says,

“ Had I remained in the country, I am ready
to
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I should not have come to this fatal end, for I think I may say, until I came to · Brighton, I remained contented in the humble “ situation in which I was placed. I remained “ at the church (or national) school, I think “about two years, and then went to work. We “ remained in the country about five years, and “then, to my sorrow, left that happy abode of “ humiliation for the noise and bustle of a town. “I remember that me (I) and my sister went “ a day or two before father and mother.' At

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“our first arrival at Brighton, everything “ seemed to fight against (us) for neither'mo

ther, father nor myself could get any work; “but bless the Lord, he ever was true to his “ promise to them that call on his holy (name,)

believing, doubting nothing.' “ Bread shall “ be given and water shall be showered, bless “ the Lord.' Here was his loving kindness

displayed; for through all our trials, as long “ as we continued to call on the name of the

Lord, trusting in him, we never wanted. At

our first arrival at Brighton, my mother at“tended the Baptist Chapel, consequently,

according to her wish, I went to that Sunday “ school; yet young as I was, I thought that “ there was something that did not altogether

agree with my ideas of salvation, for I at all “ times had it deeply impressed on my mind, “ that God is no respecter of persons, But “whosoever will may come and take of the " waters of life freely. . God willeth not the “ death of a sinner, but rather that he would “ turn and live.' "Turn ye—turn ye—why will

ye die, O house of Israel!" * Do not think that I intend to say anything

against those dear people of God-no, I only “ mean to say, that their views are not as my “ views; yet there is only one narrow path; “ Jesus Christ himself being the gate through “ which we must enter, and then none can go

wrong who layeth their foundation in Christ; “ who is, and must be the chief corner-stone, “ or else the foundation of our hope being “ wrongly founded, will sink our souls into 66 eternal flames.

“ But to continue; after attending this chapel " and school for some time, I got acquainted

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“ with some young people belonging to the “ Methodist Society, and soon after both my “ mother and father left that chapel, (I mean “the Baptist,) and joined themselves to the “Methodist Society. Now was my only wish “ fulfilled. I likewise was sent to the Sunday “ School; and now that spark of (?) and grace

appeared daily to be kindling into a flame; “ for the more I was with, and the more I con. “ versed with those blessed people of God, the

more I felt determined, through grace, to press forward to the mark or prize of my high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

" After remaining as a pupil at the school for some time, I left the school, and, with my “ dear father, joined the Society. O the blessed

seasons I have enjoyed at both class-meetings “ and prayer-meetings! Yes, my dear friends,

so powerfully grew the work of grace in my heart, that although in the slippery path of

youth, the world at this time, with all the “ allurements thereof, had no weight at all with

me for a time, yet you may be sure the devil “ did not long suffer me to remain in this happy state.

state. Yet for a time, against all the temptations of Satan, I, through grace, kept “ pressing forward with my face Zionward,

receiving all the encouragement that could possibly be given me, at the same time keep

ing a watchful (eye) not to give me too much; “ for the path that leadeth to life everlasting

may truly be said to be a narrow path ; for,

as I have since found, -yes, and by awful “experience,—that for to give young pilgrims “ too much encouragement is worse than not “ enough; for by giving them too much, they

are apt to give away to too much self; whereas

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