That these so dewy lips should be the same proof, all! That this girl face, expectant, virginal, Which gazes out at me Boon as a sweetheart, as if nothing loth (Save for the eyes, with other presage ( stored) To pledge me troth, And in the kingdom where the heart is lord Take sail on the terrible gladness of the deep Whose winds the gray Norns keep, That this should be indeed seed, Out of the to and fro Of scattering hands where the seedsman Mage, Stooping from star to star and age to age Sings as he sows! That underneath this breast Nine moons I fed Deep of divine unrest, While over and over in the dark she said, “Blessed! but not as happier children blessed” That this should be Even she God, how with time and change Thou makest thy footsteps strange ! Ah, now I know They play upon me, and it is not so Why, 't is a girl I never saw before, A little thing to flatter and make weep, To tease until her heart is sore, Then kiss and clear the score; A gypsy run-the-fields, A little liberal daughter of the earth, Good for what hour of truancy and mirth The careless season yields Hither-side the flood of the year and yonder Then thank you, thanks again, and twenty of the neap; light good-byes, O shrined above the skies, Frown not, clear brow, Darken not, holy eyes!! Thou knowest well I know that it is thou Only to save from such memories As would unman me quite, Here in this web of strangeness caught And prey to troubled thought Do I devise These foolish shifts and slight; Only to shield me from the afflicting sense Of some waste influence Which from this morning face and lustrous hair Breathes on me sudden ruin and despair. In any other guise, With any but this girlish depth of gaze, Your coming had not so unsealed and poured The dusty amphoras where I had stored The drippings of the winepress of my days. I think these eyes foresee, Now in their unawakened virgin time, Their mother's pride in me, And dream even now, unconsciously, Upon each soaring peak and sky-hung lea You pictured I should climb. Broken premonitions come, Shapes, gestures visionary, ate man-child, self, And set upon the shelf In sullen pride The Vineyard-master's tasting to abide O mother mine! Are these the bringings-in, the doings fine Of him who used to praise ? Emptied and overthrown The jars lie strown. These, for their flavor duly nursed, with grief, Even of these, of these in chief, The stale breath sickens reeking from the shard. Nothing is left. Aye, how much less than naught! What shall be said or thought Of the slack hours and waste imaginings, The cynic rending of the wings, Known to the froward, that unreckoning heart Whereof this brewage was the precious part, Treasured and set away with furtive boast ? O dear and cruel ghost, Be merciful, be just ! See, I was yours and I am in the dust. Then look not so, as if all things were well! Take your eyes from me, leave me to my shame, Or else, if gaze they must, |