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preach in the chapel belonging to these praying people." According to their direction we went to the place, and found a few poor people gathered in a building, I believe part of an old house. The preacher seemed very earnest and lively ; I say seemed, for we could not understand one word, except gogoniant and gwaed, glory and blood; which, with much emphasis, he often repeated. After we were returned to our inn, the few who could understand English came to us, and desired my dear to give them a sermon in the morning, which he did on these words : 66 This is his commandment, that we should be. lieve on the name of his Son Jesus Christ, and love one another, as he hath given us commandment."
It was a good time, and several were present who understood English. We then set off for Conway, and Friday afternoon reached Holyhead. Here, for some reasons, I wished to stop a little, and inquiring when a vessel would sail, we were informed not till next morning. Mr. Fletcher was but poorly. A swelling which he had on his face now broke, and gave him much inconvenience; but on Sat. urday morning, we were informed that the packet was going off. Some of the people said, “The wind is quite contrary, you will have but a disagreeable passage;" but believing it to be the order of God we embarked. Now I remembered how the Lord had shown me,
6 Fle measureth the waters in the hollow of his hand.” The wind soon grew more favourable, and the sea so smooth, that it seemed to me as if I heard him say, Peace, be still ! Mr. Fletcher was not much affected by the sea, but I was very ill. About one o'clock on Sunday morning we cast anchor three miles from Dublin. We then got into a boat, which was rather troublesome, as the tide kept it in continual agitation ; but through the goodness of the Lord we arrived safe. After being hindered for some time by the custom house officers, we reached by five in the morn. ing the hotel on Dublin quay.
We now abide with our hospitable friends, Mr. and Mrs. Smyth, in William-street, and have seen much of the Lord's hand in bringing us hither. My dear husband has been favoured with such an unction in preaching the word, that it distils “as the dew on the mown grass. The present preachers in Dublin, brothers Rutherford and Jackson, are truly simple, pious men, and respect that command, “In honour preferring one another.” They heartily rejoice in the message my dear husband delivers among them. There are some spirits in this place in whom we find a degree of the primitive simplicity, rejoicing to see a stranger whom they believe the Lord has sent to be “ a helper of their joy."
I feel a faith riveted in my heart that before it is long there will be a great revival of the work of God in Dub. lin. I feel much liberty in meeting the classes. Here are a few souls truly athirst for full salvation, and many who inquire after the most excellent way. Our kind and generous host and hostess allow us all freedom in their house, for the glory of God, and the good of his people ; and as their servants also are pious upright persons, we can here worship with them in calm and brotherly love.
Madeley, October 30.—How much of thy goodness, O my God! have I seen since I last wrote! On the seventh of this month we left Dublin, and embarked in a Liver. pool brig, bound for Holyhead. We had a long way to go in the boat, and about eight at night entered the ves. sel. The sea was then pretty smooth ; but in the night the wind grew high, and the captain thought the sea more swelling than he had seen it for some years. It was what they call very squally; and we were extremely sick, far worse than in going. Those words, given me before I left home, were much on my mind :
" And shall he not have
The life which he gave,
So precious a ransom for ever to save ?" And also, “ Though I remain in the uttermost parts of the sea, there shall his hand guide me, and his right hand shall hold me. I could not tell whether they were not a call to sacrifice our lives to Him who had sacrificed his for us : but I lay still before the Lord, in the spirit of resignation, saying, “Thy will be done."
In going over, my dear husband's tender attention was a great alleviation to my suffering, but now we were both so ill (as was also Sally) we could scarce speak or look toward each other, but only wait before the Lord, that all bis will might be done. Toward morning, the pump told us the vessel was leaky, but it was in a small degree, and we were near land. It served to remind us of that word, “ There is but a step between me and death!”
Since our return I have closely examined what I have lost or got in these last three months. I exceedingly praise the Lord that ever we went to Dublin, and that for various reasons.
There are some souls there with whom my spirit found much fellowship; at whose feet I sat, and, I trust, learned many useful lessons. My dear Mr. Fletcher preached in several places beside the preaching house in Whitefriars-street, both to the French and Eng. lish, and we had some remarkable proofs that he was called there of God.* I have also learned more of my own weakness and ignorance. I know not I ever found a more humbling season than while I was there.
* Having visited Dublin soon after the departure of these servants of God, I can add my testimony to the great and good effects which resulted from their visit, and their truly evangelical labours, Never did I see such deep impressions made on the
minds of that people, except, perhaps, in the very short visits of Mr. Wesley. But he had the care of all the Churches, and was occupied with that care in every place. Mr. and Mrs. Fletcher had a liberty in that respect which our father in the Gospel could not have. They were the unencumbered helpers of the people's joy; and it was truly the joy of the Lord. Those Divine impressions were deep and abiding: and, as Mrs. Fletcher hoped, a great revival of pure religion followed in that society. It had usually consisted of about 500 persons, but it soon increased to upward of 1,000, and has never since fallen below that number. Such longing after entire conformity to the Son of God, I never beheld! It seemed to be the general sentiment of all, from the highest to the lowest of the people. How wide this sacred influence might have extended, who can tell, if a poor sectarian spirit had not limited the labours of the man of God. On their arrival at Dublin, their host, Mr. Smyth, a distinguished and most respectable gentleman, applied to the rector of St. Andrew's parish (in which he lived) for Mr. Fletcher to preach in his church, and as he was a beneficed minister, it was immediately granted. The church (commonly called the Round Church) was crowded to excess. Mr. Fletcher's text was, Almost thou persuadest me to be a Christian, Acts xxvi, 28. He showed what it was to be a Christian, from the liturgy which had just been read; beginning with the general confession, and the authoritative declaration of pardon to those "who truly repent, and unfeignedly believe his holy Gospel;" and going on to that "cleansing of our hearts by the inspiration of his Holy Spirit, that we may perfectly love him, and worthily magnify his holy name, through Jesus Christ our Lord.” He then proceeded to persuude them, with an earnestness and power that astonished the congregation, some of whom seemed to doubt if he were not more than human. But, alas! It was soon known that Mr. Fletcher preached that same evening at the Methodist preaching house ! The pulpits of the churches were immediately shut against him, with the exception of the French church. The first time he preached there, his text was, Call to remembrance the former days, in which, after ye were illuminated, ye endured a great fight of afflic. tions, Hebrews x, 32. He thus brought before them the faith of their ancestors, and the persecutions that had driven them from their native land, and strongly enforced the inquiry, Do ye now believe? When some of the people were asked, Why did you go to the French church to hear Mr. Fletcher, when you could not understand one word he said ?" They answered, “We went to look at him, for heaven seemed to beam from his countenance!"-ED.
My continual prayer was, Ah! Lord, break me in pieces ! Melt me down and let me flow, and more fully take the mould Divine! My soul is deeply convinced of the need of being filled with “ all the fruit of the Spirit,” or I shall never bring glory to my God. O that thou wouldst accomplish all thy will upon me!
Since our return, my dear husband has taken another journey of about two hundred miles, from which he has a good deal suffered. His face is not yet well. But the unwearied patience and resignation wherewith he goes through all, is to me a continual lesson, which I wish to imitate.
November 12.-And do we see the anniversary of our blessed union yet another year ? And are we yet more happy and more tender toward each other? Yes, glory be to God! we are; and what is better, I can truly say, our souls get nearer to God. We are more spiritual, and live more for eternity. What have we passed through to. gether since this day twelvemonth! What a tender kind friend hath he proved himself to me in every circumstance of each situation! And now Providence hath so graciously brought us again to our own country, and quiet habita. tion. O that we may live to him more than ever.
Yesterday I was much blessed in offering up my whole self, with all my concerns, into the hand of God, believing he would appoint me all my work, and all my crosses. He showed me he would make his will known to me through that of my dear husband, and that I was to accept his directions as from God, and obey him as the Church does Christ. That I must give myself to his guidance as a child, and wherever we were called, or however employed in the work of God, I should always find protection, and glorify God, while I renounced all choice by doing the will of another rather than my own. This, indeed, I have always seen ; but it was now more deeply impressed on my heart, as I was assured there was no danger in doing so, having his guidance. I saw how often, through that unaccountable fear which presses down my spirit, I have been afraid to follow in the ways he hath pointed out, and so have hindered the order of God. Lord, from this day I covenant afresh to be in this particular at thy own disposal !
February 3, 1784.-This day my convictions have been greatly deepened concerning the sin of unwatchfulness in the use of my tongue. We must be willing to be dumb, and not open our mouth, when God's order calls us to it; and to be fools in the eyes of man, that we may receive the true wisdom.
September 12.-This day I am forty-five years old. Lord, what hath my setting sun to shine on? Must I say, A lost life? O, how much of it hath been so ! What might I have been ! What might I have done for thee, O God! Yet this day I have had such a sense of the goodness of God toward me as I cannot express. I am filled with favours ! I have the best of husbands, who daily grows more and more spiritual, and I think more healthful, being far better than when we first married. My call is also so clear, and I have such liberty in the work, and such sweet encouragement among the people. My servant too is much improved, and as faithful as if she was my own child. An income quite comfortable, and a good deal to help the poor with ! O what shall I render to the Lord for all the mercies he hath shown unto me!
October.--As I was retired this morning at my ten o'clock hour, I was called down to Mary G- I asked her if she still retained her spiritual liberty. I found by her answers that she did, which caused me to praise the Lord. She gave me a strange account, which I shall insert as she related it. A short time ago, she said, she was one day going out to work in the fields, but thought she would first go up stairs to prayer. While on her knees, praising God for the care he had taken of her children, she was amazed to see her eldest son, about