assistance of Him whose strength is made perfect in our weakness, to the poor and wandering Jews the way to obtain eternal life.

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Secondly-It is well known that a Jew who has embraced the Christian religion is generally looked upon by his own nation with the greatest contempt and reproach, yea, even persecuted, as much as lies in their power; yet, to my great surprise, I have been received by many Jews in Berlin with friendship and respect. Twice I had religious conversation with the presiding Rabbi himself: and here, in London, I have dined with some, at whose table I have not been ashamed nor afraid to confess Jesus of Nazareth to be the true Messiah; and not a few have already visited me at my apartments, for the sake of having religious conversation.

Thirdly-I have observed that my brethren will rather listen to what I say than to what they hear advanced by a Christian; and they would open with freedom and confidence their mind to me, which they would never do to one who was born a Christian.

"The last reason which I assign for my wish is— "Fourthly That I humbly hope I am acquainted with their peculiar dispositions and conduct that I know their religious sentiments; and that I shall be enabled, through the grace of my blessed Saviour, to become all things to all men, that I may by all means save some, especially of those of mine own nation, whom I love with love unfeigned and inexpressible.

"It is, therefore, my dearly beloved brethren, my humble wish to remain, if but one year, in London, to try, if possible, to save if but one soul from the power of Satan, and lead them to the good Shepherd, who gave his life for the sheep, &c. But Jesus is my Lord and

Saviour, who has bought me on the cross with his precious blood; to him I give myself again in body and soul to be directed in this important object. He who is infinite in wisdom, knows best what is good for me a poor worm. He is perfectly acquainted with the hearts of men, and turns them as he does the rivers of water. The desires and motives of my heart are better known to him than to myself; and he will, no doubt, lead and rule, according to his holy will, the hearts of my dearly beloved brethren and directors.

"I am your willing servant,

“ London, Nov. 24, 1801.”

"C. F. FREY.

§ 7. After I had sent this letter to the directors, I attended several of their meetings, to answer various questions relative to a mission among the Jews; and, on the 21st of December, I received the important intelligence, that "the directors had resolved that I should stay at least one year in England." The workings pro`duced in my mind on the receipt of this message were very opposite, and continued so for several weeks. The idea of preaching the word of salvation to my dear brethren, and the hope of rescuing some from everlasting destruction, filled my heart with unspeakable joy and pleasure; but a consciousness of my utter unfitness for so great and arduous an undertaking, overwhelmed my mind with inexpressible sorrow and grief, and would have led me to despair, had it not been for that gracious promise, "as thy day is, so shall thy strength be." The following passages of Scripture likewise greatly encouraged my heart: 2 Chron. xxxiv. 3, "In the eighth year of his reign, (i. e., Josiah,) while he was yet young, he began to seek after the God of David,

his father and in the twelfth year he began to purge Judah and Jerusalem from the high places, and the groves, and the carved images, and the moulten images." -2 Cor. v. 7, "We walk by faith, and not by sight." The change respecting myself affected likewise the brethren Palm and Ulbricht; instead of going directly to the Cape, they were both sent to Rotterdam, where they stayed for some time; and afterward several brethren from the Missionary Seminary at Berlin joined them.

Thus I have shown the circumstances which led to a change in the design of my going to England, and the fulfilment of a great part of the dream which I had at Gravesend.

§ 8. The reader will, no doubt, now expect to hear how I entered upon this new and most important part of my life, and what success has followed my labours among the Jews; but I must beg his patience while I call his attention to the gracious dealings of God with me for the space of three years and a half, viz., from the time it was resolved that I should stay in England to the time of my actually entering upon the field of labour. As I knew nothing of the English language, and as preaching to the Jews required some particular preparatory studies, the directors resolved that I should go to Gosport, to their Missionary Seminary. Accordingly, on the 28th of February, 1802, I left London, and went to Gosport. For ever blessed be the Lord, who, in his wise providence, sent me to that place, to be under the tuition of a man like the Rev. David Bogue. Would to God I had words to express the high esteem which I feel for this my dear tutor, and the great obligations under which I am to him for the inestimable benefits which I derived from his most excellent lectures on

various subjects; from his wise, prudent, and most judicious advice; and from his exemplary conduct, both ás a Christian and as a minister.

9. The first thing I had to attend to in the seminary was the knowledge of the English language. I had also to learn Latin and Greek. By the desire of my tutor, I gave the students instruction in Hebrew; but the extreme difficulty of obtaining a suitable Hebrew grammar led me to compose a new one, which I afterward revised and enlarged, the first edition of which was printed in 1811, and during my late visit in London I published the 10th edition, much enlarged.

A few weeks after I had been at Gosport, I engaged for the first time in prayer, in the seminary, in the English language. Toward the close of March I was invited by the Rev. Mr. Cox, of Fareham, to spend the first Sabbath in April at his house, and to partake of the Lord's Supper at his place of worship. I had a great desire to prepare a few words in English, and to deliver them, on the next Sabbath, before the minister to whom I was to pay a visit. I chose Matthew xvii. 5, "While he yet spake, behold, a bright cloud overshadowed them: and, behold! a voice out of the cloud, which said, 'This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased; hear ye him." On these words I wrote a few thoughts in the German language, and translated them, by the help of a dictionary, into English. According to my promise, I went to Fareham; and early on the Lord's-day, a number of people having met together in the vestry, I engaged in prayer, and then read what I had written on the above-mentioned passage of ScripNever in my life have I witnessed a scene like that morning; tears, like streams of water, flowed from every eye, and the people blessed and praised God for

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what they saw with their eyes, heard with their ears, and felt in their hearts. I was afterward informed, that the Lord was pleased to bless those few imperfect sentences in broken English in two persons, especially to one who had disbelieved the divinity of our blessed Saviour. This circumstance I considered, then, as an additional proof, that it was the will of God that I should stay in England; and I looked upon those two, who received the word with profit, as my first-fruits, on British ground, of a plentiful harvest.

In the same month I went to an association at Christ Church, where, for the first time, I ascended an English pulpit to engage in prayer; and in the following May I went up to London, to the Missionary meeting, when the Rev. Rowland Hill introduced me into his pulpit for the like purpose. The feelings of my mind at the sight of such an immense congregation, and on account of my imperfect knowledge of the language, cannot be described. O that I could sufficiently praise the Lord for his wonderful goodness and mercy to me a poor sinner!

§ 10. Soon after I came to Gosport, I wrote a long letter to my dear parents, stating the reasons for my believing in the Lord Jesus Christ as the true Messiah, the Son of God. On the receipt of this intelligence, they performed the same ceremonies as if they had been informed of my death, and never corresponded with me after that, and of course I was disinherited. But blessed be the Lord, I have never wanted bread nor friends. "When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take me up." Psalm xxvii. 10. From one of my brothers and one sister, however, I have had several letters, and by them I have been informed of the death of my dear parents. My father